OK I was to fast again, to jump to st 3
I was listening today to 1 loop st 2 and 6 hours later I was in the woods making a fire.
I didnât wanted to smoke weed, because I felt something is pushing to be realese. I had this feeling the whole day. So I stand besides the fire and think : letâs do it, letâs smoke one, it Wil be a vomit festival for sure.
So I did smoke one
This was an expirience I can tell you. first I get realy uncomfortable, then my head start to spin and I felt an ugly energy in my chest. It get stronger and stronger to the point where I couldnât bear it any more so I subconsciously opened my energy channels and startet vomiting.
First Fear, old stuck in my body memory
Then some fuckt up shit. I heard a voice screaming,: I donât want to get rapet-so I vomited realy hard until it was out. I automatically linked this voice and energy to my mother. Otherwise it dose not make sence. Thatâs my motherâs energy, I was exposured when I was in her vomb.
Thatâs my conclusion
Pressure was dropping In my chest and I let my channels open to shoot out the rest
Then self-pity was in the line and I pulled the Motherfucker out of my body and destroyed it.
All of a sudden I was in a very good mood and startet dancing to the music. 5 min later I packed my stuff and drive with the train home.
For 1 hour I just bursted out laughing and I am nearly at home.
Its so valuable to stand strong and trust yourself
This was a very good session