Azriel's-Unfolding ZP stack

[Azriel]

This week was EOG stage 1, Emperor ZP Test Version, and Primal Seduction

I really like PS. It completely shifts my ability with woman instantly. I always have insane attraction on my stack, but in terms of interest and escalation and personal enjoyment PS is killer

Met up with this woman I used to be friends with-we had such a fucking awesome time. She was in a committed relationship and I completely could have fxxed her and made a choice not to escalate. We were at a bar, on stools with our legs intertwined, at points my hand was on her chin and she kept holding my hand. I pushed it close but had something in my space as soon as I knew her situation. Which she disclosed after I dug, and said it was a really great relationship. Always a little weirded out by her saying that yet so physically available. In the past I wouldn’t have thought twice about this but now have some ethical conscience about it.

BUT what I really love about PS is how much FUN I have on it. I get plenty of attraction on my stacks in general-but PS makes me enjoy and want to interact and keep interacting.

EOG stage 1 is weird as fuck, causing a lot of recon, but major shifts as well. I feel an increasing lightness around finances. I see there is this way I am a ‘prostitute’ for money- I compromise my self, my values, my identity, my well being and I don’t need to do that. In fact not doing that will make me MORE money.

I’m relating to money as more factual rather than personal or emotional.

(Side note: In my astro-chart- it says this)

" Mercury in the 2nd House Mercury in the second house represents a connection with the house of personal financial affairs and property. It is a position that helps generate ideas for making money and makes people to value material things. These people are bright and smart. They have a talent for trading and for financial and business transactions. They can use it in economics, planning, sales, in writing popular literature or in another profession that requires good communication skills. These people usually have more material than intellectual values and they can also earn their living by teaching about or mediating money-making opportunities." @Malkuth

I’ve always been drawn to having others succeed financially-so this is interesting and a manifestation of EOG stage 1 to rediscover this.

I’m also getting CRAZY strong urges to smoke cigarettes and vape again-which I use to to do. Since starting EOG stage 1. I haven’t gone back, but it’s so weird. The whole romantic pull mentally and physically wanting it. Not sure what that’s about-but maybe it’s related to anxiety, lack of freedom and hopelessness as part of my recon.

[Apollo]

@Azriel

I’m also getting CRAZY strong urges to smoke cigarettes and vape again-which I use to to do.

That’s good my friend. I started smoking cigs again a couple of months ago and it’s a hassle to start quitting specially when dealing with outside stress. I just don’t have that mindset yet. Good on you to keep it up, it’s not worth it.

I had the most fun and very obvious results when I was running Emperor and PS, it’s quite the tandem.

[Azriel]

Thanks @Apollo

I could never go back to smoking or vaping consistently. My life is so much better without it.
Anxiety and depression went when down when I stopped, and there’s way more freedom.

But avoiding it and fearing having it is also a lack of freedom

I have smoked at parties or special events and had no problem not picking the habit up again.
I’ll occasionally use it for celebration but never to manage stress or bad feelings- that’s what will send me down again.

I’d also smoke with a woman who smokes after sex.

I may experiment with some nicotine base nootropics because there is increasing evidence of some of the cognitive/ flow state and health benefits of nicotine outside of smoking .

@Apollo

I wish you an easy way to transition out of it. My 2 cents if you are going to do it- is to do American Spirits or vape instead.

what are you running these days?

[Apollo]

Exactly, life is so much better without it and my workouts are far more consistent. It’s something I haven’t been doing much lately, I just don’t have the motivation and I’m always exhausted because life is quite intense the past month or so.

I was tempted to run Primal or PS again to recapture that good, primal, masculine feeling, but so far I’m on Wanted to see where it takes me.

I’m running the latest versions of Emperor ZP, QL ST1 and my Chosen - Wanted custom for this cycle.

[pacman]

@Azriel

I’m also getting CRAZY strong urges to smoke cigarettes and vape again-which I use to to do. Since starting EOG stage 1. I haven’t gone back, but it’s so weird. The whole romantic pull mentally and physically wanting it. Not sure what that’s about-but maybe it’s related to anxiety, lack of freedom and hopelessness as part of my recon.

I have also noticed an extreme urge to smoke cigarettes again which I once did some time back.
For me it’s from Ascension ZP not sure why this urge though. Would love to know the root cause of this.

[pacman]

@Apollo

That’s good my friend.

That’s good ?

[Tobyone]

@Azriel

I could never go back to smoking or vaping consistently. My life is so much better without it.
Anxiety and depression went when down when I stopped, and there’s way more freedom.

Glad to hear that you are staying strong here. Nicotine for me always put me in lower states and emotions almost like it was a nice thing dwelling on past memories. On ZP lately my desire for nicotine has been zero and whenever I have had some I just feel put off. In the end it’s not worth it because its way to addictive to be playing around with, and it also sucks life force out of you like a slow grinder.

[Apollo]

Ah no. Missed some parts on that quote.

It’s good to have the will against that temptation. It’s a hassle. Stressed then, still stressed now, just less healthier.

[Azriel]

@pacman good to see you over here.

Let me take a crack at the root cause- Ascension= intense masculine=badass=not giving a shit= do what I want=fuck it=new avatar that reflects that=Your new avatar might be sending you the ‘wrong’ subconscious message

[Azriel]

So something that is increasingly being distilled on EOG stage 1
Is separating out my worth, what I am really good at naturally, my inherent value, the value I bring circumstantially currently, where I can train and learn to bring more value into a given market place or situation.

Musings on this via work and money

Inherent value can inform circumstantial but never vice versa. Something can appear valuable and not be, but the optics and perception of it are equally important. Something can be of value and not recognized, but unless it’s off value and recognized it’s not valuable.

The most hardcore logical, results oriented, successful people I know still are still sold on their perception of someone. However their perception and gut instinct of someone 99% of the time is reflective of that persons capacity evne though they are noting that persons ‘personality’. It shows up as that persons ‘generates’ a lot and brings something to the table in their ‘being’. There words speak to worlds and details as lived rather than high level abstraction ‘about’ things.

[Chase]

@Azriel

Your new avatar might be sending you the ‘wrong’ subconscious message

I agree how little things like an avatar or user names could affect our subconsciousness. They are themselves subliminal messages that influencing our mind in a way.

[Billions]

@Chase

I agree how little things like an avatar or user names could affect our subconsciousness. They are themselves subliminal messages that influencing our mind in a way.

When I made my name “Billions” it was actually a joke.

I thought it was ridiculous for someone to say they wanted to become a billionaire. Literally wrong and/or stupid.

Now, I wear it loud and proud. Repeated exposure to the name absolutely helped.

[Azriel]

Been on vacation and a 7 day washout.
My manifestation is insane. Lots to report when I’m fully back.

[Azriel]

So here is what happened on my washout and vacation. I came off Emperor, PS, and EOG stage 1

I’ve been guiding my intent by writing in a journal what I want to create or have happen for the day.
I generally write things in alignment with the goals of why I am running subs- wealth coming in, meeting certain woman etc.

1. Earned $10,000 from various work and endeavors that had been in the works but not finalized and it all came flooding in.
2. Had magical hot connections with woman in the most random of places, beaches, small towns, exchanged numbers, made plans for them to visit me again when I’m back home in NYC
3. Approached, Asked out or moved things forward with about 70% of the woman I saw and was interested in. I have been flirtatious but not pulling the trigger and leading where it counted and that is now shifting. I wrote in a journal the kind of woman I wanted to meet in the morning and they literally just showed up throughout my day in life.
4. Felt like 100% completely rejuvenated different person/way more my best self

The day I came home, I could feel how much my environment and impeding work sets old conditioning in motion. Day 1 I went rock climbing and sprained/ got a contusion on my finger, day 2 my back got strained- even though it’s been more rock solid then ever. These are both related to distress and resistance at my life situation and the discrepancy in what I experienced or had tastes of when unplugged vs. resisting what I need to do to move my life forward now that I’m home.

I’ll start with Emperor and EOG stage 1 this week and likely run Paragon to have this nicks heal faster.
My plan is to run one more cycle with EOG stage 1. I’m designing two customs wealth and fitness and will have those set to run in October.

[Martin]

@Azriel

I’ve been guiding my intent by writing in a journal what I want to create or have happen for the day.

Interesting. And you dont journal what actually happen in your life?

[Azriel]

no, I may write down what I am grateful for, and I often free write for 3 pages that includes elements of my life, but I don’t track or record what happens in my life as a practice.

[Azriel]

The key for this for me, is not needing, relying, or expecting anything to happen, it’s just writing it down and finding a way to totally let it go.

[aaa]

@Azriel

and I often free write for 3 pages that includes elements of my life,

You mean you just write stuff that happens that day? Thanks

[Azriel]

no, I often practice ‘morning pages’ it’s free writing, stream of consciousness for 3 blank pages. Google ‘Morning Pages’ to find out about it. I do this with the intention to clear and make room for creativity. Sometimes during this practice I write about what ‘has happened’ or is happening in my life. I do this on yellow notepad, and have started to try not to use blue ink, because it’s too powerful in it’s intention and this purpose of this writing is just to clear. I believe @SaintSovereign mentioned the value of blue ink but can’t remember the specifics.

Then I do a special personal meditation for 7 minutes

Then I do an intentional journal practice in a separate gorgeous metallic fancy journal. I write I am ‘creating’ then write whatever I want. Over and over again with different creations. I try to feel it as if it is true or it is inevitable it will become true. Sometimes it feels deep and aligned, other times a fix, and other times I am totally surprised at what comes out. I’ve only done this for the last few weeks, and VERY often exactly what I write unfolds in a way I did not expect within a day or two.

[Alphamale]

Thank you
You have one of the best journals on this forum.
Now that you ran emperor for such a long time, do you think you have integrated it completely?