Dragon Emperor 2, Year of the Phoenix

Journals - Custom Subliminals
#281

Thanks. I think I have at least a couple of those in there.
I know I had Mountain Breaker and I think Plateau Transcendent in DE 2.0.
Star filled night is one I hadn’t thought of.

#282

  • I woke up from that voices talking state of sleep again. This time it was saying something about the Supreme Court, of all things.

  • My perceptions of things are shifting. At this point it’s hard to explain just how.
    One thing that is happening is that I’m kind of explaining certain metaphysical concepts to myself in my head.

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#283

Oh, I already did that with DE 2.1.

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#284
  • That’s two days in a row that I’ve remembered being in that state where I’m hearing voices just before waking up.
    I think that what’s happening here is that just from focusing on it, my mind is consciously recording what’s going on while I sleep.
    It’s not exactly a dream, but it does show that my mind is active even during sleep.
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#285 
        **7/8/24 CYCLE 8 WEEK 1**

  • I’m keeping SI as my second this cycle. I think that DE 2.1 might have enough financial stuff in it that I’ll be ok on that front for the time being.
    There are things happening on the SI front, but it’s kind of hard to put my finger on at the moment.
    I’m getting subtle shifts in perception and and sometimes just some flashes of insight.

  • I have started a metaphysical course of study laid out in a book. I’ve been through part of it before, and it is what gave me the most success. I’m being more methodical about it this time and not skipping steps.

  • I have noticed a distinct lessening of fear while riding my motorcycle. I have a lot more confidence in my abilities and things that scared me before don’t now.

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#286

  • And I have another sign of financial trouble. I don’t know what it is yet, it could be a number of things.
    I’ve put my metaphysical goals, or at least using subs for them on hold. I haven’t gotten us out of survival mode financially. Having any other goals at this point would be irresponsible so I’ve taken SI out and put FP2 back in.

  • I’m really frustrated with a lot of things in my life right now. It just seems like I can’t move the needle forward in any category of life. I can keep us afloat but it’s a constant struggle, but we never seem to be able to find dry land.

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#287

Hang in there, bro!

#288 
          **7/15/24 CYCLE 8 WEEK 2**

  • The financial trouble turned out not to be that bad. It’s solved now.
    The problem is that the kind of cushion I had built up so we had some money at the end of the month is now gone. No biggie, I’m getting a bit of overtime so I can build it back up.

  • I’m feeling a bit less stressed out.

  • Just those couple of runs of SI have really turned my attention to the mystical and metaphysical. I’ve been continuing a practice, and it’s going well. Also I’ve found a good source of information.
    I think I’m going to alternate SI with FP2 for a while. I think that that’s going to be one of the keys to breaking out of this stuck situation and finding a direction.

  • I had a bit of an insight as to why I stay in “survival mode” situations.
    I had an extremely stressful childhood. All the way up to going to college I had to carry my own mental weight as well as my father’s.
    Once I left, I well, did nothing.
    This is partly because I finally had the opportunity to rest, and partly because without the constant sense of crisis, I didn’t know what to do.

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#289
  • Something else occurred to me. It has proven virtually impossible for me to make changes in my subconscious manually. IE affirmations, visualizations, etc. It quite simply does not respond to the input. And I have the impression that even with subliminals I don’t get as fast or as high level results as some others.
    I just figured out why.
    It’s a defense mechanism.
    I heard very little positive and a whole lot of negative about myself for the first twenty years or so of my life.
    It came from both parents, almost all of the other kids at school, teachers, everywhere. And yes, eventually from my own self talk.
    I should be doing a lot worse than I am.
    However, in order to survive, I had to, let’s call it, harden the core. Make it so I really didn’t believe what was being said to me. Even what I was saying to myself.
    Problem is while I was hardening it to keep the negative stuff from penetrating, I armored it against everything.
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#290 
        **7/22/24 CYCLE 8 WEEK 3**
  • I didn’t make an entry yesterday. Date only to mark time.
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#291 
          **7/29/24 CYCLE 8 WEEK 4**
          **WASHOUT WEEK #8**
  • I haven’t been feeling like writing much. I still feel like I’m stuck, but I realize now that the stuckness is in my own head.
    I’m having trouble making myself do the things that would push me forward in some of the things that I do have control over.
    It feels like the gears are jammed. This might be my subconscious putting out a last ditch bout of recon before things break loose. I’ll see if it alleviates during this washout.
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#292

How are you?

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#293

I’m fine. Taking a full cycle off.

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#294
  • I’ve hit a wall. Or I feel like it anyway.
    I can’t seem to see a way forward.
    I’ll go into more detail later, but I believe I’ve put my finger on the problem. Two of them anyway.
    Energy. Driving force.
    Lack of it.
    I think that that’s the reason that I’ve had issues with manifesting and a number of other things that I’m trying to do. I suspect I’ve had blocks in my system all along, and in order to level up, I’m going to have to clear them. Fortunately, subclub offers a solution to that. Khan Black.
    I’m thinking about switching out Limitless for stage one I get done with my break. Might as well do a full year run of the emperor and the crucible.
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#295

As cliche as this might sound, some times a wall is there just before the great door is opened.

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#296

Possibly. I am taking a bit of time off. I’ve been on subs for years without a break. It’s time to take a month or so.

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#297
  • I think that a KB/mind’s eye custom might be a good move at this point. It supports any goals I have, and definitely would support the metaphysical practice I’m doing.
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#298

First draft of the KB/ME custom.

  1. KB1 Core
  2. Minds Eye Core
  3. New Aura Experience core
  4. Arcane Mastry
  5. Deep State
  6. Dream Traveler
  7. Elemental Opus
  8. Immortals Blade
  9. Immortals Courage
  10. Mystic Osmosis
  11. Sands of Time
  12. Stillmind
  13. Symphony of the Glyphs
  14. S. Primordial Aura
  15. Awakened perception
  16. Conscious Guidance
  17. Jupiter
  18. Grossly
  19. Mosaic
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#299

Just food for thought.

Is it truly/ mostly the Aura you’re after?

NAE makes all the modules doing their part to create an aura, if possible.
In this case it would be an aura of deep spirituality.

That’s very valuable in business and seduction contexts, also probably if you want to build a following as an spiritual leader.

But is that what you want?

I would imagine something like New Spiritual Experience core would work better, or even New Emotional Healing Experience or MDFY Conscious Guidance.

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#300

Great minds think alike. I swapped it for New Spiritual experience and I did put conscious guidance in there.

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