Is this not up to the individual to judge for themselves?
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QL ST3 DAY55
So I started today with SanguineU. Shortly after, I listened to StarkQT. Just wanted to test it out again, but this time with Sanguine.
Shouldn’t have done that. Saw that my kid wasn’t paying attention during class. In fact, he was fidgeting so bad, and not even listening to the teacher. Got so mad I started shouting and made the kid cry. It was a good thing that my fit was during one of their breaks. But the fact that I lost my composure really got to me in retrospect.
For some good news, I received a response from this:
Got the Advanced Certificate in my email this morning. Feeling more confident to take that exam I keep failing. Will probably take the test next month.
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Hate when I do shit like this.
Tempted to say I remember every time it happened. But I know I don’t.
Super-congrats on the Advanced Certification. The plans unfold…
Money can buy time more than time can buy money.
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QL ST3 DAY56
So due to problems at work last night, I really wasn’t in the mood to work at all. Ended up binge watching Lucifer season 5. First time I watched Netflix by myself in a looooonnngggg time.
Played 2 loops of SanguineU today. 1 in the morning and the 2nd just after dinner. Then watched Project Power. Since it’s my break day, I didn’t play any subs aside from Sanguine. And the only reason why I played it was because I really needed to feel better today. After getting mad at my kid yesterday and the shit storm of system problems as the office, I just needed a break and a little optimism.
So now, I’m just waiting for my laptop to boot and then I’ll probably start working on my office project. Have till Monday afternoon to present and improved prototype. So yeah, if it wasn’t for SanguineU, I’d probably be kicking myself in the ass for procrastinating so long.
Yeah. Sometimes it feels like the aftermath of a bomb explosion. Lots of scattered debris, and you just need to pick up the pieces. The thing is, I was the bomb that exploded.
And thanks @Malkuth
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QL ST3 DAY57
So last night, I wasn’t able to work on anything. My laptop was getting slow and I decided to run some optimization and AV scanning to see if I can improve its performance. Took the whole night and by the time I finished, I was too sleepy to even think about work.
Today’s still a rest day for me so I decided not to listen to my stack except for SanguineU. I really love this because it helps lighten up my mood. With kids, work and being stuck home with nowhere to go really gets to me.
So I just finished 1 loop of SanguineU. Took care of the kids’ food and fixed their beds. Will probably take a nap as I feel that I need all the rest I can get before another school week starts. And also, I still haven’t gotten to the mindset of working on my office project even if I need to present something by tomorrow.
Because of the above, I’ll probably play BLU later this afternoon/tonight. I don’t want any conflicting issues today as it’s still “family day”.
QL ST3 DAY58
Went to bed past 2am last night. Couldn’t make my office project to work properly. Then woke up at 6:30 to get myself ready for another “school” day.
In between recess and lunch, I tried working on my project. Finally when I was about to give up, I saw some reasons why I couldn’t make it work. Was able to explain it to my boss during the team meeting, and was granted an extension on the deadline.
Nothing much happened aside from that. Kids were rather behaved. Either that or I just didn’t really care as I was too focused on the task at hand.
QL ST3 DAY59
Went to sleep around 11pm last night. And woke up a little past 6am. This is probably the longest sleep I had since school started.
And yet I’m still sleepy. Played SanguineU shortly after waking up but I feel so tired. Watching my kid attend class and I’m already starting to get mad as he’s not paying attention. I know he’s got ASD and kids like him find paying attention difficult, but I want him to pass school, do well and so on. It’s just so frustrating.
QL ST3 DAY60
I guess this may or may not be my last entry in this journal as tomorrow I will be adding my custom. Given that, tomorrow I will be writing a new journal in the Q-section.
As for now, it’s really a good thing that today’s a shortened day for my kids. Aside from feeling tired and sleepy most days, I often get mad because I see that one of my kids is making a fool of himself during his class, never paying attention, constantly playing with whatever he can get a hold of and showing it on camera, and only raising his hand because he needs to use the bathroom. He never participates in class, and when we ask him what the teacher said, he never gives a straight answer.
Because of the fact that I need to listen in during his class, I find it difficult to also concentrate on work. By the time school is done, I am also exhausted and find it hard to force myself to work. I know this is reconciliation because I am finding myself unproductive, and yet my goal right now is to be productive, either with work, my personal projects or my studies. But now, I am not able to do so either one.
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Sounds like a young Stark to me
How old is your kid?
Of course you want your kid to succeed in the established systems that offer general ‘success’.
If there super young they may be experiencing their own ‘reconciliation’, going from an infinite world of there own direction and curiosity to the constraints and demands of a schooling system that in general is pretty ‘archaic’
Schools say follow the rules, wait for permission, succeed on given terms, don’t create, and you don’t need a relevant connection to the subject matter at hand.
Success in reality is more like don’t follow the rules, make your own, don’t wait for permission, succeed on your own terms, create, and the only thing that matters is a relevant connection to the subject matter at hand.
Just want to offer a perspective that may give you a little more space around the situation.
You could also always do what @Malkuth does and play them Quantum Limitless 
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I wonder how younger people would process these kinds of subliminals…I’ve wondered, what if I was back in high school and played these subs? 
There are some 18 year olds who are using Sub Club subliminals. Looks like subliminals work very fast for them.
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Your focus would be much different in high school though. You might want to run subliminals that make you grow taller, be more good-looking (have no pimples) , get good grades or make your parents be less strict on you…
Yes, I already have an idea of what I would’ve played at the time…
My kid is only 9 years old. And though I would want him to use QL or Limitless, he’s just too young.
True, our current school system may be archaic, but it’s the only system we have.
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hey man how are thing in your life now?
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