On Dopamine Mismanagement
Just one more book series to read. Another week gone. Just one more. Just one more. Another month gone. Why is it that there are no good books around? I’ll browse and search and I’ll find another good one, there’s gotta be more. Yeah, well, everything is pretty mediocre, but I’ll read it. Maybe it turns out to be worthwhile. That one turned out to be kinda underwhelming. That next one even worse. Oh, this one seems OK. Funny how ten years ago I wouldn’t have touched something like it with a stick. Uh, this next one was really disappointing. Maybe I have read everything that’s good to me already?
Hey, I see the pattern. It’s kind of like that time when I couldn’t get enough of weed for months and months every day. Or all those years when I just took those frequent breaks every hour to relax my rushing brain by using nicotine. But thank the universe reading is not as unhealthy. Reading improves focus, expands my repertoire of words, let’s me use my imagination. Well maybe 10-12 hours a day is a bit too much. But it’s not like I miss out on my work outs or let my healthy eating habits slide. I have no debts to pay and I have solid daily routines. But maybe I should stop reading novels for the moment. I broke all my addictions in the end and I am good at picking up new habits and routines.
Perfect timing. The new anime season just finished. Let’s see if there was anything interesting. Oh, that one looks cool. Ah, yeah after the third episode it kind of became lame. But that other one has an interesting premise and the art is dope. Those twelve episodes went by in a flash. What’s next? There has to be something other like this. Browsing and searching, reading all those recommendations. This one I enjoyed in the past. Yeah let’s rewatch it. OK, after episode four I dropped it because it wasn’t as engaging as it was in the past. But what about this other show? And this one. Or this one. Well, they are all kind of predictable. But that’s OK. Another month gone. And another. All the shows look like brainrot to me now. Isn’t there anything new and exiting?
But I see the pattern. I need to move on. This is a useless timesink.
Hey there are a ton of great gaming channels. The complete playthrough of that one game looks just so great. 169 2-hour videos - seems like they really explore everything, that’s a platinum run alright. Another two weeks gone. Hey, I really like this player. What else have they got? Oh, cool. Those graphics are amazing. I never liked playing myself and I would never spend the money on the computer rig or all those games. But watching makes me happy. And it costs me nothing. Another month gone. All those games and playthroughs are becoming more and more boring. Why aren’t there more engaging playthroughs? It’ll take me an hour or three to decide on the quality, but all the ones I watch nowadays seem worse and worse. Maybe I need a break.
I see the pattern. And I move on. And it costs me nothing. I am healthy, no problems. It’s not really interesting, but what’s out there anyway? All those people are wasting their time with social media this or that, which I am happy to have always avoided like the plague they are.
Maybe it’s time to read a new book.
