I never quite understood how powerful Eventide truly is.
I did not expect to disappear from the forum for two whole weeks. Also when I try to put together in words some kind of update my mind is quite stubborn. Obnoxiously so. It simply does not want me to share and I have to weigh every sentence.
But given that today May 5th is a Scorpio Full Moon and also a Penumbral Lunar Eclipse, I felt a short nod to the celestial powers were in place. After all, Pluto is the ruler of the underworld, and Scorpio the sign of death, rebirth, and transformation. And in some casesā¦ sudden catastrophic self-transformation.
Comparing the transits and placements in my chart for this month and this lunar ecplise in particular turned out to beā¦ very interesting. Especially so as a Scorpio Ascendant. There will be turbulence, no doubt. But then again, I was obviously asking for it. But hell, thereās a mercury retrograde as well. 
But I find todayās lunar eclipse especially intriguing, as it relates to the 2022 November 8th Total Lunar Eclipse, six months ago. A Blood Moon. And I just realized somethingā¦
November 7th Emperor Black was released. And November 10th I got started with it, and it changed everything for me. Especially so ss it enabled me to accept and start to integrate the darker aspects of myself. That is, my Scorpio Ascendant, with all its spiritual aspects. Death and rebirth. Transformation. And more. Much moreā¦
One month after that Blood Moon, I had this particularly profound dream on December 9th. Also a Full Moon, and just a few days before my birthday:
Dream Recall: Descent and Ascent to and from the Underworld
It was a full moon last night so my sleep was brief and restless. But I did have some dreams that I remember, and one in particular struck me.
First of all, before I fell asleep I had hypnagogia with a Mindās Eye sort of vividness, which felt amazing. It felt like I was watching something from a sci-fi movieā¦ a screen of information showing, passing, being processed. Intricate, interlinked, and jacked into my mind. As I watched the multi-layered data-stream it felt as if I was downloading ātorrentsā of information dumps. Bombarded by information, but not in the least uncomfortable.
I was happy about this experience, and even more so that I was able to re-focus on the hypnagogia, and it kept the same crisp vividness and clarity to it. like I could touch it with my inner eye. This made me incredibly excited. It is a huge leap for me to observe my hypnagogia by conscious choice, as this is a crucial step for me in learning to have lucid dreams.
So, the dream. I recall that it was more a sensation than a dream. It was in a ānowhereā devoid of any dreamscape or figures. I had this sensation of descent, and I felt in in my body, but also on a deeper level. The journey and ādescentā only lasted for 5-10 seconds and was really gentle. After those few seconds I switched and started to ascend back up again, and then it hit me.
āOh, did I just descend into the underworld?ā
And even though being such a quick episode and despite the seemingly slow descent, it really felt as if I went through the veil. Albeit not all the way to the deeper levels of the underworld, sure. But still, I passed through. At leastā¦ I want to believe thatā¦ I donāt know. But my intuition tells me so. And even though I am not sure I will still be open to the idea. The ascent was gentle as well, but lasted a little bit longer. It felt like 15-20 seconds instead. Afterward I was struck with deep amazement.
Is this thanks to the blooming of Alchemist together with Mindās Eye and Quantum Limitless, during the thin veil of a December Full Moon?
Oh, and itās been so cold that there has been a magnificent Lunar Halo for two days now, and Iāve stopped several times to gaze upon it in pure awe. Truly wondrous and mysterious.
I find this profound for several reasons, and I have a feeling I am being told to run Emperor Black again - and to commit some time to some spiritual introspection this weekend.
Itās more than that, though. But I canāt quite put the words to it, just yet. But all will be revealed, especially with todayās particular eclipse.
Regarding the custom, well. It works, just as intended. Probably more than I am currently aware of.
And althought it may not appear so on the surface (or here) I am currently making some big internal shifts. Iāll elaborate more on that soon enough, but itās a similar feeling that I had with Dragon Reborn.
I am glad I included RoM in this one. The introspection and self-awareness it brings is invaluable.
Also, as expected, the act itself of purchasing this custom released in me a number of limiting beliefs. I am even now planning out the next phase.
