DM - Wanted Black/Khan Black

Journals - Major Programs
#1

I’ve been reading recently about how social ‘pressure’ can increase motivation so decided to finally start an online journal. It’s helped tremendously to read the journals from you guys and maybe mine can do the same. More so than anything though I think it would help to be held accountable for my actions. It’s easy for me to pop into one of the main threads, post any incredible results I experience and peace out again but that only tells half the story. It feels unfair and misleading to only share the positive sides of my journey.

My subliminal journey so far has been haphazard, over listening, mixing subliminals from different producers and stack swapping constantly. It was only earlier this year I got sick of making such little progress and just decided to build a foundation. I ran primal for 4 months solo, sticking to the listening instructions and it changed my life.

Cue to present day. The habit of stack switching began to rear it’s ugly head again, as did mixing subliminals from other producers (I’m an absolute sucker for shiny object syndrome). This all culminated into a generally trash day with lots of anxiety and the most frustrating part being that I couldn’t pinpoint what was even causing it. I just know that I felt really bad.

I journaled about it, meditated and came to the frustrating conclusion that yet again it was simply myself self sabotaging my own results, wanting everything all at once. Mixing subs to try and cover EVERY base. I decided to stop, mull over what I wanted the rest of my year to look like, build a 2 title stack and stick to it.

I looked through what I consider to be the archetypal titles to decide which one would be my main overall focus. Emperor had too much wealth, money doesn’t really interest me. Khan was too focused on romance, I want to date but I want it to just passively happen as I live my life. Stark was a contender but I really dislike the fame aspect. Then I stumbled on Chosen, it fit perfectly. This would be my base, my foundation, my companion to drive me forward. For my second title I already had my heart set on WB, I’ve been having good results with it so far and want to continue growing along with it.

My listening routine is simple, Monday, Wednesday and Friday i do a single loop of each. I like taking
the long weekend off. This lines up nicely with the gym too, it means on listening days I also go to the gym to work off any excess nervous energy accumulated.

My goal is to get as much focus and development in as possible over the next month and half. Uni starts back up in September and last year I only did the bare minimum to get by, this year I want to lose myself in it, I want to go to all the meetups, socialise, live my life and have fun. I won’t switch from this stack until I’ve at least started back in Uni. I have a bad habit of being too reactive, if I have a bad day I’ll typically switch up my stack or add a new title, essentially do something to make myself feel better, not realising at the time that it’s simply making things worse.

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#2

Day 1

First day listening today, I was shocked at how quickly I felt some of the effects of Chosen. The peace, the detachment from negativity (I still had some lingering anxiety from the rough day I had) and most importantly just this feeling of positivity about the future. It’s a really nice feeling to just have this confidence that everything is going how it should and that I’m on the right path.

I used to scoff at people who would listen to titles once and get instant results but I’ve realised it’s because my brain was SO full of subliminal input (I was over listening hard and for a long time) that it would take a lot longer for me because of the all the crap it had to wade through.

I don’t know why I have this unhealthy habit of over listening. Despite having incredible results on Primal when following and sticking to a plan, over time I just seem to crave more. Less is more seems like such a difficult concept to me despite the overwhelming evidence. I KNOW that it’s right, yet I always seem to end up craving this more destructive path. Maybe because it’s uncomfortable? Growth is scary, sitting in the comfort of drowning my subconscious in subliminal messaging is comfortable and familiar.

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Day 3

Second day of listening.

Chosen x 1
Wanted Black x 1

It’s honestly scary how effective these titles are when I actually follow the listening instructions and allow myself time off to process, it almost feels like a cheat code. I’m beginning to understand that pretty much all issues I was experiencing, be it small or large, was just due to me being in a near permanent state of recon from over listening. I went through this realisation earlier in the year with primal, however, what’s so destructive about recon is that it changes me gradually over time. I don’t just wake up feeling like trash, it slowly drags me down every day until I’m at a point where feeling like trash is normal.

My warning signs of recon seem to be:

Misophonia.
No Dreams.
Day dreaming about arguing with people.
Oneitis.

Recon does a lot more to me but these seem to be clear signs that I can look out for in case I see myself veering down that path again.

I’m slightly altering up how I listen, I fill out my offline journal twice a day. Once in the morning and once before bed. I’ll listen to Chosen during my morning entry because that’s the main archetype I want to embody, I want to face my day along with Chosen. WB spikes my sexual energy to scary levels so I plan to listen before sleep so that I can just go straight to bed. I’m worried that if I listen earlier in the day then i’ll just stay in and watch porn all day.

Overall though I’m feeling really good rn. It’s incredibly satisfying to wake up each day and be able to see the shift from negative emotions into positive ones.

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Day 4

Rest Day.

Yesterday was a damn good day, the shift in my personality when out of recon is so obvious that others are commenting on it. It was a solid day of what felt like just manifesting good situations. Multiple guys commented on my muscle development, 2 of which want to join me in the gym. Every interaction I had with women was fun and flirty. My boss has decided to pay me extra hours, as in not even working them, just paying me for extra hours as a thank you.

I’m feeling more aware of dating techniques too, there’s one girl I work with who has been very blatant with her attraction toward me, however, our shift together on the weekend she was ridiculously off with me. We have a lot of in jokes etc and it felt like she went out of her way to avoid them, and to be cold toward me. At the time it felt bad and I thought i’d screwed something up or done wrong in some way.
Leaving recon though, I realise I hadn’t actually done anything, she was off with me from the moment I walked in and reflecting upon it yesterday it actually felt like such an obvious “play hard to get” or “chase me” moment. In the past I might have acted upon this but in my current state, running this stack and feeling as I do, I just … move on xD I don’t have either the time or patience for dating mind games and if someone wants to go down that route I just move on to a different option.

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#5

Day 5

Chosen x 1
Wanted Black x 1

Final listening day of the week before long weekend to process. Incredibly happy with my growth in such a short span of time. Feeling more me than ever before. Few observations, I’m becoming completely detached from my outcome in social situations. In the past I would over think about how I came across in any scenario but now I’m just present. If things don’t quite go to plan that’s fine, it doesn’t matter, we’re human beings we won’t be perfect.

Also weirdly enough, colours seem more colourful xD Whether that’s a result of me just being more present and noticing things more, or just because I’m in a better place i don’t know but it’s really nice. I’m just appreciating the beauty in things.

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#6

Nice results. What is your listening pattern and how many minutes, thanks.

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#7

Hey man, I was planning to listen Mon/Wed/Fri for one full loop each but decided to simplify it and just stick to listening routine of a loop every other day then washout on day 21.

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#8

Day 7

Chosen x 1
Wanted Black x1
Love Bomb x 1

Part of my daily routine after journaling is to look through the forums for people running the same titles as me and see what positive effects they’re experiencing. While doing that I stumbled on this post from saint

Under his suggested stacks he recommends WB/Chosen but also including LB along with it. I’d always been a bit reluctant to run LB because I don’t think I full grasped what it did. It just sounded like it was going to drain me of energy. I started to read peoples experiences on it and found this post which really resonated with me

Honestly I think I’d completely misunderstood the title. I thought it was purely external based but this unshakeable self belief is what I crave. I feel like I’m building it anyway with Chosen but the extra focus on confidence can never hurt. I’m always reluctant to add a 3rd title to my stack but LB seems simple enough in it’s role to not detract from the path I’m on.

I think the stack still makes sense, Chosen is my main core development and archetype I want to embody. WB is my side goal, passive attraction. LB is a booster? It doesn’t take me in a different direction, it seems like it would just amplify the effects. Maybe that 3rd title spot can always be reserved for “Booster” like subs, if for example I notice something that’s holding me back maybe I could swap it out for something like LD.

Regardless, it’s my first day with LB and I’ll be extra careful to keep note of how i’m feeling and if it begins to spiral me off into recon.

Yesterday was a rest day and a rough one, I had a migraine all day. Completely unrelated to subs, I always get a migraine after I train traps. It resulted in a day of constant rest and napping. What was really nice however is that every nap I had I remember having strong dreams, all of which could be correlated to titles I was running. Just further proof to myself that I don’t need to listen everyday and that during rest days or days I feel bad the stack is still integrating into my personality.

it was also really nice to not try and mask my negative feelings by overlistening and self sabotaging. Typically if i feel bad i do something to escape and make the bad feelings go away, whether that’s porn, listening to subs, taking substances or w/e. This time though I did none of that. I accepted that my actions have consequences (I know that everytime i train traps it triggers a migraine) and just dealt with it. This could easily have been the point where I began to self sabotage and over listen but we stayed strong.

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#9

Had a great day after listening to my stack this morning.

Had a bit of a surreal experience in work today too. I recently had my nose pierced and want to get more piercings. An absolutely stunning girl came into the store with the piercing I want. I compliment her on it, we talk and she jokingly says that she wants another piercing and that we should go together. She wants advice on a product we sell so I leave the counter to go help her, I’m with this girl for a solid 20 minutes just chatting and having a good time and she must’ve dropped the whole “we should get this piercing together” at least 4 times into the convo and I did absolutely NOTHING. How many women are just gonna completely throw themselves at me before I act on it? The problem is that I don’t really see how obvious the signs are until after the interaction is over.

I swear I’ve gone from next to no attention over the past 10 years to new women blatantly hitting on me on a weekly basis. Wanted Black is literally magic, I just need to learn to act on it. It’s all experience I suppose. I’m also kinda just enjoying the journey atm. It’s really freeing to not be too attached to any one girl and to know that someone else is just around the corner.

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#10

Day 8

Rest Day.

Day started off really well, had a good workout, trained legs again for the first time in weeks and managed to stay focused despite the gym being absolutely rammed (summer holidays).

When I got home however, my old friend porn reared his ugly head and much of the day ended up going to waste. Thankfully a relapse like this doesn’t wipe me out like it used to, however there’s a definite heaviness in my shoulders, shame? The shame of succumbing to something I strive to stay away from perhaps.

Overall I’m happy with my core titles, Chosen and WB are pulling their weight and guiding me nicely. LB might’ve been a bit greedy, a thirst for faster results. It’s a rest day so I won’t make any concrete plans, I usually panic switch stack after a relapse as a means to almost justify it. I’ve been reading about people having good results with this through LD though so maybe I could add that as a 3rd title instead of LB. Will journal in the morning and decide then.

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Day 9

Chosen x 1
WB x 1
LB x 1

Now that the initial panic stages of relapse are over and my head is clear I’ve decided to stick with LB as 3rd title. The whole idea behind this public journal is to keep me accountable and not switch stack constantly as a result of outside influences. I decided to add in LB and i’ll stick with that decision.

Overall so far confidence is high, i find myself flirting constantly. Even if i’m not attracted to them it feels like I just get a shot of testosterone from it. It doesn’t have to lead to anything, we just give each other a mutual confidence boost and then carry on the rest of our days.

I’ve also decided to listen in the evenings before sleep, I want to maximise energy in the gym and listening early morning would always feel like it took a bit of that edge off me.

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#12

Chosen x 1
WB x 1

Took a long weekend off from any subliminal input, basically just to clear my head and snap myself out of the desire to switch up my stack.

Back to my original plan with no 3rd title. The inclusion of LB was completely unnecessary and only acts to detract from my focus. Chosen and WB have more than enough self love scripting. What seems to happen is that I’ll read about people getting positive results on subs that I’m not running which will trigger a kind of FOMO in me and I’ll manage to talk myself out of my current stack to pursue their results. What really seems to help is rereading the description for the titles I’m running. It reminds me that they’re everything I already need and more.

Outside of this I’m feeling great, I’m a lot more confident in my own skin, I’m walking around actually
feeling attractive, a feeling a never thought I’d have xD

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#13

Today was the point I decided to run back through my offline journal and monitor my progress over the past couple months. What I saw was that since adding Chosen my confidence has actually been a lot lower, before I added it and was just running WB I was getting some absolutely unreal effects.

My journey has changed, Chosen is gone and in it’s place I’ll start the process of Khan Black.

I don’t for a second think Chosen doesn’t work, just that it clashes with my personality so damn hard that I simply don’t respond well to it. I have absolutely zero desire to be in a position of authority
or leadership, I’m all about being carefree and enjoying life. Looking back over the description
now it seems kind of ridiculous that I would include it, but I understand why I did. I desired that
positive internal self confidence. It’s been a weird few weeks while running it, a lot of internal
conflict and honestly that makes so much sense after reflecting. I was listening to something
essentially guiding me to something that I don’t want to be guided to. I think in general I should
avoid any kind of alpha focused titles.

I also think that it was perhaps too much external change, I like the idea of running a single title
to direct my personality and archetype (Wanted Black), and then subs that support it. So instead
of being pulled toward both Wanted Black and Chosen at the same time, now i’m being guided
by WB and the other titles will simply support that transition.

I listened to DR:LD yesterday and it felt like it unblocked me from the negative loop I’d fallen into
and helped guide me to this conclusion. As of now my plan is to run KB/WB for 1 loop every other
day and to slot in DR:LD on occasion.

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#14

Had a big event to go to last night. A colleague of mine has got engaged and was hosting a party. I typically hate these kind of social settings. I’m a very outward social person but I live for deep meaningful conversation and connection with people and these environments where it’s just loud music and people getting drunk always feel so, empty?

In the past I probably would have sat there miserable all night, too afraid of judgement to actually leave but I had this really empowering moment an hour in where I just thought to myself like yo, I’m not having a good time so I’m going. I remember thinking that if I left at that point and got a good nights sleep I could be up early enough to sneak in a gym session before work, and actually have a good time there.

For my stack, I’m already feeling the surge in sexual energy and that always drives me confidence sky high. Even though I didn’t enjoy this party, I was still confident there, I was absolutely chill and the fact I left to do something I actually enjoy feels like it says a lot, prioritising myself and my own enjoyment is a fantastic feeling. I also found out after that as soon as I left other people started to leave, I think it contributes to the Wanted persona too, I’m a valuable commodity, there’s so many people that want my time and company that if I’m not enjoying something I peace out, I don’t feel any obligation and I love that I’m impulsive and unpredictable.

#15

Had a solid few days with KB/WB now, sexual energy is reaching ridiculous levels and it’s absolutely smashing my plateaus in the gym.

I also had quite a big realisation the other day about how much of a negative effect gaming has had in my life, yet again just another form of escapism. I’ve decided to embrace boredom, boredom seems to motivate me to do things, to grow up, but I rarely actually feel it because as soon as I did I would just load up a game and escape. Got rid of all my consoles and deleted anything gaming related from the PC. The PC will now just be my study station when uni starts back up.

I have no idea what led me to this realisation, maybe khan black? I know stage 1 has a lot of healing but I thought it was all sexual related. Regardless of where it came from though I’m incredibly happy to have done it.

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#16

Sittin here in recon and thinkin about the same things.
How i can take my life back in my hands and embrace action

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#17

Good luck with it brother.

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#18

I’m currently swimming in the effects of WB/KB. Yesterday girl from work text me out of the blue and asked me to hang out with her. She has a boyfriend but keeps asking me to come hang out with her. I did and had a great time, we always do, but I pretty much told her outright that I’m into her but I’m not really comfortable hanging out too much with her having a boyfriend. She messaged me later that evening but I wasn’t really down to reply. I’ll see her tomorrow in work and the hot/cold dynamic from Wanted is kicking in hard, it keeps me from going insane and getting mad oneitis.

Tonight I’m going to a spiritual evening with a different girl I work with. It’s crazy to think that I’m in a situation where I’m hanging out with multiple women all interested in me. The me of last year would have never been able to have envisioned this. And the best part is that it all feels so chill, I just want to have fun.

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#19

boys just wanna have fun

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#20

One thing i’m really enjoying about this stack rn is that it’s fixing my relationship toward attraction.

I used to carry this limiting belief that showing attraction toward a woman was almost a form of weakness, that it would like give her all the power or w/e.

Now though? Completely shattered, I love that i can come in hard, tell a girl she’s beautiful or that I’m into her and then just peace out for a few days because i’m not overly attached to any one person. Like I can announce my interest and move on with my life, let that seed build in their minds.

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