Must admit that am not ready for customs yet. They do work but my circumstance is such that I can’t test many of the modules which require loads of social interactions.
So what I have decided is to run a single title (currently WANTED) to minimize the recon of not having to sleep on such modules.
Another point is that there is still a need for me to manifest the subliminals more. What I mean by that is, to experience more results in order to make it easier for me to solidfy my belief in the titles here.
For example, if I run Ascended Mogul and I don’t experience the results I want, it means that I need to run it for longer and take more action.
remarkable had once mentioned that if action taking isn’t our strong point, then a good way to make up for it is to run a single title for a year minimum (so that eventually even the little action one takes over the course of the year will compound and manifest).
Which is an excellent idea and that’s what am going to do with WANTED.
I have found that customs, at least how I’ve built them but I would guess as most build them, work best in my experience for gradual identity change and long term development.
Where as the store programs cause rapid change and alterations. I was reviewing my store program testing or times I’ve run store programs solo and the progress is crazy. I turned my whole life around my first few months of running Emperor solo.
I would not be surprised if new custom building instructions/suggestions are very different than current ones. Saint and Fire I imagine run cores- with highly specific add ons to address their specific issues/goals. I remember Saint saying at one point he doesn’t use many results enhancers because he knows how to guide the subs. Or the custom Saint is running now -is all completely geared in one specific direction.
I’ve found the biggest difference with QV2 than Q for me- is there is a level of pain/suffering I am present to that forces me into action. I don’t know if this is recon or what- I doubt it is the design of the sub but with QV2 I get so present to the impact of what I am dealing with, I try to run away for a it for a while, and then I realize it’s easier to deal with (internally or in action) than anything else.
I am in, or have been in a very grey area here as well, on one hand I can see and explain certain results and on the other a part of me is always doubting and questioning, not whether the subs work-but whether they work for me, I’m I doing it right, to little/to much, to broad, I’m a being adversely effected with recon due to some ‘unique’ hang up I have, am I missing something etc lol. This is largely going away again, but I’ve been in that space for a while.
I’ve historically always attributed positive effects to the subs I’ve run and heavily gave the benefit of the doubt to there influence. Now I’m wondering if I am taking more action, because I am not relying on anything anymore etc. It’s funny, this doubt is much stronger for me since QV2 but I feel I am taking the steps I really need to move things forward slowly but surely
My actions and behavior are different but I feel more normal, on Q I felt superhuman on certain customs.
This week for example I ran AM-and I felt kind of blah about it- it was missing the badass drive of Emperor, the focus of QL lite, the sexuality, the dominance- etc It still felt Alpha with a little more flexibility for myself than Emperor but nothing too special in my mind…but as the week went on I noticed my focus was completely determined and unstoppable on solving my work issues, conversations manifested around it, breakthrough in realizing how to be and act differently, and then a real world conversation that open up the option for double my income, and in addition to that a new position with MUCH higher growth potential. This is a conversation I’ve been wanting to have for almost 2 years and never got around too. So I can’t argue with that as an AM and/or Emperor bloom sub result.
(Now that look back on it I got 20 tinder matches this week- when for weeks I’ve gotten nothing- maybe PS in custom bloom result- or maybe AM even)
I’ve been taking a very slow approach with 1 loops per title every 5-7 days and find this gives me time to really digest and assimilate the script and act on it rather than dealing with excess recon or processing rather than executing. I’m building back up to more loops, but this has worked well for now.
That is an excellent idea and I think that will be awesome for you!!! Looking forward to reading about it.
Ran loop of Paragon custom today
tracking progress quick update
This streamline custom seems to have helped my ear greatly
I get some act ups with intense recon and/or general anxiety but most of the time
it’s as if the issue never existed. I believe this is predominantly the SPS Ear Module more than Paragon because
My finger is definitely not healing faster than it would normally, and if anything the healing is slower. Not cause of subs necessarily-it’s just healing slower than this general injury/issue normally would. I’ve been inactive with it per the specialist recommendation but maybe it needs some gradual use and strengthening. I’ll see the specialist again in a few weeks for a shot in the joint and/or asking about PT, but I’d rather not get the shot if I don’t have too.
I may not be running enough loops a week to see progress on this
Generally besides that I feel better energetically and stress wise which is likely negative energy transmutation, the architect, and stress displacement with perhaps some paragon influence.
The ultima conversion to QV2 may take longer, I’m really not clear on what to expect with the converted Ultimas. I know they were cleared to work but distinctly than there Ultima variants.
My back is also generally better. It was at its best when extremely physically active and running fitness customs, but for the most part my mobility and movement is fluid and inhibited.
I’ll be more conscious and intentionally in asking for what I want healed moving forward and I think it’s time to bump to 2 loops of Paragon QV2 custom a week
One more result I should mention although I don’t know if related to this custom.
I’ve lost about 40 lbs in the last 10 weeks. Everyone keeps complimenting me on how good I look.
My diet is super intuitively on point. Intermittent fasting 16+ hours daily and then one meal with maybe a light snack later. Until a few weeks ago I was in very consistent anxiety and also very concerned about what I was eating and putting in my body. It occurred to me at the time and in retrospect as not comfortable and neurotic but my health and physique have both improved.
I mentioned this above but I find I am extremely ‘negatively’ motivated into action that yield results on QV2. Either through concern or not being able to stand what I am present to until it is resolved in reality. It seems to have leveled out and now I am more intuitively guided to eating what feels right and gives me energy (maybe health codex recon to full effect trajectory.) About once a week I am also guided to eating higher caloric, lower quality food that helps me stay on track for the rest of the week. My theory is it resets the leptin levels and has my body stay out of any adversely catabolic mode.
This is exactly what I am doing right now. I had an A, B pattern before. Like A rest B rest A rest B.
But last week I have switched to A, B, C rest A, B, D rest A, B, C …
Saint mentioned Paragon can be introspective
and I am feeling a sense of some real introspection and nostalgia today coming up and flowing out.
Missing old girlfriends, feeling kind of lonely, displaced in my living situation, missing old times, regrets,
and a subtle gratitude for all of it. Nothing to heavy, just feeling deeply.
You have Inner Voice, Faith Unyielding, Rebirth, Path of Forgiveness, and Stress Displacement.
I’d encourage you to focus more on the physical. Perhaps make a healing Ultima.
I’d encourage you to chuck in Sanguine, SPS Skeletal System, Fusion Optimized, and Inner Gasoline. Leave out Negative Energy Transmuation, Negativity Displacer, and a healing related module or 2.
I somehow expected you to add HoM. But seeming you have glory seeker, ture sell, ultiame writer, dragon tongue lifeblood fable(awesome module) - wouldn’t starkq cover most if not all of that?
Stark may be in a core in this custom or not–whatever the case-I’d want to focus on those modules as well.
HOM is in my wealth custom- that also has fenrir and furious ascent. I have concerns about running fearsome. I get plenty of respect as it is, and am pretty discerning with PCC, I’ll also have fenrir for when to cut people out, and don’t know about creating fear in other people
Ran another AM loop today
I don’t know if it’s AM or Emperor bloom or Emperor base for 18 months and now AM
but things are moving very fast for the better. If this trajectory keeps running my income on retainer from this job will be doubled in a month and I could potentially be an executive at an off shoot company with a 6 figure salary and opportunity on commission on deals in the hundreds of thousands.
I can see where I am putting in work-FOR something- rather than just putting in work. The labor is to birth something new-not just manage, not get in trouble/keep the job, or maintain. I can see where I have to be proactive-with ensuring the work translates directly to new income and more money.
It’s a whole different world at the same job, and it opened up from a conversation I didn’t want to have but made myself, while also be skillful in listening to and looking to meet another person’s needs. I’m excited, there’s no going back.
Anyway I spent about 10 hours straight working
adding value to the potential new role
ironing out marketing projects for other work -so I can get paid for that
and then going over the lectures in the PE course I’m doing.
Had dinner and then bam
About 10 hours after listening I got hit with really hardcore alpha feeling, also a lot of energy and a complete inability to focus–pressure in my head and some sinus stuff acting up-with that sense of mental processing (uggh- so annoying lol)…took a 20 minute walk and seems to be passing now or diminishing.
Hard to say. Emperor bloom is likely contributing, and the base laid by Emperor is definitely contributing to my ability execute AM well.
Great point on working within society though, I’m having much more success working the routes I have now then breaking them.
I’m in action around my own coaching business as well-the ball got rolling with that on Emperor. I’ll test Emperor store program again to compare in a week or so.
It’s likely the custom though. The name embedding helps but my new sense is customs work for slower, gradual growth, rather than rapid change -unless it’s 1 core and/or extremely streamlined and low module number
