Blue’s Subliminal Journey

Journals - Major Programs
#122

Emperor is tough!
I’ve been running Emperor as my primary sub for about 35 days.
The first 2 weeks were kind of neutral. Then next 2 weeks I was feeling on top of the world, and now, for about a week, I’ve been feeling anxious, insecure and, as you said, not in control.

The anxiety is terrible to deal with sometimes. Couple days ago I was feeling this pressure in my chest, it was horrible. It was okay the following day, though.

This is definitely a long term sub!

I am also questioning myself a lot - who am I? who do I wanna be? etc.

I believe there’s light at the end of the tunnel :slight_smile:

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#123

Today i went to se my brother at his place. We meet around once or twice a month. I needed to borrow some money from him. We always help eachother whenever one asks. No questions no hesitation. And we always pay it back the first chance. One thing from to appreciate in my life.

He told me about that my vibe is off. Almost like from way before and reminded me on the importance to cut off people with negative vibes. Somewhere i lost perspective. The drive for improvment and success is always there. But i went soft and before long i stopped being proactive. No matter how hard it gets i always survive. But its way more than just surviving at this point. I want to do more. I have been stagnant for far too long.

  • After switching from 1 main subliminal + one more to runn at odd times i created a stack with 5 subliminals. I got improvment from only one and i got improvment from the stack.

Right now it seems that neither alone is right. I should only use one sub for about 5 days and use stacks for 2. I will reduce the stack so it can be focused. Running 4+ makes my brain adhd like. Especially since the stack includes big guns subliminals like Spartan, Limitless and Emperor.

The optimal stack should include 2 major subs, and 2-3 modules & or superchargers.

I will try the new routine and see how it goes

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#124

Going with Emperor full time and few Limitless loops in between for the time being. This seems to be rhe perfect choice. Its what im going through right now is being dealt with by Emperor. Things are looking very good at the moment

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#125

On Dat Grind Part I:

Got me a new part time job to fill in the time. I will now be able have better use for those 24 hours we all have. So far i have done little more than aimless surviving and that is exactly where i am at. Im starting to truly comprehend actions and consequences and the consequenses of inaction.

The importance of an important ” why ” has never been more evident. Can’t do shit with desire only… The goal all along was to be strong enough to never need anyone, to never feel weak and never being depending on a someone.

I wanted to be free. And i am exactly that nothing more, nothing less. Cant go much further with the old encrypted goal in mind.

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#126

On Dat Grind II

I was alone with a co worker doing some shopping. She was fun and outgoing like always. Today she hugged me no less than 3 times. The thrid time i hugged her back, backed slowly, stared into her eyes and made out with her.

Seconds later, my hands were going down to her lower back all the way to her thighs and i squeezed them. If this is going down, i need her to know i mean buisness. I back off smothly to avoid possible attention since we were at the mall and since i made my goal clear. She giggled and before saying a word i used a line from a movie i stole ” wrong place, wrong equipment ”

We go about our day and before leaving she kisses me and says lets be in contact.

Where the hell did all that come from? No idea. I gotta thank Primal Seduction which i was coincidently playing allot for some reason. Pure auto pilot epicness.

Im i ever going back to obsessing about one person, bending my codes for someone, or ever need someone to make me happy? Hell no

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#127

Current playlist: Ascended Mogul, Primal Seduction, limitless and Spartan. On repeat

Today i woke up from a traumatic nightmare. It was about my father meddling with everything in my life. In thr dream there was two occasions i screamed with all my might ” LEAVE ME ALONE!! ”

The second time i took a bike and went far away from home. I stop at a supermarket wherw my little brother sees me and tells my dad ” he is here ” and then run back to the bike and drive away seeing home running to his car to chase me.

I woke up panting heavily. Like i was running for my life…
And to think i was dumb enough to believe i let the past behind. Logically, it doesnt make any sense. But it seems that my subconcious believes otherwise

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#128

Good realization Saiyan :slight_smile:

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#129

I have been getting work done for almost 3 weeks now which explains the lack of posting. Getting out of bed is never an issue, all i think about is dominating ans getting more done. Im working 15 hours a day from with 2 jobs. I barly see my apartment anymore. Good stuff.

I had sex with the the co worker i made out with before. She was getting the Sex Mastery X treatment = pornstar stamina and tons of orgasms. She wants to come over my apartment on the weekend but even to my suprise i refused. I barly have alone time anymore. I dont really click that well with her.

In other news, i will be picking up Daredevil tonight. Its been along time coming. Lets see if this Daredevil INTJ could evolve into a mastermind ENTJ hybrid :wink:

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#130

For a solid month i stopped using subliminals. Everything was blurry and i was tired och 24/7 so i got some supplements and all i did was sleep around 10 hours every day. A while ago i started using Emperor V3 again.

It hit me on a completly different level. While asleep i woke up twice followed by 2 nightmares both about past trauma. Since then i have felt a sense of reliefe and im back now.

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#131

Its been awhile. Emperor V3 have completly transformed me into a man i always dreamed about becoming.

I am focused, on my purpose and my frame is unquestionable. I feel like i can impose my will on life and on the world. I feel alive and my nerves are as steel.

I got a tough new job with minimal experiance and im grinding effortlessly while learning. With women i feel zero attachment and very little need for any outcome. It scares me how little i care. Honestly this is everything i wished for. The word stoic describes me very well now

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#132

This is amazing! So you’ve been on emperor v3 for about a month now?

What was your listening schedule?

Love hearing that someone has arrived!

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#133

I’ve been on the previous Emperor as well. On this one yes a solid month.

I listen with Emperor and Sex Mastery looped all night when i sleep. So around 4 hours a day

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#134

On the road to Emperor. Day… something?

The journey has been amazing. My biggest fear with subliminals is that the changes can feel unqantifiable. Looking back now my results are definitly quantifiable.

My mood is very stable throughout the day considering this is emperor. I rarely bother explaining myself or repeating myself. I dont even feel lile boasting in any way. I dont feel like i need to impress anyone.

Wealth is my focus. I want that shit auto sorted by being the guy who works hard, takes oppertunities and does things diffrently so its not what i do but rather who i am. Unconcious competens.

Since im using both Emperor and Sex Mastery i gotta report on that as well. Sex is amazing as ever, she cant hide how much she feels for me. She gets at least 4 orgasms everytime we have sex and she does everything i want with a smile both in and out of the bedroom. I will however limit my visits to once a week.

Since she confessed her love and i told her that im not relationship material and will not be for the forseeable future. She took it as a challenge and started to get a little annoying. Throwing shade her and there about me not liking her, doing petty stuff to make me feel jealious. Honestly its getting annoying.

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#135

Lmao she’s clearly trying to move you emotionally to get you to submit to a relationship. Better tell her what’s up now before your minor annoyance becomes something major. Either tell her that you know what she’s doing and to stop it if she wants you to stick around, or you’ll simply walk away with no further contact. She may of course test you on this so actually be willing to walk away and mean it. Shouldn’t be too tough since you seem indifferent anyway.

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#136

Its partially my fault for seeing her 2 + times a week since the sex is good and because she is the only one im seeing for now. Its also good to know what ” how much is too much ”. It took 2 months for it to reach the ” i love you, what are we ” phase.

Granted she played her own game from the get go. Shit testing 24/7 but i found it amusing so it didnt bother me. Nothing got her more wet than being put down in her place.

It was a good chance to practise being emotionally independant. Then the Ice Queen melts before the Emperor. Now she is just a brat lmao.

The only thing i want is a light, fun and physical relationship. Nothing more. So i will follow your advice Davis, and well see where this goes.

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#137

2 days ago me and my girl were talking and she brought up a certain friend of hers that i’ve met once. She told her about my sexual achievments since we started seeing each other 3 months ago. My girl wanting to please me suggested a threesome with us and her ( schduled this saturday ). All thanks to that one time i asked her if she ever kissed a girl and she told me anout how she messed around with her friend once or twice.

Im beyond excited for this, we’ll see how this goes. Merry christmas

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#138

@Saiyan4Blue - haha. Merry XXXmas alright!

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#139

So the threesome happened…

Both girls came yesterday to my apartment. It was supposed to be my girls apartment but i realised that her dog will be distracting. The 2nd girl shows up first. We had a beer and we were light flirting. She puts on this old 3 hours long boring movie… perfect

We sit on the couch and we kept light flirting and joking. 15 min later my girl knocks on the door. I let her in and she made herself comfortable. I went to grab beers for us in the fridge and my girl sat in the middle of the couch ( isolating me and the other girl )… shit she might be having seconds thoughts. I sit down and kept engaging both girls talking and fun and adventerious stuff. My girl is quite introverted slowly gets left out of the conversation.

The second girl is average pretty but her body is stunning and her persoality is enchating. My girl then suddenly interuppts us by making out with the 2nd girl. Its on. I wait a while to admire the view and then ” assert ” myself in the action. I stand up, grab both their hands, draw them up, spank both, then seat myself between them. ” SM3 for the win ”

Now they are making oout while im between them and their hands were on me. Then the both blow me.

I had about 7 condoms and all were used while swapping between them. Not gonna lie… the 2nd girl is way kinkier and that made my girl unleash her inner diva so she wont lose.

35 min later, while changing positions, mixing it up, from foreplay to intercourse, the 2nd girl wrapps her legs around me and kept orgasming so i finished inside her lost in the moment. My girl looked very dissaponted assuming she wanted that for herself. I played it off and we went to grab a beer.

15 min later we were at it again. This time i finished on my girls breasts and to ours suprise, the second girl licked it off her breasts. That was easily the best sight of my life.

The second girl, who is way more mature, gave me very intruiging looks the entire time. It was almost like my girl was the guest at our party.

We stayed up a while longer. My girl went to sleep in my bed. Me and the 2nd girl ended up having sex alone. She told me she had a plan B so the lack of condoms was of no concern. I pulled out and was still careful ofcourse.

She than suggested that if i ever end up singel i could always hit her up with a devilish smirk. Now 2 am, she leaves and i go to bed. My girl was fast asleep.

This was an extremly enlightening experiance… to think girls like the 2nd girl exsisted… i have missed out on way too much of the joys of this world.

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Main Disc. Thread - Libertine Ultima
#140

Wow mindblown by your story dude! It’s lit bro!!! Welcome to the age of sexual abundance! That swagger in your steps must be seen from space!

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#141

@Saiyan4Blue bravo! Extremely pleased (and very jealous) of your successes. You’re living every man’s sexual dream and I’m glad it was a Sub Club member who did.

[Copied your post and saved it before Saint cuts it :yum:]

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