Creating a solid core with Dragon Regen + EOG 1 + GLM

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This has been happening for a little while (I’ve been using GLM for months with other subs) but I have next to ZERO patience or interest in people complaining about politics. I have my beliefs and won’t share them but the bottom line, I used to get pissed off about political happenings.

Summary

I stopped a family member a couple of days ago that I visited and asked them “Do you have a say in this?” and they said “Of course …”. No that’s an opinion, NOT power to change anything. The political stuff will happen the way it will no matter what you think or say. I’ve written Presidents, my Senators, Governor’s and I’ve written my Mayor. All you get is blanket responses and excuses and they do what they do.

I vote in ALL major elections and most smaller elections. I have a firm belief that it’s not just my right but my duty to vote and I have since I turned 18. But at the end of the day what happens in this Country, especially Internationally is out of my control.

So I asked this family member, and I’m getting a reputation very quickly, “Is this improving your life?” “It’s making you angry as hell, so it’s not.”

I still get angry but I’m asking myself this question and other people around me all the time. “Is this in your control?” “Does this improve your life?”

If so great. If not, LET IT GO. Move on.

I guess it helps that one of my favorite movies is “The International” with Clive Owens and Naomi Watts. First time I saw it, I hated the ending (won’t give it away if you haven’t seen it). After stewing about the ending after the first time I actually fell in love with the ending and got it.

I’m not a pushover. Quite the opposite. But only when necessary.

Is it improving your life? Is it in your control. If not, let it go. Don’t worry, be happy.

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I should add, I don’t have this with just politics. I have this same attitude with everything. If something pisses me off, angers me, whatever I always ask “Do you have a real say in this? Is this improving your life?”

I find that as I do this more (it is genuinely becoming automatic) the less angry I get about life.

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Your life does not get better by chance. It gets better by change.

• Jim Rohn

That quote is really resonating with me.

Speaking of change, I live in a city and a part of the city that I’m better off financially without a car. Most of my shopping is close by but I do have to take the bus a couple times a month for various reasons. I would always get triggered because of my PTSD. I’m just not getting triggered that much any more.

I’m still hyperaware (hyper vigilant) I don’t think that will ever change and it’s actually a good thing living in the city to a certain extent. But I’m not angry or hyped for hours on end afterwards like I used to get. I didn’t really notice before because that was my baseline for years. Not anymore and I really notice it now.

This is certainly Dragon Reborn Regen at work but I would bet there are things from GLM kicking in also. Today is my 14th listening day with this current stack, so almost a month with one listening day and one rest day.

I did have to add an additional rest day in there about a week and a half ago and dropped my listening times down a bit. I’m currently at 1 and a half minutes for each of the 3 titles. So 4 and a half minutes listening to the stack all at once. I’m doing fine at this length and don’t seem to have any recon but I’m going to stick to this time for another 2 listening sessions and then increase to 2 minutes each and see.

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Today was interesting. I was carrying something fairly heavy and when I finished I noticed that I immediately and subconsciously started tensing and untensing my shoulder blade muscles and moving around to loosen them up.

I’ve had very tight shoulder and shoulder blade muscles for as long as I remember. I saw a chiropractor for a few sessions and I would go to a masseuse every once in a while and everyone would comment how tense my upper muscles were. That was my baseline.

However now, my upper muscles are very relaxed, along with all my other back muscles. It has become my new baseline and it’s quite an awesome change.

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You know how you sometimes have to go through all kinds of hoops these days to login to various personal accounts, sometimes even your bank account? It gets frustrating.

I went to log into a personal account today, and sometimes it’s offline for a few minutes for updates or something, anyway, I went to log in and I usually default to it being a frustrating event, well today I automatically took a breath, accepted that I may not be able to log in, and that it was out of my hands on what happened.

Why let all these little modern day frustrations chip away at my happiness? Easier said than done a lot of times, even though I’ve been reading Stoic stuff for a few years now trying to implement practices into my life. Now some of these Stoic philosophies are becoming automatic and I LOVE it.

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Took awhile but yesterday I had my first full 15 minute session (15 minutes for each of the 3 titles). I did 7 minutes last time with zero issues. I was a little hesitant but I’m in a good position right now to experiment and lose some sleep.

After listening I did have some pressure in my head. It’s difficult to explain. It’s sort of a dull headache but that isn’t really it. I’ve had this a couple times before when increasing session times and for me it’s been a sign that I’ll have a difficult time sleeping. Not nightmares or anything like that, it’s almost like I’m wired, but that’s not it either. I really don’t have words for it.

Anyway,

Summary

I was tired so went to be early. I woke up about an hour and a half into my sleep. What was interesting to me is that I had this dream that my Mom was very elderly and we were shopping at a store in an expensive high rise condo I bought for her (in my dream, not real life) and she complained about the price increase of something small she wanted.

The clerk laughed at her and ridiculed her. Then I woke up. Wasn’t a nightmare, obviously, but just an odd dream.

My theory is this, it’s EOG1 working its magic on inherited wealth stories. I woke up to “decide the ending” or give that dream a conscious resolution. I could be wrong, but it genuinely felt that way. I actually got that feeling so I resolved the dream consciously and then fell back asleep. I had a slightly different dream then woke up (about 2 hours later). I consciously resolved that and fell right back to sleep and slept the rest of the night.

I actually feel quite rested today, but I went to bed considerably earlier than I normally do, so I’m sure I’ll have to take a nap later.

I feel “lighter” today also. Essentially like some emotional weight has been lifted. I like it and I’m looking forward to upcoming results.

After getting some recommendations I’ve decided to finish out this round and do a week washout (beginning of April) and I’m going to switch out EOG1 with the new R.I.C.H. and run Dragon Regen + R.I.C.H. + GLM as my stack.

It’s similar to what I’m running now but the new R.I.C.H. has new tech and is working differently on the wealth trauma healing.

For now I plan to run 2 full rounds of that stack and then I look to replace R.I.C.H. with R.I.C.H. trader so I can hopefully be ready to go back to Forex trading at the end of the year. Lightly though because around Christmas and New Year liquidity and volatility tend to relax quite a bit.

We’ll see how today goes, but so far it looks as though I’ll be able to stick with the full 15 minute loop for all 3 titles.

[Forexpreneur]

I’m quite cranky today. I slept alright last night but did have a dream that I wasn’t too happy about. Not a nightmare or anything. Feel a little tired too as though I didn’t get any deep sleep.

I’m also not happy with my current situation in life and am feeling it today. Personally I think this is a shift subconsciously and is fuel to get me past this situation in life.

I can say this though, there were a couple of incidents today that triggered me but what I’m getting excited about is that I’m not triggered as hard and I “get over” the trigger very quickly. Usually when I’m triggered I’m hyped up for a couple of hours or even more (Complex PTSD will do that to you until you heal traumas). Now I’m triggered for a couple of minutes to around five max. So that is a massive improvement in my quality of life.

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Had to run the last of my major errands for the month today on a bus line I’m not too fond of. The grocery store I shopped at was very busy today and the lines at the checkout were also long. I will often get PTSD symptoms due to all the people, activity and noise, but I was chill as could be today.

Also while I was shopping the whether changed and it actually got quite chilly outside. Chillier than what the weather called for and I wasn’t really dressed for the chilly weather. Wet and cold does not go together very well for me. Had to wait about half an hour for my bus, but again, none of it bothered me. I took it in stride.

When I lived in Southern California the large crowds, long lines for just about everything, the traffic, etc. none of it bothered me. But the weather was incredible most of them time. The seasons were basically spring and summer. LOL. Not saying I didn’t have any PTSD there, but nothing overwhelming like it is here in the Pacific Northwest. I’m not where I’m supposed to be, and I know that. I think that just adds to the overall frustration here.

But I do feel that I’m moving forward now.

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I had a crazy dream last night. I became wealthy and got back into playing the electric guitar. I put a song on Youtube that I wrote and played guitar and had studio musicians play the rest and it went viral.

For fun I put out a couple of other songs and people kept asking when I’ll go on tour. I decided it would be fun so I did and became famous. Funny thing is, I didn’t need the money I was doing it for fun. But I couldn’t do normal person stuff so I started dressing up with a fake long beard and walking like an old man and had an entourage to walk around with me.

It was a very intricate dream with an actual start and finish. Most of my dreams I just kind of plop into the story out of nowhere.

I had other dreams also, and have had dreams lately of still being poor. My subconscious is certainly at work and many of these more negative dreams I seem to wake up and if that happens I try to consciously “correct” the dream so it has an outcome that I desire. Sometimes I’m just too damn tired and fall back asleep but I try to remember the dream and work through it consciously.

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I’ve been playing a couple of PC games lately that I love but can also be irritating to me because they are difficult. They both are in the Combat Racing genre. I’ve been purposefully playing certain races that are both very difficult and cause a lot of stress (I’m a very competitive person in certain areas).

What is very interesting is that I still feel some stress but I’m able to still focus. Essentially not allowing the stress to overwhelm me. I’ve been setting lap records lately using the same exact car I’ve been using for years. Absolutely zero difference, except for me.

Summary

The reason why I’ve been playing these games off and on is to increase my stress resilience, something that is very important in Forex trading. I’m not risking any money, or my life but I’m still submitting myself to stress and that allows my stack to work more in my opinion.

Usually after playing any of these two games I’ll feel the effects of prolonged stress but now I just don’t get overwhelmed with stress during play and afterwards I don’t feel the effects of stress virtually at all. It’s new territory for me and I love it.

I’m still a ways from getting back into currency trading again. The goal is to start prepping in a couple of months. Going through my system again and then using a back testing program I have. Then go into live trading around September with very low amounts of money to build back my trading.

The goal is to trade full on in October and November and then slow it down in December since the Forex markets slow down anyway due to all the holidays.

[Forexpreneur]

Focus on how far you’ve come. Not how far you have to go. - Rick Warren

[Forexpreneur]

I’ve already touched upon this but I feel it’s important to make it a point that I am now catching myself unconsciously (I think that’s the correct word to use instead of subconsciously) find myself untenseing my muscles often during the day.

What I find incredible about this is that I wasn’t even consciously aware that my muscles were tensing, but I sure feel the release when I untense them. So ultimately I think what is happening is that unconsciously I have a low tolerance baseline of muscle tenseness and my subconscious automatically makes sure the tenseness doesn’t get past a certain point.

In essence my baseline for muscle tenseness is significantly lower than it’s been my entire life. But I’m noticing this virtually everyday now. All of a sudden, out of nowhere I just start relaxing my muscles. It’s mostly in the center of my shoulder blades, but sometimes it’s the small of my back also.

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Today I’m finished with this round. I’m finishing about a week and a half earlier than originally planned (Listen Day # 24 instead of # 30) because I’m taking an 11 day washout and then will switch my stack up to give a slightly different direction.

I will continue to add to this journal during the washout. I’m not a veteran yet, but this isn’t my first round either and I know washouts are always interesting. So I’ll document what occurs.

The new stack is going to be replacing EOG1 with the new R.I.C.H. and I’m going to switch Dragon Reborn:Regeneration (DRR) with Summertime.

So the new stack is going to be, in this order, R.I.C.H. + GLM (listening day 1) then Summertime (Listening Day 2).

The aim is still working on my core, or foundation, but adding the newest tech and changing the focus just slightly to get a more rounded and happier foundation.

I plan to do two rounds of this and around late August or very early September (I have to figure out the math) I’ll then replace R.I.C.H. with R.I.C.H. Trader. I’ve decided to go with a name embedded version of R.I.C.H. Trader so that will be interesting.

[Forexpreneur]

I’m going to take a little detour after my washout and will take a month to just work DRR + Summertime, then I’ll carry on with the new stack of R.I.C.H. + GLM + Summertime after a washout.

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“Your problem isn’t the problem. Your reaction is the problem” - Unknown

I love this quote and this is EXACTLY what I’m working on in my life and have been for years. Easier said than done. UNTIL I started using SubClub subs. Still a long way to go, but man I’m already a far way from my old self. Frankly, this is getting fun.

Second day of rest. I was really tired today. It’s Sunday so I decided to take a nap. Slept for almost two hours and I feel “light and airy” now. I’ll take it. Since it’s Sunday, my neighborhood is quiet and it helps that it’s slightly sunny today and leaves are starting to bud on trees.

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3rd washout day: WOW! Today, out of nowhere, was some deep core healing/release. I was eating an early dinner at home. It’s Monday but oddly quiet in my neighborhood today. I wasn’t watching anything (Youtube, movies, etc) NOR listening to anything.

Just sitting, eating. An internal voice gently told me to eat slower and enjoy my food. Which is actually funny because I’m a notoriously slow eater. But I did. Then I started to feel this tremendous release from deep within. It’s difficult to explain what “it” is. Frankly I know it comes from my early childhood, and even had gentle memories (me being removed from the traumatic incidents and watching from a distance but NOT engaged) and the same voice said “let it go”.

There started to be the beginnings of emotional overload and I felt myself clinch, almost holding onto the energy, which is very typical of me (male children in my generation were told to “shut up”, “Stop crying”, etc) but then the gentle voice told me to breath through it. “It’s alright to let it go. Just breath, relax”.

So I did and I felt a bunch of this energy just release.

Summary

I do want to make it clear, I’ve had years of therapy. I’ve been meditating for years. I do literally stop and smell the roses (and other flowers IF they are out and it’s public space). So none of this is new. But I must say I don’t think I’ve been FULLY engaged with it. I’m convinced that I wasn’t really releasing all this negative energy.

Did I release all the negative energy today? I highly doubt it. But it was an excellent start. And I “survived” letting some of this go. Not sure what I’ve been afraid of, so I will meditate on this because I do believe it is a major key to my healing.

I think this is why some of the emotional healing is difficult if you went through a lot of trauma and abuse as a child. We come to healing as adults. But the trauma happened while we were children.

I’m convinced we must surrender to our childlike mind to heal. Come to healing with the mind of the child. Then just let it go. I was able to do that today. Again, I’m not saying “I’ve healed my childhood trauma”. But today was one hell of a positive breakthrough. ’

This is getting fun.

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4th washout day. I decided to walk up to a convenience store to get a couple of things. It was 54°F out. Not cold but not warm either. That somewhat annoying in between temp. I took a thin jacket just in case.

I didn’t even get a block and it started to rain. Then rained harder. Normally I would automatically default to “What the crap?! Hasn’t rained all day until I step out the door …” and I started to but immediately laughed and shrugged it off. I’ve never liked being wet and cold so my mind told me to grab my jacket out of my backpack but I chose not to. I didn’t have goosebumps so in reality I couldn’t have been that cold. I survived just fine, but knew my thin jacket was there if it did get too cold.

I passed a couple of people along the way and I just smiled and they were all nice. Funny thing is, it’s very natural for me to smile at people, but usually people where I live are grumpy most of the time, but I’ve been getting friendlier responses lately.

Something else that’s interesting is that I usually have to stop a little halfway up the street (it’s a decent incline) and take a short rest because my legs get tired. I didn’t even feel the need today so I didn’t. There are a lot of flowers out because we’ve had some abnormally early warm weather and it was very pleasant.

Long story short, this little walk is usually more of a chore than anything but it was actually quite enjoyable today, even though my little parade was rained on. Like anything in life, it’s how you frame something. I’ve been trying to reframe things to be more pleasant, and even have tried the NLP 6 Stage Reframing System but to no avail for whatever reason. DRR and or GLM really seems to be doing it for me though. I love it.

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6th washout day. I realized today that I’m breathing very differently than I normally do. I’m automatically breathing through my diaphragm. Sure that’s normal, but not for me. I would have to remember to consciously breathe through my diaphragm and it always felt forced and awkward.

Breathing through your diaphragm naturally disarms the amygdala as does breathing through the nose, which most the time I can’t because I have a seriously deviated septum from child abuse.

I am also breathing deeply, automatically. Again that is something I’d have to remember and then consciously do it (usually due to mediation, same with the diaphragm breathing). Again, that always had an awkward feel to it also.

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7th washout day. This was the third day in a row that was sunny (uncommon this time of year in the Pacific Northwest) but for some reason this one really hit me in a positive way. I’m even more relaxed today and feel incredibly greatful.

I took a walk and enjoyed the sun on my skin. I went out yesterday and I thought I fully enjoyed it, but today was 10X better. No clue why but I’ll take it, and enjoy it.

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I’m starting a new journal for my new stack which will be Summertime (Name Embedded with Pragya for the optional slot) + Sanguine + Dragon Reborn Regen

Here is the link to the new journal

An Engineered Foundation by Forexpreneur with Name Embedded Summertime