Super restless at work. Un-motivated. Feeling anxiety about my vehicle.
Just kind of feeling awful in a general sort of way, today.
Dream:
I won’t be get into specifics about the politics, but a political figure who is seen, all of a sudden, as not being loyal and who attempts to escape and is pursued through public space (large hotel or convention center) by people who’d like to kill him, of course without creating any sort of incident. In the end he manages to escape, but is still a target.
Still just running Dragon Reborn. Need to decide when to switch to ST2 from ST1. Friday will be 30 on ST1.
A response that could have should have been in this journal.
I find my anxiety taking on different intensities and qualities, but my response to it seems too much the same. My response has not yet led to a higher quality of life. I am not sure what to say about reconciliation, if I have experienced it or what to do about it. Probably should have tried to answer these in my own journal.
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I am noticing that I am more easy going, and get a better reaction from people, when I am in a situation where I lead people.
Back at home. Playlist running.
I always welcome comments in my journal.
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Listening to Alex Chilton on Spotify.
How significant would you say this is a change for you?
I’d need to watch it more to see if it stabilizes as a trait, but if so probably a 4 or 5.
Really have lost the energy and will to play an Ultima the last few nights.
Tomorrow is day 30 of Dragon Reborn ST1.
Day 30 of Dragon Reborn. I am at work, where I have indefinitely silenced the playlist in order to listen less than I had been.
I had noticed this process occuring, too during the nearly six months I focused on two customs.
I guess I will be taking a break day at the end of 30 days of DRST1. No way to play subliminal. Car fucked up, in shop, couldn’t get a rental, in hotel room for the night. Pissed off. Shitty situation.
Sorry man! I am wishing you well. Hang in there!
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Manifesting mystery auto problems and money leakages.
I reached the end of 30 days of DR1 yesterday. Ended up unexpectedly in a motel room waiting for my car to get fixed. It had been in the shop Tuesday night and they couldn’t find a problem to fix. Now it is back and I am worried it suffers from some issue related to extreme cold that they won’t figure out how to resolve.
So at the end of thirty I am seeing problems rather than triumph. It doesn’t have anything to do with DR, but my car issues have put me in a very negative state of mind.
I can sympathize. After the 60 plus days I’ve been with DR I really feel emotionally disoriented. I just consider this a passing phase and there will be the sun coming out soon in all its glory for me.