I’m dancing over the map with testing but things are going well overall.
Tests
- Khan/Khan Black/BDLM custom is incredible- (only a couple tests )
I’m feeling a chemistry and love for a woman I have not felt in what feels like years.
I will run it more in full next month
I started doing PE exercises again- didn’t even do that on my prevous BDLM- custom- but it just felt right
- Hero Earth- mixed feelings (had it in my stack since Mid June )
honestly dilutes Beast’s pure hype in the gym but creates a more natura,l grounded high performance
Not a diss to Hero Earth, and I understand things take time, but not initially impressed with the strength, healing, or physical movement elements of it, it’s not as powerful in performance or strength as Hero O or Beast-close, although it DOES enhance them both.
If I were to credit it- I would say
and I understand it’s a subtler sub- the mechanist and body awareness on it are powerful, going into states of presence and embodied -ness is powerful, listneing to my body on it is powerful, I’ve had several injuries since testing it (not blaming the sub) in a way it makes me feel more aware of where my limitations are.
When testing certain skill based things on it, spike ball, rock climbing, new movements- I do tend to learn and growth quicker. I can see Hero Earth really shining over time, it also has a bit of a revelation element to it, not always going in the performance direction I choose like Hero O or Beast.
But I can see it growing into incredible physical prowess over time and subltyl modifying other subs to really be powerful over time. I also think with strictly physical activities engagement aside from martial arts- it probably would take an edge of HeroO over time.
Hero O and Beast are INSANE for physical stuff- each in their own way. The resilience of Hero O beats anything, and the strength and athletic jumps of Beast beat anything. They both have strong skill and movement improvement too. With Beast getting the edge if I needed on for pure performance.
Work wise
In the lead with sales AGAIN. The last 6 months I’ve led the team. Numbers came in, and I’m half a million higher in sales than anyone else on the team last year and the only person with a $200K monthly average.
I’ve learned to love and accept I’m hyper competitive. I’m just practicing embracing it as fuel to be number one, learning to find things I care more about, practicing celebrating others’ success, and abundance for all. Also, the moment I am in leadership, I want everyone to do their best - I’m excited to be a top performer, but excited to move into leadership soon.
The team will start growing rapidly now that the company is profitable
and that triggers some concerns but rolling with thte tide.
I have been VERY frustrated with how my calls are going lately despite the overall performance being good. I’m feeling impatient, board, and intolerant of how slow people are. May be recon- may be too much masculinity inmy stack.
I have a huge calling for running ROW, so I will add that back into the stack for the next two weeks.
I’m building a custom with that and GM.
I invested a big chunk into a fast-growing private tech company yesterday
Some interesting things
I actually don’t feel confident in myself or my future. I am EXTREMELY confident, and willing, and courageous - But I don’t feel the energy of confidence in wealth, in a woman, in myself. Again possibly recon because I am still showing up how I want and making sxx happen, but that internal feeling of through and through confidence in my ability and what I want for my life is a bit elusive lately.
There is a subtle anger and anxiety there all the time. Not a bad thing necessarily but itneresting to note.
Will be doing a pretty big washout end of August so pushing the envolope still for the next few weeks