Lately I’ve been struggling with suicidal thoughts and depression, feelings of loneliness and non worthiness. I don’t know if it’s normal behavior but I feel like I might snap soon and everything will end. I don’t know what to do or how to do it. I’m sorry to post this hear but this is the only place I hoped I could express my feelings.
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Can you trace back to the cause of your depression? Also do you have tightness in some part of your body?
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don’t be sorry bro you are the champ
every1 here is badass
ya bro this depression, loneliness, suicidal thoughts are symptoms of an internal subconscious problem
you need to get curious about it. cut distractions and get inside your mind, get intimate with yourself
don’t go to escapisms or porn or watch movies, dont run away from it or ignore it as just normal
go towards it with maximum curiosity, self reflect or do some meditations and ask “why am i feeling like this” it will pop in ur head what is the issues
create an intention to change and release this negativity u are experiencing and follow your intuitions
use some healing type subs bro
get back ur power get back ur zeal and lust for life, it all starts with ur subconscious mind u have no limits, they are just belief systems
destroy those beliefs and traumas, fill ur mind with the divine goodness
u willl rebirthed into your ultimate form
foundation is everything, healing is biggest priority
when u are healed and strong then other subs u use will be way smoother
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@Plutus Here for you. I struggle with depression myself and I have a very dark bleak almost nihilistic sense of humor. One of the few things that keeps me sane most of the time outside of my Wife. You are not alone
I would try to make all efforts to solve the problem before something outside does it for you. If you stew in it, you get further into “Disassociation”. Conveniently society has the cure waiting for you, if you want to take that path (Not to imply anything Hegelian here 
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@Plutus… You are growing and changing, that’s despite subs.
I had it in the past. It’s the part of you within you that is telling you something… In reality is not telling you to commit suicide or your not worthy but it is telling you to pay attention.
Yourself, the one that knows everything is communicating with you. Talk to him, see what he needs. He’s doing that for growth, and more often than not growth comes with/after what we perceive as pain. Go inside and listen. And don’t hung on it much though…
It help me a lot running and exercising, beside contemplating. Also if you happen to be nearby a park go there and spend few minutes with trees and flowers… Give them good thoughts and good wishes. Talk to them… You’ll be amazed…
Other than that I guess everybody here will help you going through this.
Keep it up brother!
Peace and love!
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Hi cybersec, that is sounds tough place to be, what is going on for you that makes you feel like this?
We are here for you to listen and I am glad that you shared this with us 
as intense as this may feel, you will make it out of it and move beyond it, take care of yourself and get support in real life as well.
Also this may be an effect of amphetamine use and/or withdrawals. It can help to know this may be a purely physical effect to distance it.
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This is a good first step for getting yourself on a better path. Often society expects us to carry on despite whatever pain we’re dealing with. We’re told that nobody has time for things like depression or anxiety. It’s a hard place to be because it’s a silent struggle and most people in your day to day life will rarely understand. I’ve been in dark places too and it can be very isolating. But my biggest piece of advice is reach out to people, open up, confide in people you trust. I harbored this shit like a deep dark secret and it ate away inside of me. The non worthiness is always strongest in your own head and it can be damn near impossible to convince yourself otherwise. That’s what other people can help you with.
And if it gets really bad, to the point you’re seriously contemplating things stop using these subs and get professional help. I can’t stress that enough. It’s tempting to think if you just keep pushing and pushing, you’ll reach a point where you move past it all. And that may be true in the long term. But depression is basically heightened stress. Causing more stress on top of that, no matter how well intentioned, will only harm you more.
Depression is a clusterfuck of a thing and you shouldn’t feel like you have to do it all alone. The fact that you’re here using subliminals shows you have drive, ambition, and personal responsibility. But don’t let that get in the way of knowing when to ask for help from others.
I don’t know if that helps. Just remember in this state it will feel like every negative thing you tell yourself is the truth, but it’s a distorted view of yourself. No matter how real it seems, it’s not because there’s no inherent truth behind it.
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Part of it is because I have friends I don’t enjoy hanging out with but hang out with either way because I don’t want to feel lonely.
Part of it is because I’m on a journey I’ve been burning out by because of how much research I’ve been doing to achieve that goal (photographic memory).
Part of it is I feel like sh*t knowing that I didn’t do anything for a few days.
Lastly, I feel like the trauma I healed (getting bullied, made fun of, and rejected multiple times in my teens) coming back and telling me I’m not good enough.
Thank you so much I really appreciate it. I will try meditating tonight hopefully that will help.
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Yeah I went for a jog to clear my mind. Thank you for your support I appreciate it.
I see we have a philosopher here:)
I will try it out thank you!
Yes jogging helped, I did that a few minutes ago:)
Thank you for your advice I really appreciate it and I will keep going!
Part of it is because I have friends I don’t enjoy hanging out with but hang out with either way because I don’t want to feel lonely.
Part of it is because I’m on a journey I’ve been burning out by because of how much research I’ve been doing to achieve that goal (photographic memory).
Part of it is I feel like sh*t knowing that I didn’t do anything for a few days.
Lastly, I feel like the trauma I healed (getting bullied, made fun of, and rejected multiple times in my teens) coming back and telling me I’m not good enough.
(Also I had a traumatizing experience because of a toxic fake friend which made me lose a girl that I almost dated and that friend caused me to kind of become a introvert which is make me uncomfortable inside out so I’m putting in effort to become a extrovert again)
I only took it once 2 days ago I don’t it’s withdrawals because I barely that it,
I think it might be trauma coming to haunt me if that’s even possible.
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Thank you I very much appreciate it, if it does get to that way I will seek some kind of help 
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trauma is possible for sure, the day after vyvanse/adderal for me is incredibly unpleasant for me.
It dumps all the dopamine in your brain. Same as MDMA dumps all the serotin/dopamine- there’s a major comedown. But whatever they case wishing you the best.
@Azriel interesting you mention the neurotransmitters, I’ve begun an experiment myself with firstly niacin and B6, and shortly when they arrive GABA and arginine alpha ketoglutarate. The two in combination are synergetic in that the arginine assists the GABA in crossing the blood brain barrier and reaching the synapses. GABA is really good for calming the mood and it has the added benefit of assisting growth hormone release.
that’s a good combo
you were itching for a reason to share this lol 
Feel free to share any supplement tips or experiment results on my journal as well.
niacin and B6 are underutilized and often deficient.
GABA and arginine alpha ketogularate will be especially. good for growth hormone if intermittent fasting, at night, and pre- anaerobic training.
I would not recommend GABA to someone with depression though-unless it was for specific caues.
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