Budewr’s journal


What does this mean?

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Hey man!!! Thank you!

I study psychology at my local university

But i do music most of time

So you can say that i am a proudcer and a dj also

This looks sick

Also no idea on what does it mean

Happy Birthday!

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hey rv :hugs:

thank you so much my friend

POGGIES Happy Birthday mate o7

Hope you have a great birthday and may your future be bright :sun_with_face:

peepoHappy : D thanks man

i hope yours is as well my friend

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Awesome man, psychology is interesting, I almost majored in in too. I would love to help other people

DJ? that is so cool! Would love to hear your mixes/tracks

btw I thought you would be 28 hahha

yeah it is tarot card, click on the link it explains emperor tarot. Seems so similar to emperor sub

its the closest thing to my heart out of all majors

but slowly i found out that i wanna head into music, and make music and also Dj but sadly theres no clubs here to play at, and the techno scene here (the music im into ) is very poor, i cant find friends whos interested

its very fun and lovely, sure man! maybe ill share later

had lots of mixes out before, but im slowly changing with my music taste, i cant listen to those old mixes ,

so once i have some flow on some direction, then maybe ill share later :smiley:

hahhahaha no way, i am a very young pal very new to the world

newly reborn :smiley:

dont know anything about tarot but that its cards,

however i love emperor, seems like a fit for me even though i cant notice obvious results
but im loving it smh i wanna stick with it foreveaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

damn i slept for over 11 hours , thats a lot

and i couldve slept more if i kept myself asleep and not get out of bed

also the dreams were insane, it was something about heists and killing people

and blood money

lots of weird stuff hahah

had a dream related to QL, i felt like i was some kind of superhuman and very smart like the Limitless movie

but i cant remember what happened, i met ben klock, which is a famous German Dj hahaha idk how it makes sense

also my LDU Goals were all over the place, over 30 goals, which is not focused

so i made one with only 8 goals

so i can see better results on them, and actually those are my 8 priorities, so ill see how everything is after that

also im following the low volume thing, its much better,

until now, i cant feel anything regarding Emperor’s confidence or any drive , i need to do more testing and be more aware of changes, maybe theyre subtle to notice, but its alright either ways, change takes time

okay so i face this often, which is very weird, i dont know if its related to subs or not,

but from time and time i dont find interest into the music that i like, like today im digging tracks to purchase on youtube and bandcamp, and the music doesnt bring up emotions, like it used to

okay so i have in theory 2 reasons:

1- thats my soul and my heart guiding me to dig more into the music that really moves me, usually the tracks that i buy or get inspired from usually gives me a good feeling and i enjoy my time listening and dancing,

however theres specific tracks that makes me emotional and makes me cry out of joy and love, and that my soul and heart is telling me to follow the lead and keep chasing those similar tracks, and fine the real treasure and the gateway to your heart

or

2- its recon, which is stupid to me, cmon its not like recon is gonna be there for ever wtf, and be there for the rest of my life bugging the hell out of me???

i dont face any discomfort or anything i rarely do when it comes to recon, however im not sure if this is a recon symptom or not cuz once i started my journey with subclub, i faced lots of those, i get intrested in music then booff… music doesnt move anymore

anyway ill figure it out

woke up with a wet dream, very shit tbh,

but whats interesting is, i just slept for 4 hours only and then woke up cuz of my wet dream. but it feels like i slept very well like 8 hours rather than just 4

wow it feels great,

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found something interesting

i got caught into a porn trap,

its when you want to see something from pornhub out of curiosity just to check something out, but they it turns into a trap that you want to jack off, but then i stopped and i was like nope

which is interesting how can i control myself, its like my subconscious is trying to help

its not just me vs me

Had a small chat with my dad, didnt feel triggered over the subject that he has been talking to me about for a while now

I felt calm and okay. Also another thing he mentioned and i also felt calm and okay

Emperor effect :thinking:

I have noticed this generally in my own life last coulpe of years that old music don’t give me that warm fuzzy feeling anymore.

But if you think about it, music is usually stored in our memory together with some situation that brought with it a strong emotion. And when we do deep healing, that same emotion may not be there anymore and bringing out a different experience with the same song.

Edit: removed stuff that was not meant for you

visiting pornhub out of curiosity :joy: :joy: :joy:

you have great sense of humor

and ofcourse awesome progress