I had the most intensely vivid and philosophically instructive dream I’ve ever had in my life.
Pretty strange because none of my subs are geared toward sexuality at all. But I do truly believe that EOG 1 heals all beliefs, but specifically as they relate to money.
All beliefs either start from or lead to money, eventually, so it’s a very all encompassing program.
In order to heal your money beliefs, you have to heal the beliefs you have around the entire status hierarchy, because otherwise, you’ll always see money as a way to validate yourself and your ego in society, and be unbalanced as a result. For the same reason, you need to heal your own ego, or else money will always be a crutch.
And on a deeper level, I think the conversation went waaaaay beyond sexuality. The context was sexuality, but the sub context was being grounded in who you are, and a look at being a grounded vs ungrounded male in society.
What I took out of it was a reinforcement of the “trauma based society” that @Skadoosh referred to in one of his posts. I believe that I only read that 1-2 days ago, so that post, alongside subliminal dream activation, might be the most likely reason why I dreamed this.
The dream was like one of those teaching moments, a philosophical treatise written as of a dialogue between two rational individuals, with a moral running all the way through.
Like how Plato wrote all of Socrates’ teachings in conversation.
A woman asked me,
“Are you gay?”
“No,” I said.
“So, if you found out a man wanted to sleep with you, you would get aggressive with him to defend yourself? Cut him out of your life?”
“No of course not,” I said.
“But you said you weren’t gay”
“I’m not gay,” I said. “I’m the straightest guy in the world.”
“Well….” she said, “you’re not the STRAIGHTEST guy in the world. The STRAIGHTEST guy in the world would never let anything like that even remotely enter the realm of possibility and he would cut it off right at the source, stopping it in its tracks, at the source, before it could ever turn into anything.”
“Why would a straight man need to do that?” I said. “I’m as straight as it gets. I don’t need a violent reaction against a fellow man in order to defend and validate my sexuality. I don’t need to show the world that I’m straight with grandiose acts of bravado in order to be straight.
I don’t have to think that I’m better than a gay man, or make him feel like he’s less than me, or wrong for being who he is. There’s no shame in thought. There’s no shame in human impulse…
What you call the “straight” reaction seems to me to be the traumatized reaction. Do we all want to live in a world where we uphold the trauma-based beliefs and reactions that keep us acting as lesser beings? Do we blame others for triggering our traumas, or do we look inwards and see them as growth opportunities?…
You say that the straight thing to do would be to react harshly to any perceived attraction from another male. But wouldn’t the straight thing to do be being so grounded in your own sexuality, your own self, your own respect for all human beings and yourself that it doesn’t even phase you?… knowing yourself so completely that nothing scares you?
I mean. That sounds like someone who is straight. Reacting to any perception of “temptation” aggressively sounds like someone who fears having that temptation in his life, because maybe he’ll act on it one day, and if he did, he could never love himself again because he’s made that out to be wrong.
Maybe I just haven’t made that out to be wrong, being gay, and have accepted those who are, which has given me ultimate freedom, freedom to be myself, whoever myself is.
given the choice granted to me by freedom, I’ve still chosen to be 100% straight, unlike many unfortunate men who may be 80,90, or 95% straight and yet tell themselves they’re wrong for not being 100% straight.”
End of dream.
I do know a man who is homophobic because he himself is homosexual and hates himself for it. I know this because he acts homophobic, but we know someone he’s hooked up with, and that person told us how he languishes about how hard it is to “suppress him impulses.”
And I also have a gay friend who I’m completely comfortable around. I could smack his ass to make a joke with him, without it meaning anything sexual. We can just be normal friends without needing an extra foot of “homosexual distancing” room.
I remember one day making fun of him for the fact that anytime he hugs someone, he always sticks his ass WAY OUT. it’s like he was almost bent over to hug you.
When we spoke about it, he shared it’s because he was SO afraid that a straight guy would perceive a normal hug as “gay” and lash out at him for being too close.
From all that, I realized how stupid it was
- stupid for a straight guy like me to have such a reaction
- stupid for a gay guy like him to fear such a reaction
This is the “conditioning due to trauma-centric society” that Luther referred to and that keeps us traumatized.
