Emperor is tough!
I’ve been running Emperor as my primary sub for about 35 days.
The first 2 weeks were kind of neutral. Then next 2 weeks I was feeling on top of the world, and now, for about a week, I’ve been feeling anxious, insecure and, as you said, not in control.
The anxiety is terrible to deal with sometimes. Couple days ago I was feeling this pressure in my chest, it was horrible. It was okay the following day, though.
This is definitely a long term sub!
I am also questioning myself a lot - who am I? who do I wanna be? etc.
I believe there’s light at the end of the tunnel