Update:
all the depression and bad feelings are all gone. And My current goal is to powerfully reprogram my thoughts and mental images I hold in my head.
Still have very mild anxiety at random times but that might be my minds way of saying don’t waste time socializing with something that isn’t lining up to my goals/tasks for the day.
Also noticed my super nerd side of me starting to come out when in conversation. Super analytical and counter factual.
Lastly noticed my deep desire for powerful self talk. Music listening time is down and so is general time wasting. My desire to go out and pick up and spend money has gone done considerably.