Driver's 2024 Log

Journals - Major Programs
#1

Day 1

Genesis - 3 minutes

After washing out for a few weeks, I’ve decided to run another subliminal cycle. None of the recent drops were of interest, so I tossed up between Phoenix and Genesis.

I went with Genesis because I loved the chilled out, yet productive, vibe I had when I ran it in the past. I started with 3 minute loops to see if that’s enough to observe an effect.

My goals are to be productive, make money, lose weight, and focus only on what is within my control. Emperor was another consideration as it would align well with these goals, but I’m not ready for hard hitting subs like Emperor or Phoenix right now.

  • I will meditate daily.
  • I will quit PMO.
  • I will use MFP to lose weight.
  • I will be patient and always do my best work, no matter how mundane the task.
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#2

I’m watching your journal @driver

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#3

Day 2

Rest Day

I’ve been feeling off for a while. I think the dopamine detox shook things up a bit. I have some moments where I feel truly happy, so I continue with it the best I can.

I haven’t noticed much from the 3 minute Genesis loop. It should be more obvious after a long washout.

Day 3

Genesis - 3 minutes

Today, I fully resolved a financial issue that has been hanging over my head for years. It’s a great relief but I’m still feeling a bit shook up internally. I didn’t sleep well due to the anticipation of the phone appointments I had this morning.

I feel some effect from the second 3 minute loop, as it seems my thoughts are more positive and optimistic. I’m used to doing 15 minute loops, but I was told the intense dreams I experience could be the result of over exposure. I’ll keep testing shorter loops because I’ve come around to the idea of finding the sweet spot, rather than reverting to the previous maximal listening, maximal results mindset.

My stress is down, so I should be able to fully focus on productivity and other healthy habits and commitments. I can’t wait to have a great sleep tonight and experience the feeling of a fresh start every day moving forward.

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#4

Day 4

Rest Day

Not a bad day, low anxiety and feeling more committed towards my goals and living up to my principles without any desperation or need for perfection. I think that’s what I enjoyed about Genesis, something similar to that vibe. Funny, because I want to say that I can’t feel the sub working but then I feel like this and wonder if it’s the 3 minute loops contributing to me feeling this way but without recon. I don’t know, maybe I was used to recon and seen it as a way to know the sub was ‘working’. I’ll continue at 3 minutes and see how it goes.

#5

Day 5

Genesis - 3 minutes

I started reading other topics and it made me want to add more subs. I will not read the forum as much to avoid the hype. When I read Genesis description and objectives I decided it was my best subliminal option. I probably get into the urge to change subs too often, hoping for too much, as some type of cope. It’s my reasoning and actions I need to guide me and less my emotions. My best emotional improvement solution I think is through rational action.

#6

Day 6

Rest Day

I’m not sure if 3 minute loops are working but I do feel good. I have natural cycles between feeling good and bad, so I don’t know if it’s normal cycle or if the sub is helping. I guess feeling good is good enough, no need to have all the answers.

I’m likely to add Phoenix to the mix next week, I think it will gel well with Genesis. I had good experiences with it but I’ll avoid overloading myself. I’m going to use @Billions listening schedule Mon / Wed / Fri, every 3rd week Fri off. I think it’s the right exposure level for me, coupled with 3-5 minute loops.

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#7

Day 7

Rest Day

I was confused with my listening schedule. I started this cycle on a Saturday, not a Monday. I’ll keep to Billion’s listening schedule but it will be Sat, Mon, Wed, rather than Mon, Wed, Fri, hence the second rest day today.

All is good, no recon, no results (?). I can’t tell much yet. I’ll keep going.

#8

Day 8

Genesis - 3 minutes

Crazy tired from some really hot days this week. I think Genesis might be nudging my thoughts towards improving my socialising and communication skills.

#9

Day 9

Rest Day

Going to start Mon, Wed, Fri schedule but with Emperor loops instead of Genesis. I need that motivation, discipline and drive. I had good results running 15 minute Emperor loops but at times felt tested during interactions with certain types. Perhaps less exposure with shorter loops will give benefit without the recon. I’ll try 5 minutes loops because 3 minutes didn’t do much for me. This cycle will be a bit all over the place but I’ll wing it and go by feel. I become a man on a mission running Emperor and it’s kind of what I need. I’ve been struggling since Christmas to get back in the swing of things. I’ll aim to keep Emperor’s productivity chilled, if that’s possible, like what I wanted from Genesis. Try not to overdo it, but still take consistent action.

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#10

Day 10

New Emperor - 5 minutes
Phoenix - 5 minutes

Emperor to promote discipline and courage. Phoenix for emotional grounding and commitment to change. I normally only run one sub but these should be good together.

I’m not sure what happened with Genesis, maybe the 3 minute loops were not enough or I might respond better to the latest technology, because I could feel a surge in energy immediately after the 5 minute loop of Emperor.

#11

Hey brother, it’s good to see you back :wink:

It’s worth considering, as you mentioned in your last journal, that you were thinking about taking a break from subliminals to avoid interfering with God’s plan and it changes you into something you didin’t like that much.

How do you plan to use them this time to prevent that from happening again?

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#12

Good question brother. I haven’t fully reconciled with that thought to be honest.

I hope to trust my impulses to act or not to act in accordance with the subliminals free will scripting. If my actions are for common good and my attitude is that of gratitude, I can’t be going too far wrong. I don’t believe the subliminals have ever changed my thoughts or actions, instead they reinforce and support what already exists. I’m planning to use them more intelligently this year, as a tool rather than as a solution.

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#13

Day 11

Rest Day

The loops yesterday were good. I moved past a few blockages (fear of fucking up) that were causing me to procrastinate. The evening time I was a bit off because I restarted the dopamine fasting lifestyle that I’d neglected somewhat in January. It takes a few days to readjust but it’s worth it.

Last night I had some dreams where I was being challenged. It was nothing too intense though, but some processing was happening during sleep. Today I’m feeling energetic and motivated again, as I was yesterday after running the loops. I’m thinking rather than sticking to a strict listening schedule with Emperor / Phoenix, I may instead wait until this feeling dissipates before listening to more loops. Then I can have the results I’m after, without overloading my subconscious into recon.

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#14

Day 12

New Emperor - 3 minutes
Phoenix - 3 minutes

I could still feel some effects but an inner feeling of uncertainty was returning, so I tested a 3 minute top up. Not noticing much yet.

#15

Day 13

Rest Day

Not a great deal to report after the 3 minute loops. I have a desire to do 5 minute loops primarily of Phoenix and throw in a 3 minute loop of Emperor here and there. Another option is replace Emperor with Emperor: The Will to Power, because it still covers most of what I want (discipline), plus with the added bonus of potential socialising improvements but without any romance scripting which I have no interest in anyway. That’s the impression I had anyway from reading the descriptions.

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#16

Day 14

Phoenix - 5 minutes

I’m fasted (food) now 34 hours. It seems easy and I will keep going. I don’t know why I started fasting, but I just thought I’m going to fast and I did.

I’m having self-improvement doubts, wondering if I should even bother with it anymore, wondering if it has ever had any truly positive effect. I know how to live my life, I’m already doing well, I look good and am in pretty good shape compared to average Joe. I have my own business and am happy adopting a minimalist type lifestyle. Being happy with myself and enjoying life might be better than squeezing blood from stone. If I’m always trying to improve myself then that implies I’m never good enough. I wonder to what end I seek through this self-improvement practice.

Just some scattered thoughts… Maybe Phoenix is hitting home some truths, or maybe I’m going through another phase of self doubt.

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#17

Uhm, I think you should put in a support ticket just to be sure. With HoM it has around 90% of the original Emperor script. I remember when I ran HoM I was way less horny and focused on woman, but I still had woman come to me in the Gym and starting to chat/flirt. It was just less present, but still there. Emperor itself is (What I can read and how it works for me) focused on having sex and romance.

Oef brother… Great job on your reflections. Personal growth can feel like a never-ending journey, with the pressure to always strive for perfection. This is especially true when we become fixated on improving ourselves. The more we focus on the self, the more anxious most people tend to become. However, it’s important to remember that the motivation to improve oneself can come from various sources. I personally face similar challenges, particularly from a perspective of faith. I often find myself feeling frustrated and filled with self-doubt when I rely solely on self-improvement to address my problems instead of turning to God. It can be a slippery slope.

Nice that you are fasting btw! Best way to get close to the source IMO :wink:

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#18

Yeah, I’ll look I to it. I might just stick with Phoenix and do more fasting for now. I have been feeling more grounded and insightful lately since starting Phoenix.

I had this thought that the subs turn me off because I’m focusing on external changes but I should instead use a sub like Phoenix and work on myself internally and that will eventually manifest outwardly anyway. It’s like I try to much to be something I’m not. Like wanting to be extraverted but I’m introverted. And it’s only really to impress others and have them like me at the core of it. Anxiety over things outside of my control more or less.

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#19

Day 15

Rest Day

I ended up fasting about 41 hours. It was good, I’ll do it more often. I have social event tomorrow, I thought about running a loop of daredevil before it but my realisations I wrote of in the last post makes me not want to bother with that idea. I’ll stick to Phoenix, it’s probably one of the best subs I have run.

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#20

Daily 16

Rest Day

Took another day off from the subs. It feels like I’ve got a lot going on inside my head at the moment…I’m trying to find some type of equilibrium or balance between my feelings, thoughts and actions.

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