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#228

2/25/2022:

i’d say this week has been a pretty good week. earlier in the week, i felt rough reconciliation but it got better as the days went on.

some internal shifts i noticed: the mental battle to save money is easier. my patience with earning and saving money feels easier

some physical shifts i noticed: my chest muscle area looks more muscular and my shoulder blade and neck area looks more athletic, like when i used to play basketball all of the time. also, my hair is smoother.

action taking:
continue saving money
continue fasting/excercising
continue creating content, wealth pathways
continue journaling

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#229

last night, i had a lot of dreams. certain parts were in my old high school, a house that i’ve never been in, travel bus, and movie theatre.

in the dream, i was at the movies with a girl. she liked me a lot and kept talking to me during the movie. we kissed on the lips during the movie. that made me feel good. this has never happened in real life, and maybe it’s a hint that it will happen soon?

i also kept seeing an old “friend” and he kept appearing near me for some reason. he was at the school and the movie theatre. i had a dream with him in it earlier this week too.

i don’t want to be his friend anymore because i found out he would always talk about me behind my back, make fun of me, and use me. i sent him lots of money over time and helped him a lot, and he never seemed to be thankful or caring to me. i was so nieve that fake people were an actual thing, and it took me a long time to realize that fake people exist, and some people are hardwired to live in a fake way

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#230

Here’s a little secret about most people:
They are in exactly the same boat as you!

I get it, sometimes just walking the path feels hard because of a lack of information on what to do in life, then once the little successes happen, the big ones are just around the corner. :+1:

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#231

thanks Michel. I am actually happy to read this, because it let’s me know that Imm on a good track :slight_smile:

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#233

I apologize for this post above ^

I’m just over-reacting and I’m feeling a little down. I’ll just keep working hard and trying my best

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#234

3/1/2022 entry:

I don’t think I’ve made an entry this early in the day but I wanted to post this before I forget what happened in detail

Women at my job today seems more attracted to my presence. I’m noticing a mixture of giddyness and girlyness/femininity.

A girl at my job introduced me to a new female worker, and I think Wanted’s nonchalance archetype came out.

When she introduced me to her, I just said “okay” with a straight face and they just smiled and giggled.

Then 15 minutes later, the girl that I already know came into the office space I work in and started asking me how I’m doing and asking me more questions she never asks me to try to get me to open more and engage in a conversation. Questions like how is everything at home and stuff… :sweat_smile:

I’m already naturally more reserved and less talkative, so the nonchalance is sort of amplified. I just answered her questions with general yes and no while looking at the computer as she got closer, and once I looked her, it looked like she was literally looking at me like I was mesmerizing. Like giving me those “f*** me eyes” that women do.

Another thing is, I could feel a sensation in my body as I looked into her eyes, like I can feel an energy in the air that she’s attracted to me

That was interesting

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#235

3/2/2022

Reconciliation is felt today. I’ve been low in energy, highs and lows of emotions, and feeling unworthy of women, money, and growth in general

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#236

i’m having really bad reconciliation. my thoughts are all over the place, and i feel i don’t know who i am. i almost feel possessed. it’s hard to describe. i kind of feel like quitting

#237

in life, it seems you can’t tell anyone anything. it’s like you have to keep everything to yourself. this mental pain of opening up to others is challenging.

i find that the most effecient way to operate in life is to not talk to anyone. speak only when spoken to, and never share your dreams and aspirations to anyone.

your family can be fake nice to you, strangers will be fake nice, and the people who do admire what you do only truly appreciate what you can do for them.

never ever. it doesn’t take much for people to be fake nice, change how they treat you, or change how they genuinely feel about you.

it’s like this society and world we live in is molded to be fake, fake, fake. it’s eating me up, everything seems so fake and i’m tired of playing allong with fake stuff.

i am a product of my own fakeness, the outer world’s fakeness, and fakeness everywhere.

this is why i avoid social media, i avoid people, and i avoid anything that will eventually turn into something fake.

what’s the solution to this? continue to accept that fakeness is an essential factor to keeping life operating in the way that it does?

this won’t change until i’m truthful with myself, and gain the courage to stop playing along with fake stuff.

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#238

i’m unsure what’s going on with my mind as of late. i hope to heal soon

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#239

What’s your stack and listening schedule?

The first 2 weeks of Zp were the best 2 weeks of my life, but then for a few weeks it felt like I was getting no results at all!

That platuea dissappeared and ZP went back into high gear. You might just be past the honeymoon phase but not yet into long term results. Keep it up!

Also, recon can often be a sign to reduce your loops. I’ve been having amazing results with just 2 days a week lately. Just something to consider.

Btw are you listening to ascension chamber? Could help you nanifet the goals you’re looking for. Ascension chamber is a stacking module that you listen to only once a week and focus on conscious goals while you do

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#240

thanks for always checking in and seeing how i’m doing @Billions it means a lot.

i’ve been doing:

am, rich
rest
wanted
rest
am, rich
rest

(however, i only run rich once a week now)

i follow the listening pattern and i completely agree, i’m just in that platuea phase and feeling down. i do feel that some emotional weight is being lifted more and more.

this week’s recon has truly been a rollercoaster, especially considering i’ve been waking up at 5 am almost everyday this week. i think more rest will help also

#241

Solid sched!

3 titles is a heavy stack. And both am and wanted work on emotional wellbeing… or rather confidence, which supports wellbeing.

With confidence, you may even be better able to take life up on the manifestations and opportunities provided by Rich.

Have you considered tightening up your stack to just am/wanted, at least until you are getting consistently less recon and have more income streams to activate rich with?

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#242

that’s what i’ll do! luckily my washout starts 3/12, so i’ll be able to capitalize on shortening the stack to 2 titles for a brief period of time. thanks a lot @Billions

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#243

i personally think the recon has been more so attributed to emotional healing from wanted. i have lots of healing to do in reference to women, perception of my appearance, self love, etc. : (

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#244

Nice awareness. It’ll help to focus more directly on wanted and am then. Get that inner love dialed in and it’ll radiate outwards

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#245

would it be a good idea to run rich just once a week

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#246

Yeah that’d be fine. You don’t have to listen to it the same as any of your other subs.

You can even listen to wanted or am More than the other, if you like one over the other.

You could have a listening schedule like this:

Monday: AM, Wanted
Wednesday: AM, Wanted
Friday: AM, RICH
Else: rest day.

3x a week am, 2x a week wanted, 1x a week rich.

Switch am/wanted if you prefer one over the other

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#247

There are no bad ideas with subs! Just experiments with positive/negative observations. Try it out and see for yourself :slight_smile:

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#248

3/6/2022:

Last night, I masturbated twice. I usually don’t masturbate often and I don’t have an issue avoiding masturbation, but I did too much testicle breathing earlier yesterday, and I ended up feeling really sexual last night.

I smoked marij**** from 3pm to 5am yesterday, and bought bad food from DoorDash.

I remember when ZP first released publicly, others on the forum mentioned that the script will bring out the true you in a way that makes sense, and it seeing what it is you truly want, and if the products are you for you.

I feel too much chaos in my mind and I just want to cry. I don’t think I want to listen to subliminals anymore.

maybe i’ll go back to qv2 ascended mogul and stay off of the forum. i just want to cry