Discovery - Dragon Reborn & StarkQ - Journal of PurpleRT

Journals - Major Programs
#122

That’s right, midway through Stage 1 I think. Maybe 3/4 of it.
I do attribute it to stacking DR with QL that gave him that moment of clarity. This came after he recovered from the recon and used it as fuel for his life.

He added Stark days after his realization and mission and dropped QL.

Much, much easier to digest and feel more chilled with life in general. Also pretty much more chatty, enhanced socialization skills, increased performance in learning Japanese. Ain’t feeling anxiety in trying new things. More creative when drawing and enhanced coordination when illustrating.
Confident stance, plus more optimistic and overall more attractive to myself and others as far as I saw today.
Some outside contacts told me I lost weight and complimented my new look. That’s… That’s new I can say. I’ll be honest.

Don’t wanna sound cliché but I ain’t familiar with receiving compliments. This is a change indeed.

Emperor ain’t bad, although didn’t realize I was feeling on the edge constantly. Not so much right now. Authority and commanding is something I can give it to Emperor. However I do realized I can’t do what I seek in life alone. I’m in the search of expanding my inner circles now. Finally my pride in being lone wolf assimilated into something better, to be more social n’ meet people of similar interests.

To assemble my kick-ass crew.

Thank god that Stark has IC scripting in it. And if I’m going all-in related artistic pursuits, why not adding the innovation, wealth and alphaness of StarkQ? This journey’s going great!

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#123

This is really cool, yes Emperor can be super on edge. Life narrows into being about accomplishing what’s intended- which is super powerful if used in the right context but not always the thing to do/way to be unless that’s what someone wants and/or conditions are set up for that.

Sounds like a great evolution. Looking forward to what’s next.

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#124

@PurpleRT73

I think things are starting… your plane is on the runway and cleared for take off.

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#125

Perhaps your brother could try QL st1 for 60 days, then maybe add DR st1 as he stops QL st1 and goes to QL st2

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#126

Therefore I assume this is finally… the pathways of manifestation opening up right?
It’s a fascinating concept how everything begins to sort itself out.

That’s a great idea to try maintain excellent streaks and long-term change with both programs.
Sometimes it’s a pain to run other heavy major programs such as stages at the same time with others of the same caliber, it’s a good strategy to spend two months each.

As I’m seeing things looks like he’ll keep the DR & StarkQ until he finishes with DR on April.
I wonder what he’ll run afterwards?

Sounds cool though, here comes the power of the Stark Brothers!

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#127

Day 19:

Man, another major breakthrough, this time was for me.
Finally found answered one big question last night.

'Cause the old wounds convinced me not to show my truest side. My own pride in the matter made me cut off me of the things I wanted to try and pursuit mainly due to the reputation I made inside my family and with my other colleagues.
From the upbringing and shitty years back in school, no longer have to be afraid of criticism.
Always afraid of public opinion, of what they think of me. To be shunned.
This thing constantly pursued me. Not anymore.

Made me realize. Why the fuck do I have to shut down and repress what I like for others and not for me? I thought I had the idea clear, well last night I DO now have what I want.
Not what my family thinks, not what my friends or society thinks.

It’s my life, it’s my way. You don’t like it? So be it.
Don’t have to prove worth to others, but to do what I prefer, otherwise it’s wasting time.
Maybe father has the idea of what he expects from me, but no more.
I don’t have to search for his approval. Don’t have to mold my life for him.
But for myself.

Maybe I said this in the past, but now I TRULY feel I’m doing what I honestly seek.

Father, man…
He always bought clothes for us and not really gave us our chance to get the clothes we desired, it was always what he think was the best. Not to mention his strict way of raising me that gave me fear of speaking up, among other shitty things. DR slowly peeled that fear off, and stand up for myself properly.

He’s talking crap of these audios, being pretentious, arrogant and immature, making fun of others at his age is painful to see. Always bragging, wearing expensive clothes to “remind others what they’re worth”. Right now for some reason he’s behaving like this for weeks.
Apologies for the small rambling.

Jesus, for once I’m beginning to buy the clothes I truly want. Finally at age 18. It kinda sucks had to be until this point. But it’s the first step towards being who I really am. Last night bought some cool clothes and I feel confident on my skin wearing something that fits me and what I like.
Practice my self-defense, learning Jap, writing skills, illustration…
This is my life. No more repressing.

Things are sorting out slowly but surely! Even so, I have seen A LOT numbers like 12:12 / 21:21…
77, 12:34, and many many times 11:11.

The time’s now, I’m pretty sure of that.

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#128

Day 20:

More answers, but I have my mind clear now.
Real clear, there’s no doubt.

Aching to speed up my stay on my country, and I’m now real about honest with my goals. Oh yeah now I have the intense drive of achieving my dreams, desires and pleasures.
I’m not fucking around. I have this burning passion in my heart, aura and words it’s magical. To embrace myself and what I seek.

About goddamn time.

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#129

Day 22:

Peeled off more doubts in my career choice. If I’m going all in related to wealth and arts, I’ll head over to 3D Modeling. Can make good money with it, financial independence and enjoy bringing sketches into life with the models and potentially animate them.

Spent the afternoon researching career choices in my country and estimated time for a degree.
Modeling all the way, skill talks more than a CV in there. Although I’ll be sure to sign up somewhere to get a degree in it.

Man, that walk I took for once in my life does help in reflecting what I want.
Seems more aligned to my choices. I’m about to learn the basics.

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#130

:+1::sunglasses:

#131

Day 23:

In a week I’m switching to ST3.
Rough day, the recon’s driving me nuts. Been almost non-stop questioning and experiencing recon for a week now.
Sure sometimes I assimilate two conflicting ideas and get inspired and motivated, but hours later more questions arise.

Feeling pissed-off, but the good part is that there’s a faint inner voice telling me that I deserve what I seek in my life. DR’s helping fortunately, however this moments of doubt are getting on my nerves.

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#132

I understand… fewer loops… more rest days.

#133

You’re right there. Gonna take the night off, let my mind process even more.

#134

Yea. @PurpleRT73 I’m finding that my walks are among the few things that help.

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#135

what’s your sense of the ‘alpha-ness’ in Stark?

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#136

I agree a lot man. The idea sounds good but it wasn’t until yesterday that I finally went for a walk on my own that helps a fuck-ton in the thinking process.

Walking’s nice, a small trip basking in solitude and thinking what’s right for one itself, while enjoying the sound of the birds, the passing cars and the sun brightening the day.

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#137

The self-assurance and playful attitude one have for life itself. Not all riled-up like Emperor makes me feel. Stark’s alpha-ness relies on a optimistic side, a personal sense of creative power in both the work one makes such as projects or stuff like writing & drawing, and how your social skills gets polished with it.
To be confident, optimistic, youthful and dominant in a more wholesome way.

Whatever happens, Stark’s got ya back. From being a student, the laughs from my charisma and respect from teachers, along with the productivity. And this shit was in online classes, imagine if it was back physically. Who knows, I would have been the big man over there.

Right now Stark’s alpha side is more, more predominant than last year. So I can give a better feedback on the optimism and playfulness.
Thank god the recon’s now over, at last.

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Little Boy in the Big Game
#138

Stark covers a lot of bases.

#139

Day 24:

At last, shit’s been dealt with. Father even apologized for his recent attitude and it’s committed to change that. Even talked to me fully to start my first business steps and to let the money flow in.
My own money, apart from what we make.
A small venture which I can take part of it under his wing. Man, feels like the weight of the world has been shifted from my shoulders.

My pack of clothes already came in and I love how I look myself with these. Feeling optimistic and good mood overall. I’mma pickup my I.D tomorrow and enroll on my studies again this Friday.

Funny enough, the place in which I’ll enroll never sent any promotional emails, nothing for months. Surprised me a lot getting an email from them with a special discount for this Friday. The timing’s perfect. Not even an hour ago.

Things are looking right, and mended things with my father.

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#140

There is so much happening for you at once, I think you need…

:trophy::trophy::trophy:
:dragon: on man!

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#141

Day 25:

Took yet another rest day. Felt necessary, and good things happened despite the early hours.
Despite a mediocre morning, didn’t got my ID card yet, delayed 'cause of not presenting the right info, which gave to them in hand in the same moment to stop the bs. Supposedly they call me next week for me to pick it up, when today was the day.

The funny thing is, the place where I’ll study soon, last month they still asked for any type of documents that proves your age, and not anymore… It’s not a problem!
Today I checked and they no longer ask for it. In fact I’m ready to sign up from now on! Just need the payment and we’re done.

Weird, how this shit solved itself. Maybe the ID card got delayed but I can get back on track on my studies for four final months without it. Not complaining!

Studies, we cool. Money? I’ll have now my salary of each payment we get into the company.
Things are still looking cool! If I save enough and play my cards right, can get a custom or something I desire. And can still explore my ventures, such as writing, illustration and photography while having this.

Who knows, gonna save some for my personal gambling. A small reserve.
Man, things are way different since I began with DR.

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