So far I like elements of it @Niles
The resistance to outbound or calling I first thought was not relevant to me
however, I noticed part of me is resisting speaking to people.
Avoiding rejection response. Almost resisting sales.
I’m also protecting people out of concern for the efficacy of their choice on subtle levels
Not sure if I’m tired of not doing well, or this kind of sale or just need a break with all the other stresses going on.
I’ve torn between looking at my own performance, my manifestation, and/ or just lead quality.
I did break through slight and did about $10K back to back Friday morning-so my two smallest weeks in QUITE a while.
BUT that’s movement and things are rolling again
I do feel a level of emotional challenge I have not experienced in a while, and getting hyped up to feel things will turn around and it not is almost making things worse. I’ve gone back to detachment, and dual processes-relational but eye on the ball
I’m letting go of this impacting my stress and life to the degree it has.
I’ve also sat in the inquiry if this was happening for me, not to me, what it would it be about and learned
- Success and achievement are really important to me. My life needs to be oriented around seeing this meaningful progress, but it can be in different areas
- I have work to do loving myself, and living my life that needs to be distinct from my achievement- not succeeding should not be tied to my unhappiness in life. I feel/fear I’m sliding back into some ‘loser’ I used to be when not doing well. And truth is that ground is crossed, and its not possible to go back
- There are way bigger things I want and care about than just my sales success. While I do love obsessing and focusing on specific goals with positive yield, it is time to create a bigger vision for my life, and incorporate more of what matters in my day to day enjoyment and building towards the future
- I want to fully stand behind whatever I am standing for…sales or otherwise
Anway processing all this and getting back to a performance on the rainmaker journal
goals for this week
turn out 100K in sales
Set the stage for a highly successful first lose of 20 million in January at the Fund
Re-orient my life to include as musts the other things that matter to me
working out
my skill development in finance and investing
Some kind of Spiritual practice