AzrielLight EmperorQ

Journals - Major Programs
#1950

I meant to post this earlier- after washout I ran 1 loop of Emperor custom since my washout then took another week off.

The self effects continue to integrate and I continue to see external results in social confidence, respect, and attraction. I feel more comfort in my own being and a lot of the turbulence mental and physical I’ve been experiencing are leveling out.

If I could say one thing Emperor and Emperor core does more than anything else-is it orients to pushes me to take care of what really needs taking care of. This naturally brings up whatever would come up that is in one’s way of taking care of things that have been not dealt with. Initially it was obvious things, work to be done, procrastination, then it got deeper into health and emotional issues, and now it is about taking care of fundamental existential concerns and purpose-where to put my energy and efforts to create profound transformation in my life

The latest things I’ve been pushed to deal with is a medication I’ve taken daily for quite a while

I came off wellbutrin-selective dopamine and nor-epinephrine re-uptake inhibitor -after 9 years.
The first few days the fatigue was really hard to push through but overall I feel SOO much better not being on it. I don’t know why the fuck I was on it for so long. It was meant as an non-addictive Adderall replacement and I really just never bothered questioning it until this year.

The intensity of many of the underlying physical symptoms I was getting has subsiding greatly since coming off this medication

Whether after 9 years my body/brain got sick off it, or changes from fitness and intelligence subs healed me to the point where the medication was too strong/ no longer needed.

Perhaps an inner circle result:

There are soo many really cool new people coming into my life-really cool role model guys and their inviting me to parties, sex parties, and to single’s mixers.

I have not been able to participate because I’ve held off on getting vaccinated (this is non-political forum so please refrain from commenting on views on vaccine or another political/philosophical implications here). I have not been medically cleared to be vaccinated yet, but will be in early August and then will likely pull the trigger on it. I’ve been super against it for personal health concerns, but honestly with the situation in NYC I can’t really date, go to the gym, or do anything without it,and it occurs like I’m spending a life hiding out and avoiding. And if taking a risk to protect myself more and live fully is what there is to do then I don’t want to shy away from that.

5 Likes
#1951

I’ve now resumed Emperor custom and new paragon custom and will be resuming DR stage 3 next week.

I felt amazing after the new Paragon custom, super light, a sense of well being and good tiredness. I slept like a rock and woke up feeling refreshed for the first time in quite a while.

The three major physical issues I am dealing with are, finger muscle pull and/or tendon strain- the specialist couldn’t tell

chronic congestion that leads to ear pressure and occasional tinnitus symptoms, which have gone down greatly since stopping wellbutrin, but can flare up again lightly when running certain subs (my unique form of recon perhaps-not an auditory issue).

Back pain.

The first run of paragon QV2 custom - completely eliminated the back pain, and helped the other two issues moderately.

Emperor is making me impatient and edgy again, which is a double edge sword. I’m moving through shit and getting it done. But annoyed at many things in my life and get ridiculously upset when things stall or my energy collapses-so looks like I’m noticing this recon–it’s not consuming or derailing but definitely notable.

I will test run Ascended Mogul soon to see if it is a suitable replacement. My main goal now is getting clear on a business and getting it off the ground, and optimizing physical and emotional health.

I’m still working on passion projects but I’m not sure if I will put my efforts into monetizing them or pick something less creative to just get a new income stream rolling.

I love what subclub represents, mixing technology and the highest understanding of human potential in different areas to create products to transform people’s experience of themselves, their lives, and their results in whatever matters to them. I want to create my own version of a business like that. Not a sub business but something that incorporates those elements.

I’ve been pretty stalled/ introspective for the last few months, and things are now resolving in a positive way.

4 Likes
#1952

How’s your ear?

#1953

Thanks for asking
recon and stress can aggravate it, and in general it’s much overall much better, especially since dropping this medication
and I have confidence the new Paragon custom, with has only one APS module/ Ear will support in getting 100% back to normal -I am already on my way

4 Likes
#1954

I want to be more consistent in monitoring my own state and progress
so making a tentative commitment to post on my own journal more often

As a result of the effectiveness of my actions in the last year
I have more free time, while making the same or more money than ever before.
This paired with a self imposed lock down around gym, dating, etc has created even more free time.
and now more recently I’m saying yes to less and less social interaction and commitments in general.

I have this burning drive to either really enjoy myself freely or use my time in a way that will move towards a meaningful goal. As without options, self imposed, for romance, or physical activity (that I enjoy most) like the gym, the hue of my life seems significantly duller. This will be the case until around mid September. In light of this I am going to create some strict routines and scheduling, to see what magic I can make happen inside of this confines.

This is the first time I’ve really experienced the ‘pandemic’ in the traditional sense since I’ve been safely socializing, throwing little events, hanging with friends, climbing, going to the gym, meeting and/or seeing woman when I wanted, until the last couple months.

My biggest block will be emotional turmoil and drive not being able to sublimated.

My goals are to:

finalize a course I’m working on and start beta testing it with friends
create initial business plans for a supplement company
publish a book of poetry/short stories on Amazon- (could give zero give shits about sales on this one-just a fun project with my brother)
Read 1-2 books a week
Reach out to old contacts with high commission sales opportunities and land 2 $10,000+ commission sales
meditate and have a prayer practice daily
workout, qigong, and mobility daily (inside room-not the glory of the gym but I’ve got to do something)
become someone who allocates blocks of times for activities and simply does whatever I said I was going to do in that block without regard for outcome, completion, or perfectionism.

Alright let’s make it happen.

6 Likes
#1955

An update you’d like to know about…

Gold was too big picture; I was losing touch with what was most important day-to-day.
So I had to bring back Emperor. Then …

Too early to be the final word, but I may have found the replacement for G4 & RiU in Medici.

Current hopefully stable stack: EQ, HM, WQ

:blush:

3 Likes
Honest Feedback on Qv2
#1956

yes indeed, thank you :slight_smile:

on my stack I’m a beast when there is a clear deliverable(s) that yield future fruit
I go into recon- when the current yield is not connected to a future
I think and believe in myself strongly for compelling long term vision
I lack strategy, decisiveness, direction, and initiative on the specifics of that vision, and connecting the steps to get there, how to allocate my energy and time day to day towards that.

I’m wondering if HOM or AM might be better fits than Emperor. Emperor without the seduction stuff in custom might be more effective as well.

Then when the clarity and path is straight-bring Emperor back.

2 Likes
#1957

Standard Emperor effect. :+1:t2:

You don’t need to steer away from Emperor.
Just don’t try to do it alone. Use other people’s Strengths.

Do you know someone who is natural at writing lists down – to dos, minutes of meetings, SOPs, etc.? S/He is probably a CPA, working in Operations, or HR.

Call them and ask for help in penning down your strategic career & financial plan.

It doesn’t matter if they know nothing about careers, businesses, investing, etc. If they have above average IQ, and a Strength at Detailed Planning, … working together with them, you will make more progress in 1 hour than you would do alone in 3 weeks.

Make it a weekly buddy coach meeting, if necessary.

:wink:

1 Like
#1958

yes, I need to leverage other people’s strengths and capacities more.
As well as just be more interactive/proactive with working with other people to get things going.
I have this blindspot that has me thinking I ‘should’ be doing it all alone and can’t rely on other people because every one is just self interested.

Thanks for this.

I also just have some a bunch of options, not opportunities but ideas I could look to make happen. I could pursue them but nothing I am really fired up to or called to pursue, this is more of an indecisiveness trap or looking for something perfect. I could honestly just pursue them all and see which one starts yielding something.

3 Likes
#1959

This happens to me. It’s part of what I’m working on.

1 Like
#1960

I see why you said that …

No harm in testing “Emperor + Medici” in Qv2 during the weekend.

:cowboy_hat_face:

#1961

yes! I don’t know what I already know lol

I have a qv2 custom with medici that I’ve been wanting to get back to :slight_smile:

HOM, EOG stage 1, RICH in QV2 --was thinking that… :crazy_face:

but I’m going to keep the stack stable for two weeks as I have not run subs consistently since my washout, and then start experimenting

how’s your money making/career endevours going @Simon ?

1 Like
#1962

@Friday how’s your experience with having a foundation of Emperor coming from Khan?

#1963

Ran 1 loop Paragon custom last night, felt relaxed, passed out and slept 9 and 1/2 hours
woke up with all the mucus in my nasal passages having completely drained, my throat was raw/sore but chronic congestion was better. Insane dreams about highly relevant issues in my life.
Feeling light and positive today.

2 Likes
#1964

We’re just over 6 months now since starting the unofficial race.

Let’s just say that I’ve come from having only hypothetical ideas, to knowing exactly how I’m gonna complete it, and …

… the ball has already started rolling.

:clinking_glasses:

3 Likes
Honest Feedback on Qv2
#1965

that 's fantastic :clinking_glasses

is this with the b2b marketing you mentioned at one point? (If I am remembering correctly)

2 Likes
#1966

currently reading Limitless by Jim Kwik as my book for the week
Also reading Intimate Conversations with the Divine by Carolyn Myss-to develop prayer practice
I’ve been consistent with meditation 1x daily and QiGong as well as other energy medicine practices.

I’ve been pretty intentional the last week. In total I only ran 1 loop Emperor custom and 2 loops Paragon custom. I’m running another loop of Paragon custom tonight, and 1 loop Emperor custom tomorrow afternoon.

I’m a bit stalled on my course design, working on refining it down -as its pretty abstract now. I’m doing it more as a having fun thinking, creating, integrating, and synthesizing elements development I learned to see if I can improve upon them. To monetize it, it will have to have a very specific group of people it serves and/or specific outcomes.

I’m very present to grappling with own value and place lately and that there is something to figure out-I have to keep discerning if this is just old conditioning and insecurities being worked through or just grappling with what I’ve never really dealt with.

I’m resisting start at the beginning of things, I’m waiting and/or looking for a gut certainty and clarity

It seems, to paraphrase the adage, the problem can’t be solved at the level it was created.

It helps when I think of things more specifically, like areas of my life.

3 Likes
#1967

ran Paragon custom last night

this was my 3rd loop of it this week with a day off in between. That might be may limit
as I notice my anxiety about my health shoots through the roof, and I start to go neurotic/ocd about environmental factors that could be dangerous or non-optimal. Likely recon from that as I noticed something similar from my last custom.

I also have All-Seeing in this custom and it is comical how much I notice this, especially with my smell and hearing, I can hear patterns of sounds through sounds and patterns of sounds, same with smell… also taste and touch are more sensitive, and I appreciate colors more. It’s almost surreal.

7 Likes
#1968

@Lion

I saw your enjoying some Sage Immortal! Are you stacking with anything? Very curious how it stacks with titles you’ve been interested in and running the past.

2 Likes
#1969

I ran it alone last week. It was a nice experience. Not sure if I will continue with it when I start my customs (new journal coming soon).

Am currently on a one week washout. The only way I think I could stack it with my upcoming playlist is using Sage Immortal Ultima as a booster. The calm spiritual confidence could come in handy. Maybe it has manifestation too.

Not entirely made up my mind about it. But if you have one or two subliminals in your stack, adding Sage Immortal is a good idea. Am more reluctant to add Sage Immortal to my playlist because I will already be having 3 Qv2 titles in it.

3 Likes