When it comes to my current thouths on ZP, I posted it in @SaintSovereign 's journal and I’m just reposting it here, slightly updated using bold:
As someone who gets little to no recon, even though I don’t take much physical action but still greatly benefit from running Zero Point in terms of both internal shifts and real-life results, I can tell that what has yielded the best results—and actually 90% of them—has been strictly related to shifting my self-image rather than taking physical action and experiencing its direct results, and testing those shifts in my self-image against “reality” through the lenses of the NSE.
Therefore, to me, “flow factor” is something a bit different than how it is understood on the forums. It’s not only this:
but first of all, the ability to contemplate (introspect) my self-image without flinching. It’s looking at my self-image as if it were an object “beyond me” and not the real me—not entirely. This ability is based on radical self-honesty, yet with total detachment from what I see as myself (detachment from my self-image) and from inner experiences (emotions, bodily sensations, and thoughts) during the act of seeing.
The only instances of recon occurring in me are when I do flinch upon seeing radical shifts in my self-image—or I should rather say, upon exploring its new facets that contradict some vital facets of it I’ve known for years.
ZP is a never-ending truth trial for my self-image indeed. The NSE has added an invaluable factor to it. It lets my life experiences take part in the trial (shifting my self-image), and thanks to that, the whole trial isn’t limited as much by my… “self-imagination” anymore.
However, the newest tech has brought a totally new dimension to the whole process called reconciliation—not only in terms of smoothing it out but also in terms of optimizing it. The new tech helps our mind capitalize on reconciliation to a really high degree, in terms of both the amount and depth of inner shifts. It does this by making the union between both minds (subconscious and conscious) stronger… more truthful, so to speak. It broadens our awareness of what’s happening in our subconscious and, therefore, makes aiding it consciously and intentionally more effective. It makes it much easier to get to the root of the facets of our self-image that are being reconciled, and the power of the insights alone helps the whole process tremendously. On top of that, it works in marvelous synergy with the NSE, which manifests relevant “props” (things that support the shifts).
Let’s take a look at my yesterday’s shift that was really profound. I wrote about it in my jornal (however, I didn’t include what happened next, causing that powerful shift):
How can one open a door if one doesn’t even see it?
One may fail to see it for years, even if the door is deeply burned into one’s psyche by profoundly traumatizing events. One doesn’t even realize they’re “holding the door” — trying to keep the evil that happened from ever happening again…
I saw the door today… and yet, behind it lies only fear — for the “evil that happened” is no longer behind the door I’m still holding. What remains is a fear of betrayal, rejection, and psychological abuse. I protected the boy who was meant to become a true king… yet he was betrayed, crippled, and frozen in a merciless blizzard that seemed to have no end.
I found the door I’m holding — up in the North, where the Ice keeps its deepest secrets locked within its dead heart. But the true king is nowhere to be found. He is imprisoned behind the very door I’m holding so desperately, for this fear cuts deeper than swords… deeper than Valyrian steel.
And for that fear… I am killing the king I swore to protect.
I am a kingslayer.
I am the worst traitor of all — for I am betraying my Self.
Last night, I watched that video a couple of times, fully identifying my most terrible trauma with it and with how the Ice (my unique survival mode) copes with that trauma (I described all of that above). And then, one more video was manifested—displayed after the first video finished.
I saw people reacting to the first video, and my mind identified it with something that had always been missing in dealing with my trauma—not being alone, being felt and understood by others, instead of just being judged superficially or mocked for what I became because of what was done to me. I experienced the most profound act of healing there is—catharsis.
There’s so much to the newest tech that I could write and write about how it’s affecting me, but I chose to share the most impactful shifts.
