Day 5 - In pit lane getting four fresh tires. So far no adjustments on the car. Changing strategy of 3 days on 1 day off. Saw someone else was getting solid results from it and my intuition says go for it.
Setup: Acceptance Meditation + Rest Day 2. Even though it’s a rest day I listened to the commander before a meeting.
POM: I worked on my first ebook that I am going to offer for free.
Notes: I have noticed that I have some serious inner demons when it comes to fear of failure. I work on a project for a while until my subconscious starts pushing really hard against my ability to get past my fear of failure. Then I quit that project and start again. I notice that I do the same with subs, once the real inner work begins my minds resists really fucking hard.
The last couple of days I have felt like dog shit as all of my toxic emotions are rising to the surface waiting finally to be released. Some are buried miles below the surface. EoG ST 1 and Stark seem to be dragging all of my toxic bullshit out of my mind. But my mind is not letting go without a fight.
I have been practicing Acceptance the last 2 days which is really difficult because feeling like this is not fun. But I have noticed the pain is less intense and I feel lighter.