Some quick sexual history for me. I’m above-average in looks (as I have been repeatedly told), 6 foot and have always kept good muscle tone and am more stocky of a person. I share this so you know I do not look like Gollum or something.
I made out with a girl (my first time) at 15 who was super hot and my “friends” (who were jealous) at the time later told her that I had said that we had had sex (which wasn’t true) and she never spoke or looked at me again. I never understood why this happened until decades later I became friends with her on Facebook and she told me. I was love-sick for her and was never interested in anyone else all through highschool.
I was too shy in high-school and never dated. The one time I got up the nerve to ask girls out for senior prom the only girl who said yes was a freshman and she left me in the middle of Prom to be with another dude that she liked better.
I graduated high-school and entered the military and shortly thereafter became a bornagain Christian and therefore would not have sex outside of marriage. I was 30 before losing my virginity to my now ex-wife. She ended up leaving me for another man (she was sexually abused by her father and was all messed up sexually, but did not know that going in).
I have had one other long term relationship (more like friends with benefits) who I also fell in love with, but she met a friend of mine and left me for him. I’ve had a couple one-night-stands after my divorce (never remarried), but no real relationships and no consistent sexual partner. The last time I have had sex was about six years ago. I just turned 52.
I want to heal all of the rejection I’ve experienced and want to heal the LACK of sex I’ve had. I am 52 but still very horny and have easy and solid elections. Never had an issue with ED or any other sexual dysfunction.
I want an overhall of my sexual and relationship life. I am not sure where best to start. I have done Dragon Reborn already and have been more focused on finances and wealth.
With all the great sexual subs out now it has me really wanting to heal this part of my life and have great sex again. Any advice / suggestions would be greatly appreciated! Thank you!