“If there’s no breaking then there’s no healing, and if there’s no healing then there’s no learning.”
– One Tree Hill
Interesting idea. I’m familiar with the concept that we learn by not succeeding, but I suppose healing helps us mature and become wiser, our pain teaches us things. What would somebody that has never needed healing of any kind be like? Would they be like Adam and Eve before the apple? Pure innocence but also unaware that there are things like lies, death, pain and so on? Can somebody like that even function in society?
There are definitely users on this forum that have shown remarkable progress after healing the stuff that was holding them back. But do we really need to break in order to learn those things? Can we not learn them a “nicer” way?
What do you think?
I slept for about 12 hours which really annoys me. It’s already late in the day. The battery for the MP3 player ran out halfway through so I got around 3 cycles of Dreams I think.
I’m considering moving my sleep schedule down by going to bed early evening and waking up somewhere in the middle of the night. That way I can set my alarm at 8 hours and if my body needs less I’ll simply wake up sooner. Either way I would get enough sleep, start and finish work early and have a lot of nice and quiet time during the night to do other things with.
It’s not optimal for my social life, but the upsides outweigh the downsides. If I succeed, I could even attempt polyphasic sleeping in the future, which becomes a lot easier with companies finally allowing work-from-home.
That means that today I’m probably staying up overnight, seeing to it that I’m sufficiently tired by evening tomorrow.
By the way, that Muse I bought yesterday is getting a firmware update on December 1st that will allow it to record if you’re sleeping on your back or sides and even when your REM, light and deep sleep cycles are. That would be some awesome data to look at.
Anybody ever realize the serious amount of shopping going on the last two months of the year? First comes 11.11, then Black Friday, Cyber Monday and then for many the Christmas shopping. For some there’s even a second Saint Nicholas holiday where even more presents are expected by our seriously spoiled children. Not to mention the end-of-year bills.
People must be saving all year just to break even at the end of the year.
Supernatural is finally aired its final episode and ended 10 seasons overdue. I expect I’ll be wasting some time on that. Executive is rumbling around on my hard drive right now.
And yes, I really am dumping almost everything that pops into my head here. My challenge is that subliminals for me are very subtle, so unless I write down everything, I am likely to miss something. And I really don’t want to miss anything on this Trial by Fire (now THAT would have been an awesome journal title for DR, I’m hereby calling dibs).
Although Saint tells me he’s observed changes in me, most of them have been quite undetectable to me. I simply consider them part of my own conscious work to improve myself and forge a future.
There is one change that has been too great to ignore though. The first few months into subs it was still pretty subtle, building up to a crescendo. And then suddenly many of the things I do to “waste” time started becoming uninteresting to me. From porn to TV and movies to music, I have become so critical that I tend to determine in about 5 minutes if I like it and much of what I used to like now no longer makes the cut.
This of course means I have more time to read books and watch documentaries or seminar recordings. Not to mention more time to act on the things I want to see in the world.
Part of me dislikes this development, since I used to enjoy watching TV or playing computer games. But there’s no denying it has helped me grow. And another part of me is hoping there comes a moment when like an Eastern monk I let go of all those things and become a pure productivity machine.
Due to waking up so late, I only went through one cycle of my stack, so Elixir plus 4 Dragons. Still not really feeling anything happening, but I’ll keep looking.