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Journals - Major Programs
#21

4/10 – Day 11: Listening Day

  • Listened: Emperor for 2 Full Loops
  • Got 8 hours of rest today — first time in a long while.
  • Relapsed yesterday; goal now is to stay clean from monday for the rest of the cycle.
  • Cycle status: 10 days left (5 listening days).

Plans & Goals:

  • Starting intermittent fasting on Monday, 6 October.
  • Need to lose 20.4 pounds to reach healthy BMI; already lost some but still work to do.
  • Tummy sticking out and chest fat developing — can’t fit many shirts.
  • Always say I’ll work out and not relapse but procrastinate; time to act with baby steps.
    -From Monday is monk mode
  • Focus: Stop talking about it, start doing.

Money & Work:

  • After pay on Tuesday, 7 October, will have only $200 loan debt remaining.
  • Supervisor asked about next week’s schedule — plan to work Tuesday to Sunday (if paid before shift Tuesday).
  • Saving to afford trading course and get Prop firm account.
  • Plan: Trade Monday–Thursday, work Friday–Sunday for steady income.
  • Goal: Avoid emotional trading, stay disciplined, and get a payout (no matter how small).

Health & Lifestyle:

  • From Monday: Fast as long as possible daily, eat nutritious meals, and workout.
  • Prioritize consistency and discipline every day.

THERE ARE ONLY 88 DAYS LEFT IN THIS YEAR

#23

I’m currently on a washout phase(Day5) since I messed up my listening schedule
no big deal, tomorrow is Day #1 again, and I’m ready to reset with purpose.

I’ve officially quit smoking, and I’m committed to avoiding alcohol while I get back in shape. Lately, I’ve been more active than ever, and I’m finding it harder to finish my meals, which is a positive change. My body is adjusting, and my discipline is growing.

With cigarettes gone (and they’re crazy expensive anyway), I’ll be able to save more money and invest it in things that actually build me up.

Yesterday, I relapsed, but only smoked two sticks while drinking. I regretted it immediately …I didn’t even enjoy the alcohol, and I struggled to finish the cigarette. That was a wake-up call. I need to learn to say NO, even when it’s hard, and stand firm when I’m around friends.

I realize there’s a part of loneliness I have to face … I’ve been using alcohol and cigarettes to fill that void. In the past, when I quit, I noticed fewer people reached out, and I used that as an excuse to relapse. But now I know this journey is about self-respect, discipline, and growth, not validation from others.

I’m not starting over; I’m starting stronger.

“Being sober has helped me. I don’t oversleep like I used to. I’m waking up early. Changing my diet has also made a big difference. You can’t change nothing if you don’t change your diet. That’s 100 percent. You can tell if somebody’s serious by what they put in their mouth, whether that’s drugs, food, whatever. The body is a temple. That’s because of the comfort thing.”
— Gucci Mane

#24

My 21-Day Listening Schedule: "Emperor" & "Ascension Chamber"

Cycle Length: 21 Days

Listening Pattern: Every other day (Active listening days followed by rest days)

Subliminals Used:

  • Emperor: Listened to on every active listening day
  • Ascension Chamber: Listened to for ONE LOOP only, once per week
Day Date Day Activity Subliminals
1 Fri, Oct 17, 2025 Friday LISTENING DAY Emperor & Ascension Chamber
2 Sat, Oct 18, 2025 Saturday Rest Day None
3 Sun, Oct 19, 2025 Sunday LISTENING DAY Emperor
4 Mon, Oct 20, 2025 Monday Rest Day None
5 Tue, Oct 21, 2025 Tuesday LISTENING DAY Emperor
6 Wed, Oct 22, 2025 Wednesday Rest Day None
7 Thu, Oct 23, 2025 Thursday LISTENING DAY Emperor
8 Fri, Oct 24, 2025 Friday Rest Day None
9 Sat, Oct 25, 2025 Saturday LISTENING DAY Emperor & Ascension Chamber
10 Sun, Oct 26, 2025 Sunday Rest Day None
11 Mon, Oct 27, 2025 Monday LISTENING DAY Emperor
12 Tue, Oct 28, 2025 Tuesday Rest Day None
13 Wed, Oct 29, 2025 Wednesday LISTENING DAY Emperor
14 Thu, Oct 30, 2025 Thursday Rest Day None
15 Fri, Oct 31, 2025 Friday LISTENING DAY Emperor
16 Sat, Nov 1, 2025 Saturday Rest Day None
17 Sun, Nov 2, 2025 Sunday LISTENING DAY Emperor & Ascension Chamber
18 Mon, Nov 3, 2025 Monday Rest Day None
19 Tue, Nov 4, 2025 Tuesday LISTENING DAY Emperor
20 Wed, Nov 5, 2025 Wednesday Rest Day None
21 Thu, Nov 6, 2025 Thursday LISTENING DAY Emperor

Summary: The Ascension Chamber is used on Day 1 (Oct 17), Day 9 (Oct 25), and Day 17 (Nov 2), following the "once every seven days" rule. The Emperor subliminal is used on every active listening day.

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#25

Day 2: Oct 18, 2025

Yesterday, I listened to 2 full loops of Emperor (EMP) and one loop of Ascension Chamber (AC).

Nothing much to report. Had a haircut today, feel good to be fresh. I’ve been eating way less and have lost some weight. Will officially weigh myself soon.

I am moving more, walking more, and smoking lesser. I am committed to soon quit all habits and be sober. I have already let go of drinking, and I’m dodging social meetings for now, until I feel I can be around drinkers and smokers and not partake.

Will update