Starting a new Journal.
I will leave the other one open if I resume Emperor or at least a post a summation of my full Emperor experience.
I’m currently running Chosen ZP and will be likely stacking 1 more ZP and one other sub. Both TBD
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Here were my day one results -from Monday
Ran 1 loop of Chosen today.
How to describe
- Instant energy surge
- Profound sense of positivity and possibility
- Profound sense of confidence, courage, and fearlessness
- No overthinking anything-acting on what I saw to do
- Sense of best self- nonstop productivity for 8 hours
- Working with colleagues- leading them and getting them to fulfill mission-critical items
- Being treating me like royalty-going out of their way to offer to help me with things when out- 2 people actually
- Sense of wanting to care for and lead a part of myself that has been hurt/victimized
- Sense of wanting to support and empower others while also doing what is relevant for myself
- Sense of high value and worth
- Overwhelming drive to fulfill my word on what I would said to people
- Sense of personal honor and dignity that has been missing for me.
- Sene of space around some of the crazy anxieties and internal struggles I have had
- It’s like the executive function switch in my brain has been turned on (similar to Emperor)
- Shift from a victim mentality to sense of agency
Man this ZP was powerful and worked fast. The only caveat I will say is so far the sexual edge is definitely lacking, (I know that’s not the function/ intention of the sub) but more running needs to be done to explore this.
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Nice man, what are your objectives for the next months or so?
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So funny just typing this
My main goal in running chosen.
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Is to set myself up to be indispensable in my current work, to be in a position
to negotiate 90K salary, performance-based bonuses based on clearly defined metrics, commission/distribution of management fees, and long-term remuneration (on investments) based on deals, connections, and investments I source, or that I support in sourcing. This would take effect by February 1st. I want to get this clearly defined and on paper by Jan 1. -
To overcome a sense of my own lack of value, credibility, skills, and worth when looking at new work and have multiple job offers on the table that are better than the work I currently financially and situationally.
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To develop an income stream and wealth pathway through creating a coaching, writing, and influence business.
I will choose other subs that support this goal.
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Day 2 on Chosen- Tuesday
A highlight was I ended up doing a presentation for a development/mastermind group I am part of it
that consists of many many multi-millionaires and highly successful people.
I was nervous about joining originally as I felt very out of place. It’s been a very valuable experience to be part of the last few weeks and is shifting how I relate to work, career, and finance greatly.
Just being in that energy of people at a certain level, especially when they all are being vulnerable and human and want to contribute, is great.
The presentation went really well-I felt incredibly solid the whole time, was totally real with all the messy stuff I was dealing with, but in a dignified way that brought value. Got great feedback.
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Day 3 Wednesday
I forgot to mention my experience on chosen overall -is that it turned me into an adult/ man or allowed me to access this extremely adult/ masculine part of me.
Decided to wait one more day before running another loop.
Had a ton of anxiety on the surface today in terms of overwhelm of what needed to get done, both minutia and larger life endeavors.
I kept looking for how it could be contained and managed in reality. I also kept seeing how indecisiveness was the source of my anxiety. In a very clear almost extra perceptory way.
I’m also seeing how reliance and depedence are sources of anxiety for me.
I do feel ZP is having a healing effect
I have a sense of being in two worlds a bit merging.
Today I believe I may be experiencing some very minor recon.
An intense sense of coming to terms with and back into the present moment of all these hurts and anger I have had around how difficult, unfair, and challenging my life has been. It feels I am pulling my power back from the time-based chaos stew of it all.
Also get the sense my congruence is being tested/ challenged. As I really want things for myself first and foremost now. Let’s see if Chosen can deliver.
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Noting- Chosen ZP has affected my sleep
I’m more energized, excited, and focused
and falling asleep the last few nights two hours later than normal.
I’m finding my energy and focus build at night even more than normal.
I seem to be sleeping deeper though.
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The Zero Point effect is aligning you with and activating your past internalization of Emperor. It does that. Even for programs that were played quite some time before. Prepare for major bloom effects.
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You sound like another ZP natural. When we were in the trial, @Invictus, @AlexanderGraves, @Sub.Zero, and @Phoermes gave comments that sounded like yours do now.
(I’m talking about the speed and ease of the response and the power of the sensations, not the specific results. They were playing WANTED ZP at the time, and you’re playing CHOSEN ZP.)
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This is what I wrote to Saint after my first loop of Chosen.
I took his recommendation and am now running Chosen+Spartan.
I just have to report this.
I listened to one loop of Chosen on Sunday. As usual, I didn’t notice anything during the day.
The following night I had a dream where I had hired new people to my marketing department. And they were total idiots. Didn’t listen to me at all etc. I was really annoyed in the dream. Then it ended and I woke up.
Yesterday I was irritated with everything. I just didn’t feel like seeing any people. It got better in the evening.
It’s like my mind was actively fighting against the happiness and joy contained in the scripting…
Like my submind was shouting to the sub: “Hell no, you little f*cker. I see what you are trying to do. Don’t even try to make me feel good!”
As a side note, even if it did get a bit better I’ve been more irritable than usual for the whole week.
I did my second loop of Chosen this morning and I’ve been feeling sleepy the whole day.
Edit: The funny thing about Chosen is that Saint recommended it to me for positivity 
My resistant personality is most likely the culprit.
Also let me know if you want to remove this post. Don’t want to hijack your thread.
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Is the idea of using Spartan to harness and make use of that aggressive energy that is arising in response to Chosen?
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My main goal for now is to get into shape.
I’ll see what other advantages I can get from the stack.
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Good to see you back with a bang, @Azriel. I remember you having a difficult time before but even though there are mountains for you to conquer, you sound more brave and optimistic with CHOSEN 
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Ran another loop
last Thursday,
less sense of positivity and flow and strength internally than the first time. Much more sense of hashing out some distress internally, and seeing the discrepancy of my fears and anxiety vs. my sense of self-leadership and being a leader in life.
Very strong external effects though in terms of a performance I did, a social event I went to, and work relations still getting stronger and smoother
Had a really heavy amount of anxiety a few days after the loop. Not sure if related and Chosen actually helped me stay reasonably grounded and in perspective. Or if recon contributed. Getting intense physical sensations the days after running the loops as well. Shifts in posture, image, eyes etc. where my energy feels in my body etc.
I find myself cleaning up and taking total responsibility for a lot of what has not been working in certain relationships. Making sure others are well off and taken care of has increased importance.
It feels like Chosen is supporting me in figuring out what’s really important and what other subs to run as well. More to come on tis.
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I took this week off any subs- kind of intuitively felt best.
Glad I did. Bloom is coming through like crazy.
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Lucid dreams-very relevant and resolving deep value conflicts incredibly fast-(I read about this last night and then experienced it-not sure if my suggestibility is super powerful and/ or just good timing-probably both)
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Breakthrough sense in who I am to other people- I feel more and more like literally the Chosen One for people in my life.
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More and more sense of being an adult and healing from deep fear, attatchments, and anxieties.
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Getting insane compliments of who I am and how I’ve shown up for work lately
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Friendships that were decent before are becoming super deep-and trust is spiking through the roof for the best.
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There is a massive flow factor when I start engaging work or socializing.
All awesome stuff- improving the quality and experience of my life- also strongly noticing how Chosen is not the pure flavor or character I want to be or portray and results I want to have- it’s revealing what else matters to me. I want more wild, danger, doing my own thing- Emperor/Khan/Wanted style. I want more what’s in it for me, getting mine, money, sexual relations. It’s very paradoxical. It is opening up this powerful dimension of meaning, fulfillment, and service while highlighting how much I want and need these other aspects/ qualities in my life. I believe I can leverage Chosen to fulfill some of those goals, because Chosen doesn’t seem exclusive to these more alltruistic goals, its just a stronger focus. I can see how I can use the position I am in to leverage more of what I want as well…and new subs will likely go in the stack soon.
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My brother and his girlfriend were out with covid so I ended up spending Christmas with just my mom.
It was great, but sad on some level for the first time in my entire life not to be with my brother on Christmas. It kind of has me see what volatile times were in and how mutable life is in general and the importance of going after what matters like there is no tomorrow or anything given.
Ran a loop of Chosen Sunday. I’ll just list some effects.
- Recon seems deeper/more intense each time I’ve run a loop -it’s emotionally very contained though
- Recon showing up as intense physical intensity inside me, tension in neck, jaw and throat. Feels like my body is being molded energetically in some way.
- Feel in two worlds, distant from my own life, but closer to it as well.
- Some deep sense of inner strength, conviction, and positivity are there but there is in a wrestle with wanting to not deal with people.
- Chosen keeps bringing up this theme of needing to really serve, fulfill, look out for me, the way I would for others I am devoted to.
- I do feel increasingly hopeful and capable of enduring difficulty
- Getting positive reflection on my maturity and growth
- At times it seems a get a great deal of positive attention and interest, and from woman mesmerization, and then I feel like someone woman have no interest in , and others see as weak- this bouncing back and forth def seems like recon.
- Had a moment of staring in the mirror while washing my hands and it was like I was this shining beacon of the sun and the most capable, wanted, person for everything lol- it was a reality distortion moment for sure
- Chosen seems to really kick in when of service to people in work or when extending outward for others, and I find I am having a lot of resistance to that on vacation time, which I am also still working during.
Tempted to try Emperor ZP but won’t until at least Thursday. I also still want to try Paragon.
I like aspects of ZP a lot. I like aspects of Chosen the title a lot. I’m still getting a sense of both and will continue to comment on my experience and perception of them as things get clearer.
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Only 1 title Chosen twice a week with 2 days in between.
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How many loops?
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Love that pic- very Alice and Wonder-landy 
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Happy New Year Yall 
To a year of our wildest fantasies fulfilled
and where we stop seeking and start finding.
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