Breakdown with Stark Q


#1

I previously have done Khan with some benefits.

I am very charismatic with new people! Like extremely dominant and sexual. However, one thing that I have not accepted to myself, and have been rather ignorant until now is that i can only do this when i feel that the people are lower status to me, if they are people i already know or they have no previous knowledge of me, if they are people i don’t already know.

When people are the old people I know or the people are intoduced to me in a higher status context, I still go blank.

History of Usage: I started Khan in OCT 19, just passively listening and not really focussing on breakdown. In Nov i moved to St2. In Nov i went back home. In DEC- ST3 and Jan Feb March St4

Notable interactions while home

  1. My Fathers office Employees- I interact with them and interact with them has completly differently
  2. People Working in public places- Hospital Nurses/ Bank Workers etc- I am a beast when i interact with them
  3. My College friend core group- I perceive them to be similar status, the group as a whole - Previously, i would avoid hanging out with them outside college. But when i went back home, I made efforts to meet them. Although there was nothing different in my behaviours.
  4. School friends - I perceive them to be higher status - When i was back home, I completely avoided meeting them. Over fear of getting rejeted by the friends (former friends).

I have previously avoided acknowledging this, so that i could justify rushing through the stages of Khan. But yea, KSt4 won’t work with the limitations still there.

But yea Its is 1st of April, I am back in Australia and I am in Quarantine. Only an Aprils fool will not take this opportuninty for complete breakdown and healing.

This Journal Will Document my Breakdown and Reprogram which will go on until I am in Quarantine.

Stack: K1 (day 1) and Ql1 (Day 60)


#2

That’s great to hear. Don’t lose focus.


#3

Got alot of hypnosis tracks on the internet to supplement the breakdown.
I don’t know how effective they will be


#4

14 days self-isolation or has Australia set up stronger measures yet?


#5

Austrlaia is indefinitely in 3rd Stage lockdown. My University classess are all online.


#6

Thanks! That’s the plan

Can’t find any of your journals yet though!


#7

Damn… Did you get everything you need for the lockdown? I assume you are allowed to go to supermarket or something to buy more food?


#8

I’m okay with not having a journal. I’ve noticed many things that have improved based on reflection and meditation. I am also noting down these changes. So far, so good. I will definitely leave a review. @SaintSovereign and @Fire Well done. Best Subliminals that I have ever used and I know it is getting better every time that I listen. Please make KhanQ.


#9

I couldn’t stack up! by the time i reached australia the panick was already on, and stores had put the buying trestrictions.
I have to get daily stuff daily.


#10

YOU JUST SPOKE MY DREAM


#11

Day 1.

I’ve been having dreams in which people have made me feel like shit. The dreams are still too embarassing for me to document or reflect on.


#12

Day 1.1

I’m playing Aegis as I am watching Contagion


#13

Day 1.2

Major Domains in Life and the Bottle necks

Religion - Laziness, Procrastination
Business - Fear, Comfort Zone Bubble, Laziness, Procrastination, uncertainity, lack of Self Belief
Relationships- Fear of rejection, Insecurity, Low Self Esteem
Continuous Learning- Laziness, Procrastination


#14

how do you guys manage to recollect your dreams? i wake up blank…


#15

I always thought it was a normal phenomena.

But I guess it’s different for different People.

I recently met a person who said he can rewind his dreams.


#16

Day 19 of no sleep at night :frowning:


#17

If corona doesn’t kill me, lack of sleep will


#18

Day 2

Stack:

Khan 1 (2)

Ql 1 (61)

I am thinking of playing these 2 side by side today.


#19

@SaintSovereign Please give me some advice.

I’m Doing Khan again from ground up for obvious reasons.

Doing Ql (QL st1 61 days) - To build up my intelligence which can help me pass through my last semester, but more importantly expand my family business after i go back home (learn and implement new technology and new business etc).

Would intelligence scripting of StarkQ be more suited in place of QL for my purposes? Or should i go through the QL stages first?

if StarkQ is better suited,

Will it complement khan Stage 1 well?

EDIT: Please ignore this query. I have figured out the answer on Day 4.


#20

Day 2.1

I can’t stand people giving me stupid orders. They should frame it as “they are requesting me and not ordering me”.

Today, something like this happened, where a class mate over text aasked me to do something which sounded like an order.

Due to the broken up part, i did not give in to the order!

But, due to the limitations still holding me, I could not directly confront her to not order me!

Feelings that prevented me: What if she minds? What if she gets angry? What if she gets annoyed?

Edit: That night she knocked me herself to check up what’s up with me.