I test ran paragon last night 1/2 with headphones and 1/2 on computer speakers.
It put me at ease although it energized me,and definitely felt some mitigating pain effects, Both pain, problem, and emotionally it gave me the sense of being distinct then and removed from my symptoms.
in my sinuses and area that needs a root-canal 2nd treatment (I discovered this on my own through reading and comparing x-rays from years before and went back to an oral surgeon who had dismissed something as shadowing, I showed him the progression of the shadow and he apologized and confirmed I was accurate- we are in charge of our own health-professionals just support!)
Today was a sub day off and I felt an incredible amount of rapid transcending and integrating, consciously doing a lot of conscious healing work, goal writing, journaling, re framing things. Paragon may have contributed to this or DR bloom. Whatever the case about an hour ago I started experiencing some really weird sense of insane rage and annoyance at everything, it felt deeper than a mood almost like an identity- I don’t know if something getting dislodged or healed but I’ve never had recon like this. I’ve had nightmarish recon, moody recon, tired recon, drug trip recon. But this is like I wanted to break shit and throw my fists threw a wall. Any way it seems to be abating now.
But am journaling for the alchemical process.
I will take tomorrow off and then likely the rest of the week off from subs.
The thought of not using subs for a week gives me a panic almost, I feel this driving urge to use them and it’s only day 1!
I already felt some really positive bloom effects today as well so let’s see what the week brings.