Once in a while. She usually just uncomfortably ignores it.
She was mostly focused on how it gives her anxiety to hear it all the time, and how it effects our son.
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- And I forgot the end of the story. The wife retreated to our room and curled up on the bed. When I came to check on her, she acted like she was expecting me to lay into her too.
Much as I love her, she has the switch to victim tactic down.
This problem definitely isn solved.
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Today it was like nothing happened. Both between the wife and I and the wife and the roommate. Everything was pleasant. It was actually kind of weird.
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Lately Iāve been thinking about how I need to re arrange my life in order to get the goals I want in life in the medium term.
Those are more money, and more sex with more women.
At the moment, I work nights, have a good paying job, but a lot of expenses, and donāt get out much because of the weird schedule, home responsibilities, and lack of money.
Iām going to have difficulty finding another job in my field that pays a lot more. They exist, but theyāre rare. Iām really not sure what else I could be doing that would meet my financial needs. I would like to get something without the strict grooming standards that this place has though.
I want to look like the long haired, bearded bad boy that I did when I was younger. Thatās ME.
As to women, looking back, if Iām in an environment where I have regular contact with them, one or more will express interest in me after a while. I donāt see that that would have changed after years of self development.
It has happened on almost every job Iāve ever had, everywhere Iāve been to school, ect.
I either need to find a job that affords me more regular social contact with a group that includes women, or get involved in some regular activities that does the same thing.
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- I had two kind of odd things happen today. As I mentioned, weāre broke at the moment. I was a bit worried that I wouldnāt be able to get into work until I get paid on Tuesday night.
Three solutions presented themselves. First, I got a Fatherās Day card from my mother. It had a check in it.
Second, my boss called to see if I was able to work tonight. I said that I may not be able to make it because the check hadnāt processed yet.
He flat out gave me some gas money remotely.
Third, the rain cleared out of the weather forecast so I should be able to ride Monday and Tuesday.
Itās another of those things where Iām in what might be a bad situation, and suddenly a solution presents itself.
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- Iām already considering next yearās plan.
What do I WANT to do? Run through a Khan/Khan Black custom for a year.
What SHOULD I do? Do a Khan/EOG run.
Thatās the responsible thing and probably what Iām going to do.
Iām tired of being in financial crisis mode this often, and really need to change my relationship with money. Or make a lot more of it.
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Would a Khan Black/EoG custom perhaps help more with the money stuff?
Since KB works with the raw sexual energy that can help with goal achievement?
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I really donāt want to give up the social progress Iāve made on Khan. I think a full year on Emperor Black might have me being that mysterious hermit who lives in the cave on the mountain top. Albeit a very rich hermit in a very luxurious cave with EOG going.
I think the goal is going to be get my money situation squared away while continuing to be the Khan. Itās doable in a year. Just aggravating that I have to.
I was wondering that myself.
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Happy Fatherās Day to my fellow Dads out there.
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I woke early up with plenty of energy this morning, so what am I doing? Cleaning while everyone else sleeps.
I suppose I should be annoyed by that, but itās nice to be able to focus on it without child noise and everyone asking me to do a bunch of other stuff.
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If itās anything like here, theyāll ask anyway once they wake up.
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They will, but Iāve got until that happens.
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**6/19/23 STAGE 3 CYCLE 4 WEEK 3**
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The money situation continues to be a problem. Iām just not bringing enough in to cover our necessities and bills without extreme difficulty, overdrawn accounts and a hell of a lot of stress.
I have to do something about this, and I have to do it now.
It was irresponsible of me to run Khan this year instead of EOG. I was tired of always focusing on what I have to do instead of what I want to do, but it is what it is.
Establishing financial stability has to come first. I need -
One thing Iāve noticed. For quite some time actually. Is that my attention span isnāt what it used to be.
I havenāt really been exercising it. I canāt remember the last time I finished a book. I listen to audiobooks while Iām at work, but that really isnāt the same. Mostly what I do at work is watch YouTube, journal here, and other than that, Iām really just killing time.
I canāt really get into much at home because the disruptions are constant with a five year old and two adults who have constant needs.
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RoM could help with that.
I was thinking Limitless actually. Unfortunately, right now itās going to have to be RICH or Mogul.
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- I had something happen that I almost failed to acknowledge. When I got my truck fixed last month they let me know that I would need a brake job VERY soon. I couldnāt afford it at the time. I was concerned that it would become a crisis before I had the means to deal with it.
This paycheck had a good amount of overtime on it to begin with and a weeks worth more because I did some training on my own, so I was able to get it done a couple days ago.
Not the first time something like this has happened, matter of fact, itās been a pattern for quite a while.
I get some extra money, and something expensive goes wrong.
I used to think of it like āDamn it! Every time I get some money the universe takes it away!ā. But at some point I realized that there was another, at least equally valid way of looking at it. That is that the universe is throwing expensive problems at me, which happen to everyone anyway, at the precise times that I have the ability to deal with them.
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- OK, QTKS is going to cost me 640 a pop. At first I said Iām out, but now, minutes later, Iām just thinking that itāll be a challenge. Especially if I want to do my four stage runs. I only need to come up with it for my last six loops of TK, then I can figure things out after that. Next year the Year of the Golden Khan, so that should make it easier.
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- Or maybe a full year of Khan St 4 and Mogul would be the better plan. it might have the same effect over the course of a year. That or Emperor and Primal Seduction.
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I am curious how you still have not acjeived financial freedom on Khan.
Iām not sure. What do you mean by āfinancial freedomā?
I started this journey in a rather deep hole both mentally, and financially. I have a lot of debt, a wife on disability, and a six year old.
I donāt have a degree, and that is my own fault, and the skill set I have on paper is only good for a narrow selection of jobs that arenāt going to make me a millionaire.
I would do some kind of investment thing, but that takes capital which I donāt have.
Things have been getting better, but itās slow and steady. I think Iām really going to have to focus on the financial in order to move the needle in a life changing way.
Itās not the main focus of Khan. It has helped me maintain though.
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I am sprry for the judgement, best of luck
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- Iāll be ordering Stage 4 tonight. Saint said that it would be better to use QTKS as stage 5 to amplify the changes and get them really embedded.
So that changes my plan a bit. Iām thinking that next year Iāll run Stage 5 of TK alongside a full year run of EOG, then the year after do a QTKS of EOG (maybe an EOG Khan combo) st 4 while I run something else.
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