I did not know it was you! Hey Raphael/ Lion. Thank you 
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Haha! All the best, bro!
Did a five day wash out,
really strong recon perhaps coinciding with some difficult family drama, lots of emotions, sadness, sense of regression. Seems over the majority of it. Having some trouble narrowing down my next stack
HOM, Emperor, and True Sell are all musts, really want to run EOG stage 1 for some clearing. Also really want to run Paragon, Emperor Fitness, Wanted. More than Want these are all integral to specific progression and goals. Customs will be the solution but for the next 3 week cycle I’m leaning towards Emperor, EOG Stage 1, and True Sell.
HOM is so powerful though.
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I ran EOG stage 1 last week will report experience later. Overall very effective.
My stack was going to be Emperor, True Sell, and EOG stage 1 moving forward
So far this this week on that cycle I can’t pick up a pulse on what True Sell is doing. A sale that was already closed got paid but I don’t know if that is a direct result.
Without HOM I notice the difference really fast. Emperor becomes much more blunt and I notice drop in my strategic vision. This could also be recon from EOG stage 1. If I want to continue to run EOG stage 1 I may have to swap True Sell back out for HOM until customs get created. Pending EOG stage 1 being the source of this recon .
My recon has been harsher, more depressed generally, less sense of possibility, more wanting to give up. Again could be EOG stage 1 recon which I didn’t feel at all the day of running or after.
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So real quick
EOG stage 1 Effects
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Strong sense of lightness and high value. Life felt important but noticeably less significant. On Emperor I feel like I’m often in a warzone to get a work imperative/ deliverable in (there is a kind of false illusion performance in that which I will talk about another time).
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Noticeably more conscious of money and how I was using it. Normally I just spend without thinking, which in and of itself was a breakthrough for me on subs the last few years since prior to that every time I spent money it felt like the end. I was just conscious, is that worth that, do I really want to do that? Then when it came to a luxurious dinner my friend was making I was happy to foot the bill
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Sense of high status and alpha but not ‘individualistic’ or self important.
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I had the strong sense I could be in committed relationships. This was an odd feeling, normally I feel like a lone wolf, but I got the sense I could be ready and able to be with a partner. That my value could increase with exposure and time in all things. I had the healing insight/realization I normally actually only believe in my self with a shelf life- I have a sense of more time spent around people, the less valuable I will be, the more I will exposed for who I really am, and the more things are likely to go wrong. This applies to work and romance (not always but often). (This is all very subtle stuff not overt at all)
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Sense of consistency with who I am and what I put in could BUILD over time. This may be why I felt the sense of having a partner or willingness too. My default is anything could end at any minute, good things, partners etc, destruction, death, decay, entropy, abandonment, betrayal and that informs a very subtle but deep rooted way in which I limit myself. I can’t believe I didn’t see this before, but my unconscious driver has me live life like nothing can amount to anything all with the romantic guise on surmounting impossible challenges. I’m exaggerating slightly but bottom line is I got clear on the value of building over time.
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Sense of value and offering value as part of who I am
recon-
none the day of running or after but I’ve been having some real work friction this week and bits of depressive thinking/acting. Not sure if EOG recon or dropping HOM.
More to come.
EOG stage 1, Emperor, True Sell is the stack for this week still as of now.
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I took a 3 day break and resumed my stack but replacing True Sell with Primal Seduction
just for some experimentation, and I have a couple goods reasons to be messing with seduction subs
Now I can’t afford a seduction sub in my rotation really, but I will run PS this week 2 loops
I did 3 minutes today before heading to a out…
OH MY FXXX GXXD I LOVE THIS SUBS IN ZP.
Everything I wanted, with woman, the feeling, the internal confidence, the interest, the ability to meet the interest, the grounded in my self nature with the ability to still engage. That perfect razor edge of intentionality and with fun and carefree. The flow, the fun etc. 3 minutes of this shot new life into me. I can’t wait until I can focus can be more on seduction, seduction, ‘pick up’ in the highest sense of the game.
I could feel the movie star/ state acute effects wane after about an 2 hours but still the entire time out at the talking and flirting and having fun with every single woman I was interested in, engaging in ways that were bolder then I normally would for sure.
Anyway I wanted to run this as between Emperor and EOG stage 1 my swings from insane productivity, go go go mode, to recon as intense anger and dips into existential helpless I needed something that feeds my soul. Reconnecting with the beauty of woman, and my drive there is always very rejuvenating. So took a detour. I’ll run a few more loop segments over the weekend/ Monday -and see what happens…
As fun as it is I will switch back to a more financial success related title after this week unless PS proves its more effective for work, finances, professional relationships, and productivity than True Sell or HOM, which is possible but I doubt it.
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Ran EOG last night,
EOG stage 1 just seems to be causing some sense of dissociation from the difficulty of my circumstance financially, no sense of freedom or possibility yet, it is showing me where and why I am limiting myself but it seems more hopeless now then anything else. Specifically I rely to much on relationships and others for my financial well being, rather than specific competencies, skill sets, and actions. I’m not at the source of my own financial well being.
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Ran 2 minutes of PS again today (from 3 minute-to 5 minute loop) I went to grab a coffee and my favorite barista was there, she was really happy to see me and we had a very charged fun interaction. We were takin our time as a line built up behind me. PS is urging me to turn my fantasies into realities. I was really pushed to ask her out (she just turned 21 last week and I’m 34 ). PS healing also has me see my fears and excuses in the way (‘it’s all an illusion she’s just being nice behind the counter don’t try to make it anything else’), and my body was both relaxed but also almost shaking from wanting to do this. I ended on a high note. My intention is to just ask her out next time- not as pressure on myself, but because I’d like to do that.
Also I thought I’ve been horny before PS. Since I feel sexually charged all the time and very attracted to woman throughout my day but PS is another level. Visceral like ‘GRAPHIC WARNING’: you’ve been having awesome sex for a while and are ready to drop a huge load. That’s the feeling I have on PS so far after running it lol.
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Someone asked me about will woman still like them off Emperor if they like them on Emperor. Do they really like Emperor or them essentially.
I’m posting my reply here.
That’s not a question about Emperor- that’s a question about any subs.
There are auras and acute effects that make attraction and interest easier, and will have certain woman more interested in you then they would be had you not run the subs.
The personality and character traits from Emperor have stuck with me.
Woman like me and are interested way more in who I am now whatever subs I am running.
I’ve taken extensive time off and that’s still the case.
Celebrity like interest, and insane ‘pick up’ success are more prominent on certain subs- specifically PS for me.
Running certain subs also increases an already high baseline of interest and can create more acute manifestations with certain woman
I’ve found woman who really like you will really like as long as you show up as your best self, subs, or whatever your doing.
You want to know that who you are, with or without subs, is enough. And you can be with the woman you want most because of that. That’s already the case, there’s just conditioning and crud in the way. Subs are one tool to help remember and re-discover that.
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Your insights are much appreciated
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This week was EOG stage 1, Emperor ZP Test Version, and Primal Seduction
I really like PS. It completely shifts my ability with woman instantly. I always have insane attraction on my stack, but in terms of interest and escalation and personal enjoyment PS is killer
Met up with this woman I used to be friends with-we had such a fucking awesome time. She was in a committed relationship and I completely could have fxxed her and made a choice not to escalate. We were at a bar, on stools with our legs intertwined, at points my hand was on her chin and she kept holding my hand. I pushed it close but had something in my space as soon as I knew her situation. Which she disclosed after I dug, and said it was a really great relationship. Always a little weirded out by her saying that yet so physically available. In the past I wouldn’t have thought twice about this but now have some ethical conscience about it.
BUT what I really love about PS is how much FUN I have on it. I get plenty of attraction on my stacks in general-but PS makes me enjoy and want to interact and keep interacting.
EOG stage 1 is weird as fuck, causing a lot of recon, but major shifts as well. I feel an increasing lightness around finances. I see there is this way I am a ‘prostitute’ for money- I compromise my self, my values, my identity, my well being and I don’t need to do that. In fact not doing that will make me MORE money.
I’m relating to money as more factual rather than personal or emotional.
(Side note: In my astro-chart- it says this)
" Mercury in the 2nd House Mercury in the second house represents a connection with the house of personal financial affairs and property. It is a position that helps generate ideas for making money and makes people to value material things. These people are bright and smart. They have a talent for trading and for financial and business transactions. They can use it in economics, planning, sales, in writing popular literature or in another profession that requires good communication skills. These people usually have more material than intellectual values and they can also earn their living by teaching about or mediating money-making opportunities." @Malkuth
I’ve always been drawn to having others succeed financially-so this is interesting and a manifestation of EOG stage 1 to rediscover this.
I’m also getting CRAZY strong urges to smoke cigarettes and vape again-which I use to to do. Since starting EOG stage 1. I haven’t gone back, but it’s so weird. The whole romantic pull mentally and physically wanting it. Not sure what that’s about-but maybe it’s related to anxiety, lack of freedom and hopelessness as part of my recon.
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That’s good my friend. I started smoking cigs again a couple of months ago and it’s a hassle to start quitting specially when dealing with outside stress. I just don’t have that mindset yet. Good on you to keep it up, it’s not worth it.
I had the most fun and very obvious results when I was running Emperor and PS, it’s quite the tandem.
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Thanks @Apollo
I could never go back to smoking or vaping consistently. My life is so much better without it.
Anxiety and depression went when down when I stopped, and there’s way more freedom.
But avoiding it and fearing having it is also a lack of freedom
I have smoked at parties or special events and had no problem not picking the habit up again.
I’ll occasionally use it for celebration but never to manage stress or bad feelings- that’s what will send me down again.
I’d also smoke with a woman who smokes after sex.
I may experiment with some nicotine base nootropics because there is increasing evidence of some of the cognitive/ flow state and health benefits of nicotine outside of smoking .
I wish you an easy way to transition out of it. My 2 cents if you are going to do it- is to do American Spirits or vape instead.
what are you running these days?
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Exactly, life is so much better without it and my workouts are far more consistent. It’s something I haven’t been doing much lately, I just don’t have the motivation and I’m always exhausted because life is quite intense the past month or so.
I was tempted to run Primal or PS again to recapture that good, primal, masculine feeling, but so far I’m on Wanted to see where it takes me.
I’m running the latest versions of Emperor ZP, QL ST1 and my Chosen - Wanted custom for this cycle.
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I have also noticed an extreme urge to smoke cigarettes again which I once did some time back.
For me it’s from Ascension ZP not sure why this urge though. Would love to know the root cause of this.
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That’s good ? 
Glad to hear that you are staying strong here. Nicotine for me always put me in lower states and emotions almost like it was a nice thing dwelling on past memories. On ZP lately my desire for nicotine has been zero and whenever I have had some I just feel put off. In the end it’s not worth it because its way to addictive to be playing around with, and it also sucks life force out of you like a slow grinder.
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Ah no. Missed some parts on that quote.
It’s good to have the will against that temptation. It’s a hassle. Stressed then, still stressed now, just less healthier.
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@pacman good to see you over here.
Let me take a crack at the root cause- Ascension= intense masculine=badass=not giving a shit= do what I want=fuck it=new avatar that reflects that=Your new avatar might be sending you the ‘wrong’ subconscious message 
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