Azriel-All Wealth -Rainmaker

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#330

I am moving into what it takes to have my mindset bulletproof.
This week continue .

This week continues to be challenging and I am learning the next level.
So I actually have become fuck buddies with the top sales rep where I’m at. Its a woman (in case was wondering). She’s helping me with some of the craft elements of it. My charisma and relatability is insane but I’m a mess and need to get organized, on a lot of levels. My craft needs the next level of work. Which is also why I’m drawn to Hero: Origins.

This chick is such a powerful speaker it’s insane. Her words and her language is so concise and laser while being inviting but pure power. She creates a lot of respect in pure PCC way. She’s working with me on elements of sales. I feel like Power Talk module is working through her to train me.

Not ‘winning’ this week has been anxiety evoking, then frustrating, then cause for freaking out, then low grade depression, then feeling like I don’t want to do anything to now moving into some kind of complete detachment that feels very empowering. This is the longest I have gone without a sale ever-5 days.

Also I feel way more sexual when I am doing well at this job. Even on Khan power-winning is such an aphrodisiac. As a male the power dynamic thing is weird as well in terms of performance. I don’t want to do anything in life until I correct this imbalance. I have one more day then it all resets and a new weak/month begins. I still can come through. Or I’ll let it go, refocus and begin again.

Either case I continue to get better and better at dealing with, and being in the space and tension the full spectrum of giving everything until things turn around.

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#332

I know people love to be helpful and make a difference but just assume if I say consciously venting doesn’t need pepping up

With the exception of @Malkuth and some others I am not think of right now. You are always welcome to comment in any manner on anything I say, advice or not.

That said this is conscious vent but barely conscious so all take anything I can get from anyone

I am past the point where I am comfortable and just have to call this week a wash. This week I had a massive failure in performance. My performance spiraled once I started caring so much and feeling at a loss. I have to balance commitment and dedication with detachment. I’m thinking of reworking my custom with some emotional support-joi-de vivre and/or negative energy transmutation. My desperation was coming across in my performance. And its derailing and destabilizing everything and having me question a lot. Definitely the culmination of total breakdown. Although I’ve been running that much less than usual. This week be my last week running Khan Stage 1 for now. I need to get my performance stabilized.

Its so funny because definitely increases some key elements of my performance while making others things much more difficult.

I think I’m also just in a fair amount of recon. I’ll washout after today.

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#333

Since the Khan Total Breakdown has such a big impact on you…

Have you considered running it every month for a week or even less? You would know that you’ll have a rough time then. Just make more sales during the other weeks :stuck_out_tongue:

If I felt the results as strongly as you, I would try that. Hell, total of two or three loops /month might give you the results you are looking for, without impacting your performance too much.

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#334

I’ve done this with really really heavy subs, DRST1 specifically, works well. 1 loop every couple of weeks, just an intuitive pattern around “I feel like going through hell this weekend” and do it on a Thursday or Friday night to get the weekend to process, 3 min loop so I don’t bite off more than I can chew

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#335

I don’t think “going through hell” is going to lead to healing to be honest.

#336

I was just being over dramatic.

Healing subs usually reduce my productivity and have me very introspective. If I allow space and time to deal with the anxiety that comes up, I usually learn something and am much better for it.

I’ve only done maybe half a dozen loops of DRST1 spaced weeks and months apart but even one loop with three weeks to bloom changed my whole life and outlook on my work, what I wanted to do with my life, and how I wanted to intersect purpose and career

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#337

I appreciate all the feedback and thoughts.
Grateful for those who post on my journal and this community

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#338

@Simon

We have not talked in ages
What are you running these days?

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#339

completed Khan (for now) last week

I absolutely loved Khan
I don’t want to let it go
Who I am on it is who I want to be more and more
I got into quite a bit of trouble on it as well, not just with the breakdowns
but roughing some feathers-landing overly aggressive with certain people

My landscape with woman changed completely in a month. Had a fantastic sales month compared to the rest of the team -still top 5 not where I wanted to be though.

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#340

Started EOG stage 4 and HOM one loop each again. Alongside True Sell black. That’s the golden combo so far.

Worked 12 hours straight Saturdays and broke through my drought. Finished the week at $30K- low for me- high for average

Then this week started strong $50K in two days. Including one $30K big whale sale. Things are rolling again and I plan to absolutely crush this month.

Considering how to add in Nouveu RICH - in my stack and if its the right time. Not sure how it could be guided inside the wealth pathways I have. I’m looking to maximize those more than create something new, although that could all change.

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#341

If you wait a very short while, most of your current titles will be enhanced with the New Wealth Experience.

Your current stack is working very well.

But I can definitely see how you’ll use Nouveau R.I.C.H. once you choose to do so.

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#342

I ran a loop of Neavou RICH and had really great initial experience.
An $8K sale off a linke I forgot about- 4 calls scheduled with really high lead quality.
My first sales call of the day- I ran 1 minute of True Sell Black before and the combo was on point. Really good call. She said she’d purchase later in the day through a link.
Then I listened to some more True Sell Black 30 seconds only, but everything got really off.
My leads got sticky and not going anywhere. The link has not come through, I feel off and on autopilot.
Not sure if it is recon, the synergy, or part of me things the organic ‘sales’ nature of NR is so distinct that the push and drive of TS Black doesn’t quite resonate. Will see.
I’m testing NR with TS Black and possibly HOM this week.

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#343

consciously venting: I don’t know if recon or not, but I feel so wiped. Recon is strong. I’m questioning so much and feel less engaged in everything. The higher perspective is kind of cool but I"m also reconciling it. Caring about status, drive, immediate results has been so prevalent for me.

I also moved and in my new place my desk is by my bed. I rented and office and have not gotten down there yet. But I think the proximity is weird for me.

EOG/HOM/ True Sell Black custom 50K weeks and up. I don’t know why I deviate. Because I love Khan and I wanted to try Neavou RICH. NR is causing some series questioning. Can’t tell if NR or TS black with NR but my sales calls got VERY weird and off after a magnificent first one, even if it didn’t close yet. I want a monster week for my income. Before last weeks the previous two weeks really set me back. Need to get consistent with the monster weeks again. Hear great reviews on NR with sales, so we’ll see …

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#344

I still think it’s too early to determine exactly how good NR is for sales - sales is a long term game with massive peaks and valleys. I thought it was a bit unrealistic to say that based on a few good calls in the first half of the day, NR was magic, and that microlooping another sub and then your lead quality being “bad” in the second half of the day.

That’s all within the realm of possibility and chance as well as something naturally occurring - humans generally are perky in the morning.

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#345

This feels like revelation, so think of it in the long term. The uncertainty is probably coming up extra strong for you because, as far as I understand it, you’re very much so focused on just money as the driver and measurement. If that’s an offbase assumption I apologize. I know exactly how it feels though. The game of watching your paycheck grow every week. Thinking about why is time that could be spent closing and recovering for the next day.

But there’s a higher level of certainty that comes from knowing your deeper “why’s” which leads to higher conviction.

Maybe try to run NR on fridays so that you have the weekend to process the questioning?

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#346

Remember meditation.

Send like a good time for it for you.

Nothing woo-woo. Just strengthening that ability to be in the situation and watch it from the outside at the same time.

#347

I agree completely.
No long term thoughts yet. Just that the combination I did so far let to recon and/or has yielded much.

It’s very easy to see subs effecting my reality- so when something distinct happens -either positive or negative I note it. Again no long term verdict.

This is spot on. Part of it’s the paycheck and seeing the money grow, part of it’s competition. I want to be the absolute best. When I won the month I had this attitude of crushing everyone else and being leagues above them. Then I made that wrong. But I think I could bring some of it back lol. I hate not being number one- I was fine with it as a relative beginner but now I want that as often as possible.

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#348

I also get frustrated seeing what I perceive as luck of other reps with lead quality. They are able to cash in on this 1M income leads that write monthly paychecks for them and it’s totally random. But some leads keep getting them over and over again and there total lay ups for any one who is half decent. I honestly feel entitled-running the stack I run and the performance record I have -I don’t know why I’m not getting more of those leads either practically or in manifestation. I get about 1 a month. I need to be doing at least two. One rep just got 3 in one week. I focus on what I can but in my mind a stack that manifests closes with those 35-70K single sale leads would be key. I had one last week so there not off my radar. But definitely want more of them.

#349

Some interesting things happenings.
What I am noticing is everyone is succeeding around me at an insane level beyond there normal capacity. I feel all my stuff coming up about this
I am doing ok, nothing crazy, but solid. Not sure if recon or coincidence. I would like to be succeeding at that level. So maybe that is coming, as I come to terms with not resisting it as a possibility.

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#350

Also noticing where I don’t own my own confidence and capacity, and am stuck in a loop of proving something to myself . Lots of interesting revelations and inner shifts.

There is a quality to NR of waiting for and letting things happen while being productive. As opposed to Khan or True Sell or Emperor which has this- massive intentionality in making something happen.

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