Astonishing results

[Sebastian_Po]

so the Sage immortal induced nightmare actually is a realization in disguise…after I pondered upon it and take out the lesson ，that lesson is actually growing itself…

for the past few days，when I write my offline journal，it keeps flashing back to my head and cross referencing with the things that I am currently contemplating…it sticks with me and somehow，there is a part keeps telling that this is important for my self discovery journey…

I believe if I add Sage Immortal to my current stack for one month …there will be more to come…it will be far more beneficial than just healing titles…so，on Monday…I will add it to my stack…

another thing ，since I used the official recommended listening pattern…I felt something unique about how the subs influence me…I could see the small things that ensures me the subs are working fine…and I could feel there is something beneath the conscious mind trying to surface up…but yet to come…it is almost like a hunch indicating something about to happen…hm，interesting things are coming my way…

[Sebastian_Po]

I have been using Sage immortal for two weeks now…the biggest change is that I quit smoking…
after fifteen years of indulgence and multiple failed attempts…I finally quit it once and for all…
it is disgusting to realise that for all these years，I had been poisoning myself only because…deep down，I hated myself for not being “good enough”…I kept punishing myself for not living up to the ridiculous standards I had picked up subconsciously from the external sources…

I was ashamed of being who I was…

with no one to count on and lack of guidances…

somehow，I picked up a self destructive belief…“not perfect，not deserve to live/love/succeed”…

I am dumbfounded by how devastating that younger version of me used to be…to form a belief like that ？

you can just simply blame it on the society or commercialism…but.they are just reinforcing the existent conditions…

I guess the better question will be what could I do about it ？

Sage Immortal helps me to see through and let go of the old identity which was based on other people’s opinions and expectation…

an identity even if it based on positive comments and expectations could still be potentially harmful to one‘s self discovery /development…cuz that identity will create a clouded vision blocking them from seeing the real subjects that have to be deal with…

for two days，I have been re-evaluating my past experiences/personae…mainly going through those moments that I had been praised and put on the pedestal as a role model …those moments are soothing to the ego but not beneficial to the real self…at least not in a long haul…

for two days，I felt really weak…like I was losing ground …or something could never be as certain as before…I even felt like my charisma disappeared……

now，I am getting better…something new is building …mentally，I feel it is coming…

[Sebastian_Po]

today is subliminal off day…as usual，things are popping up…one concept that piqued my interest ——the state of “嫉羡”
I dont know if there is a correct word for that in English…I will try to explain it…

“嫉”means “jealousy”…“羡”means “envy” …but the combination of two is something much more devastating and negative…an emotional and mental state mixing with “Hatred ”，“jealousy”，“envy” and “aggression”…and this state of mind will usually lead to physical /emotional/mental abuses or attacks…towards some one else or oneself…

I take a closer look at it…it is quite common that people get into this state and operate on it without realize it…I ，myself ，have once been the victim and also the abuser…

so ，what is the cause of it ？

at first ，I thought it was a product of “low self esteem”，“scarcity mentality”，“imposter syndrome” and “narcissism”…a mixture of the above causing the believer to view the world and others from a really rigid and narrow perspective…which is polarizing and twisting…
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this mentality creates a tremendous amount of anxiety in the believers ，cuz they have to constantly strike for the goals others set for them…they have to walk on the eggshell…

overtime，the frustration ，stress ，sacrifices and mental energy/investments will build up to a point where there is no coming back…cuz the sunk cost is so high that it is really hard for one to give up or see it the other way around without getting into a terrible cognitive dissonance…

gradually…the believer start to convince themselves …their way is the only right way and honorable way…anything else that reflects they have done a poor jobs will be damned…even though，their way wasn’t really their way…they invested，therefore they believe in it…

.it is bugging me…this emotional/mental state seems to create a endless vicious game…constantly sucking people in and forcing them to play it… …there is no way out once you get sucked in it and believe this is what defines you…it is self sustaining and long lasting…

then ，I realised an ancient Chinese philosophy ——“慎”，which means “be aware”，“be mindful”…

basically the preaching was that…one should keep their head down and concentrate on the self developing…

do not brag…because that will cause unwanted attention and jealousy…people might attack you…if you have something they dont have…keep it to yourself…that is “慎言”，which means be aware /be mindful of word.

do not stand out，because that will get you a shot in the head…those in power would love to make an example out of you…hold back for a while，let other be the first one…that is “慎行”which means be aware/be mindful of action…

do not draw conclusion，because that will close your mind ，let other people express their opinions …that will narrow their perception of the real subjects…let whatever thoughts you have sink in for a while……that is “慎思” which means be aware/be mindful of thought…

restrict yourself from operating on a superficial and hypocritical position…because that is weak and untrustworthy …when people find out what you are hiding…it will repel them …have an integrity whether there is an external surveillance or not…that is “慎独” which means be aware /be mindful of solitude…

I think ，a person who could incorporate this philosophy into his daily life will greatly avoid the possibility of getting sucked into that “嫉羡”mentality…cuz，with the attitude of 慎，one will deeply and carefully examine one‘s own output，from inside to outside…

let’s see what else might come to my mind…

[RVconsultant]

Wow! This subliminal is giving you many insights and instrospections! Thank you for posting!

[Sebastian_Po]

few days ago，I tested Alchemist st 1 ，Khan st1 and Sage immortal ultima…at first ，I just felt like there was a great mount of sexual energy surging in a smoothing and controlled way…didn’t see anything else…then I went on a small washout…yesterday，I resumed my regular stack…and the effects from the previous stack showed up…

I started to read a book “the infinite potential ”from Neville Goddard…I instantly felt drawn into the words…I was in between of the state of totally understanding and vaguely sensing something deep within lurking on the borderline of consciousness and subconsciousness…

My NLP teacher once told me that this is the altered state where the true understanding begins to develop…why？ cuz，human mind are so lazy and constantly searches for certainty…once you think/decide you understand something completely…you close your mind to a wide range of possibilities …you filter out those things that do not fit the internal models……but ，when you in the state that I mentioned above…your mind actually is in a spot which is really easy to influence …cuz，it is not quite get it …it needs more informations…

I can see that…the subs are actually shifting me to a better mental state to assimilate…it is quite impressive …cuz，unlike there previous experience with QLQ ，which also helps me get into a mentally pleasant state to learn…Sage Immortal Ultima and Alchemist …it is shifting me to a trancelike state ，which I love it so much…and it is also helping me incorporate the lessons I learn from the books into my daily life…

since yesterday，I notice that …there is a inner awareness monitoring/guiding my inner voice and state…whenever I said something or do something that goes against the teaching of Neville‘s book…it corrects me and point out the possible right course of action or word choice…
this morning，right upon waking up，I noticed that my mind was thinking about the story of Virgin Mary，which I read it from the book yesterday…I am not a religious person…I am not particularly fond of christianity…but the way that Neville explains it makes it really easy for me to feel ，connect and understand it…I believe either SGU or Alchemist has helped me smooth things out a bit…

anyway，I think ，Alchemist and Sage immortal is a really great combo…on a long term，it will definitely yield incredible results…

[Sebastian_Po]

yesterday was a subliminal off- day…I ran one loop of So below Ultima just for the energy boosting…as a result，I felt pretty good…light hearted and stuff…I wrote for couple hours…listened to some informative program about manifestation and subconscious mind…it was all good until supper…

I was sitting at the dinner table，my dad was right next to me…all of sudden，I felt a sharp pain in my chest ，I felt suffocated…I managed to finish my dinner without showing too much outwardly…thinking that once I start my singing/vocal practices ，my state would change and I would be fine again…but that did not go the route I expected…so ，I took a power walk，drank a bottle of Gatorade…watched a TV show…tried to shift my state by practicing singing…nothing worked…then I tried to journal ，to analyze what was the cause of it…

at first，I thought，my dad was the energy vampire who sucked my energy…then，I realized that probably I was the one who initiated the process of energy matching…I lowered my own energy level so i could imitate my father and connect with the family energy system…just like many other things that I am doing subconsciously and energetically…it is hard to accept ，but it seems to be the case…

so ，I started to meditate…during my meditation session…I was visualizing my father and all those ancestors from my father‘s line connecting each others energetically…I was changing those stagnant energies I accidentally had borne from them and cleansing the remains…I finished up with a sentence “ we will connect through the energy of love，stagnant depressed energy or anything that has its negative nature will be transmuted and cleared by me …with me，all
of us could live happy after…and fulfill all our destiny” then I went to bed，shortly after，I fell asleep…

I didn’t have a dream all night ，I was in a semi- trance like state which I was the observer and experiencer at the same time…on the micro level，I was realising different parts of my body carrying/representing different energies from the family energy system…on the macro level，I knew that my whole body was at times representing/carrying different energies of the system…those sudden outburst of emotions are not from me but the ancestors…those unfulfilled desires and needs were never disappeared and carried on generation after generation…I now see them and feel them…

waking up with a mild headache and a realisation“I am gonna live a life that my ancestors and father dreamed about and never werent able to live…a happy and fulfilling one”

[NinjaFox]

I enjoyed you update, thank for the info on energizes will keep in mind for my spiritual journey

[Sebastian_Po]

something I have been wanting to share about Wanted but kept postponing …it happened last week…

I haven’t played video games for a year or two…last week ，all of sudden，I pulled out few PS4 games …the marvel spiderman，the uncharted collection and the Devil may cry…since I have not played it for so long…I was choppy and sloppy…I died repeatedly…in the past，situation like this will stir some emotional turmoils in my chest…but these time，nothing…I quite enjoyed playing the games…not caring winning or losing…just focusing on the process…and gradually…my picked up my mojo again…winning and having fun…it is funny though…when you dont care…you start to win…I like how the sub subtly improves my mentality at the background…

[Sebastian_Po]

today is the second day of my five days washout and my mood is lighter…I am guessing，different effects will show up soon…

I went to singing class today and I noticed that my attitude towards pushing through barriers and learning more challenging songs increases…I think there might be scriptings in Wanted that increases one‘s ambition and desires for excellence…something like furious ascent or natural winner ？anyway，it is helping to excel and I love it…

[Matrix]

What! I mean wow wanted has scripting for ambition? I am happy if there is something like this

[Matrix]

Do you know any official confirmation or reference that wanted might have the modules you mentioned

[Sebastian_Po]

well，I go through the salepage again…

“WANTED man always contains paradox in his being. He is not afraid to be truly human – he embraces his human nature, his imperfections, the mysteries and flaws of human existence while striving towards excellence every step of the way… his way.” this part seems to be a confirmation …striking the best according his own standard…self acceptance and self improvement…both are really powerful quality I love…

“Many of the most WANTED men in history were not perfect men – they were complex individuals filled with numerous feelings and authentic love towards experiences that shape humanity. They had that certain X factor, the unending layers of personality that draw you in and call you to explore. You will make use of all emotions that you have in such a way that makes you attractive and authentic – but not letting them overtake your being and instead pushing you towards becoming more and more powerful and evolved whilst retaining the intensely deep, attractive depth of being that mesmerizes others.” this part seems also paraphrasing my experiences in a more poetic way…

also，I remember the producer once said that Wanted has some Alpha scripts…if you are looking for alpha qualities ，wanted might not be your best option though…

[Matrix]

@Sebastian_Po

also，I remember the producer once said that Wanted has some Alpha scripts…if you are looking for alpha qualities ，wanted might not be your best option though…

Thank you for your explanation. No no wanted is wonderful. I just didn’t expect to help in something doing challenging like you said you did in your music class . I am aware this title is for attracting others with your mysterious personality and physical shifting is one its main aspect

[Sebastian_Po]

yeah，I didn’t expect it too…actually…it is more than that…I mentioned how amazing it is on
multiple posts…it also helps with physical training ，which increases my stamina and help me sustain my posture when I plank…it helps me let go of the attachment of winning when I play video game ，instead I could just enjoy it …I am guessing there will be more to come…now it is just the beginning of the second month that I run it…who knows…

[Matrix]

Yes. The sales page description is not enough. It does more than that

[TheBoxingScientist]

Its what some would call hypergamy which has existed for hundreds of years in both western europe and the USA.

I know two girls who were dating black guys. Three years later they broke up with the guys one settled down with an airline pilot another with a doctor.

This is an example of hypergamy at work. Women always marry or settle down with a man who is higher status then them.

Another woman i know was seeing a fitness instructor (my friend) she broke up with him and settled down with an investment banker.

[Sebastian_Po]

small summary for the month：

early this month，I had been feeling empty and dissatisfied for a few days…it felt like something really important missing…I was uneasy ，restless and annoyed…so ，I took a washout…then，I saw the Saint‘s post …the one with the movie line “there is no spoon” …somehow it hits me…hard and deep，just the way I need it…it somehow reminds me of something deep within…it is not a intellectually understanding or some sorts
…but more of a emotional remembering…it brought back a state that I had long forgotten…

the line “there is no spoon” actually became an anchor to me…whenever I find myself caught up in some emotional turmoils…simply repeat that magic line could create an empty space between me and the event/person/perception/emotion…I shift myself from the experiencer to the observer…I start to ask myself “where is the spoon？and what is the spoon？”soon I will follow up with the magic line “there is no spoon” I could literally see and feel those attachment，desperation，pain…bitterness …and any other negative emotion dissolving…I dont know why，but it works out pretty good for me…could be the occasional use of Rebirth Ultima ？not sure…

beside bringing up my spiritual side，stark seems to give me extra awareness and focus on others internal mental structure…like their belief systems…world views …self image and stuffs…I guess that is reasonable …another thing ，I start to notice that…from time to time ，my brain flashes the images of celebrities and movie/TV characters that I admire…then…I will start to shift my internal state…my outlook soon follows up…it feels like back in the day I was using the NLP modeling technique to shift my state…the only difference is…I am not doing it consciously…it almost feels like my subconscious mind is modeling those figures ？I guess it is the Raikov In Stark ？

anyway，it is fun to see all these differences and changes…now I am on washout…next month，I will try a new listening schedule…I will lower each titles to two loop a week…lets see what will happen

[Sebastian_Po]

today I had a singing class…my teacher said that you have been learning vocality for a long time…“yeah，more than a year now” “and you ‘ve been plateaued a while now”…I know where he is going…so，on the way home，I actually contemplated on it…I didn’t take a cab…instead，I walked…more than three hours…my feet hurt，my throat dried，my brain fogged，but I figured it out the problem…
the whole time ，my brain was assuming that I had to reach a certain point to be good at singing…especially hitting the high notes… more than one year…two year probably，but the thing is that kind of preconceived notion is actually limiting my self…I was somehow still looking for an external “spoon”to validate myself …in fact，my physical conditions，in terms of muscle coordination，breath control and vocal projection ability etc ，is reaching and surpassing the medium level standard…I am good enough ，I just need to give myself permission to be good … right now…

when I arrived home，I was exhausted but the knot in my brain was loosened too…I didnt wait and start to sing the song my teacher assigned…guess what ？I hit the high note （B4）using chest dominant mixed voice…and the even higher one （C#5）…

it is a new beginning for sure，I know the lesson I learned here could also be used in other areas of my life…let‘s see what else I could get…

[RVconsultant]

Are you feeling better?

[Sebastian_Po]

sure…I feel good…