I hear you.
Many questions don’t actually have one right answer. So many trade-off’s in life, aren’t there?
We try to make the best of our situations. And keep making it better.

The North Node and Chiron are pretty important when it comes to the overall trajectory and evolutionary potential of one’s life.
There’s so much information in the natal chart. The human mind and human personality are very complex.
With astrology, we start out from simple cartoon-like generalizations, and then we gradually add nuance and detail.
I also like your Venus placement. You love to communicate about higher truths and principles. And not only do you love it, but you are beloved for it. In other words, when you share and express your experiences, ideas, and even excitement about higher truths, higher learning, philosophy, wisdom, and so on, people will often feel a kind of instinctual love and fondness of you. It’s easy for them to receive you in this way. Gemini in the 9th House is a natural teacher and an engaging, exciting speaker of wisdom.
You mentioned an interest in the 4th House. From what we can see here, you have one placement there. This is Neptune, the planet of Dreams, Fantasy, Mysticism, and Spirituality. As an interesting balance and combination, the energy of that planet is expressed through the very hard-nosed, effective, and practical energy of Capricorn. This means that you probably have the capacity to work very hard at your private spiritual, fantasy, and imagination work and interests. You can probably get a lot done when it comes to personal, inner work practiced in solitude. And this may be a cherished part of your personal life and personal identity.
But it’s also important to note that since Cancer is the 4th sign of the Zodiac, it also corresponds to the 4th House. Therefore your 4 Cancer placements will also resonate with and strengthen the 4th House domain of your life (i.e., privacy, family, the personal, the inner life, and so on).
Being strong, assertive, or even pushy in the context of intimate partnerships comes easily to you. This is actually a good thing for you. It strengthens your sense of hope and opportunity and possibility. You may have found that good fortune or opportunities have come as a result of you being assertive and courageous in intimate partnerships.
There’s more too, of course. But that’s just to get the ball rolling.
So why the interest in this area right now?