Fuck!!
Today I feel jealous!
At my current workplace my uncle works here as well. Like I explain earlier on that his behavior towards me has changed drastically. I was close to him while growing up and know I can sense a change in him.
When ever he comes into contact with me he will pass comments with the aim of belittling me. When ever we are in the same area he is always on an edge towards me. Itâs strange I have no idea what I have done him.
It could be stemming from family fued but from what I can recall I didnât do him anything at all.
He was the one that was instrumental in getting me to take a transfer to this workplace like I mentioned in the Khan journal. And now when I do think back about it I had a very hard time getting that transfer approvedâŚmy subconscious knew that this place will be toxic to me.
This is definitely linked to Emperor but I have no idea why itâs manifesting this way.
Just to add Iâm getting shit tested by males a lot.
Can you describe more about the jealousy?
Its more in relation when I noticed a male approached the lady I was seeing at work.
You want to feel more Alpha and unbothered basically? That concerns you a bit?
In a nutshell, with the other points youâve mentioned (getting tested by men), it sounds like growth and processing.
If possible, feel the discomfort and doubt, but also, sometimes, are yourself to laugh at the situation.
Look at us. A bunch of evolved apes. Putting on a bunch of fancy clothes and using machines, but still at the end of the day worried about f**king, feeding, and finding a good position in the herd.
Also, my own opinion, find a physical outlet that lets you feel your limits, feel your strength, and breathe deeply. Helps to get the energy moving. Maybe you already have something like that?
Thatâs the training regime I follow at home.
I get the same feeling now. I give a shit about my job and how my superiors perceive me.
I am not even getting tasks done.
Are you still running Emperor, mate?
Iâm on Ascension.
I found it hard with Emperor in the work place.
How has it been working for you so far?
So far itâs good.
It gels well with my current environment. Lots of status but doesnât make me unapproachable.