Same here am running minds eye terminus 2, been on it for 3 week now, had dreams that happen once i woke up it a bit weird to see it happen lol
Nice good to see you taking action keep it up
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three things worth to mention
1:this week I notice my voice become more pleasant…when I sing…my voice has more depth and resonance …and it is like something happens over night…it seems I am making progress in my music adventure slowly…not as much improving as I expected…nevertheless…I am going somewhere…
2:it seems somehow I developed a deep appreciation for poetry …to be more specific…I become more sensitive to words choice and the beauty of it …I was already sensitive to words since I was at a young age…now the sensitivity seems to develop to a next level…it is much more easier for me to feel the emotional color of words…I could find myself having a euphoric feeling when I read something with beautiful word choice…and I could get really mad when the article is garbage…I guess this is the two poles of the spectrum …
3:there will be two novel competitions coming up.next year…I decided to give it a try…
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recently，I bought a electronic organ…and I learnt to play two kid‘s songs with no more than fifteen minutes…well…for some musical genius that might be slow…but I consider it something magnificent and this is something I couldn’t believe before my subliminal journey…I was really smart but never had that acute musicality…guess over time…something more interesting will come up…
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Sounds like the work of ultimate artist, but also you have me thinking about the module mystery honestly lol
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the facial morphing or physicality shifter sexiness module in my custom might have started to show effects…I noticed my jawline and lips are becoming different…when I look in the mirror…it seems something is happening …I could not pinpoint exactly…
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few internal changes I just noticed today
a sense of pride derives from within without doubts and arrogance…it is calm and soothing…I just noticed that on the dinner table during supper…I was eating then suddenly I realised that…I cut off all of my so call friends in my hometown…I dont feel anything about them…bad or good…I just feel natural…I just think…I am going somewhere and they are not on the ride …their lost…too bad for them…cant witness my glory …and this sense of pride is so…chill…nonchalant…not in the egoistic way …just grounded
social coolness…again I just realised that…I feel a lot more comfortable in social setting…I dont feel the need to talk or the other way around…I could be at ease…I could not even remember when was the last time I felt those draining feeling in the social setting…
confidence in my ability to learn…to tell the truth…my singing adventure isnt smooth…the progress is back and forth…but I somehow just have this blind faith trusting myself could come out shiny…for whatever reason…I just believe in my internal faculty … I feel assured …
relentless motivation to practice singing…now …I dedicate 1～2hours to practice every single day…not miss a beat…this is completely new to me…for all my life…29 years…I have never had the resilience and perseverance to stick to something for long period of time…I guess QLQ is working good on me…
the best part is these all feel so natural to me like I have always been this way…when I tried to recall the last time I wasn’t like that…I could not even find any memories …unless I think really hard…and those time feel like another life for me…it is like looking through a glass to a parallel reality …so strange …
anyway…I think I am onto something nice and interesting …
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last day of this year…I decided to make a listening plan for next year…for easy illustration and reference …I am gonna name my custom the Artist Sebastian（AS）…
next year…I will continue the five day on two day off schedule…
day 1，3，5 I will run AS x2 ，QLQ st 4 x2 ，SU x1，LU1x1 and DR x2—x3 .…
day 2 ，4 .UAQ x2 ，QLQ x2 ，SU x1 ，BLU x1 and DR x2—x3…
I tested …it seems DR really expand my process limit…I am doing OK with that amount of input…
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Ok well go after it will check back in to see how your doing
been experimented with stark ultima a bit…the results seems to be unstable…at first…I paired with BLU it gave me a boost in terms of motivation and energy…also I felt hyped…and could not fall asleep at night…and when I used it along side PSITU…it gave me the extra light hearted playful attitude …overall pretty good and positive experience…then I used it with LU…I didn’t see any outstanding reaction from people…nothing noticeable like others reported…later I used it again…I didn’t see any results came from SU whereas I could see results every time I use BLU……so I decided to pull it out from my stack for now…
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few things worth mention
1:AS seems making me more aware of power dynamic…when those situations occur，I would get annoyed by them…it feels like offended that people believe those stupid shit would work on me…probably it is just reconciliation…will get through it…
2:a constructor came to my home to fixing the roof leaking problem and he seems to really like me…at least like me enough to introduce his daughter to me…and I added her on social media…we chatted and I realised she is not my type…so…I decided to cut her off from my life…I am surprised that my boundaries become much stronger and I hold a very high standard of myself…I just believe I deserve better…thanks to DR…I feel much better and secured…
3:I became much more motivated …I am starting to get shit done more frequently…and I feel like something is nagging me if I dont do the things I suppose to do…I feel like I am rising to something bigger and greater…
4: UAQ seems working really well…my singing teacher told me I improved a lot …I am so glad that I included it in my stack…
5:I guess my stack is too heavy…I barely see the effects of Ultima…so I decided to pull it out my regular listening schedule…but occasional experiment might continue…especially the love bomb is out…I decided to test it tomorrow…I will run it 1 loop and probably with 1 loop PSITU or LU before I go to my cousin house…she told me that she invited a hot girl and intended to hook me up with that girl…we will see…
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didn’t go to my cousin‘s place…but I ran Love Bomb and LU2 anyway…I noticed that when I listened to LU2 my body vibrating and my hands becoming warmer like surges of energy coming out…I felt concentrated …motivated and present.and the love bomb seems doing the opposite…my hands became colder and soothing energy emitting from them…I felt lighthearted…passionate and at ease…next time，I will make sure I ran them back to back before going out…
another thing I want to mention is that…my perception of what happened to me changed…it feels like an empty space has been put between me and those events…some of them are not that pleasant and some are neutral…I guess this is DR working on me…
something comes to me …I just realised when I sing in front of people …I will perform much better…and intuitively sing the song the way that my singing teacher told me…and when I practice myself the state that I am in it is totally different…and this is happening again and again…I guess this is the synergetic effects of Stark and ultimate artist…anyway…I like it…let‘s see what comes next…
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I noticed this while I was on Stark. I like to sing, and my singing voice was better. I’m on EQ now so I sound like Lurch from Adams family.
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I felt a weird discrepancy on my rest day…now that I resume my stack…I feel like this is the way I am …it is almost like my subconscious is getting used to the new identity…and alienating the old self…i think I am onto something…
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I just scroll through a thread and …I realised that…the emperor script in stark seems taking place right now…I become less interested in chasing women and I qualify them a lot …and usually with one talk or two I will have a hunch whether they are right fit for me…and the alone wolf vibe is strong…I put my personal goals before women and have no interest to settle down for any woman…and I could totally feel at ease and happy being alone…no boredom whatsoever…I feel like DR is accelerating other titles…these changes are much more noticeable since I added it in the stack…also…I noticed recently many people tried to introduce girls to me…could be the compound effects of DR and AS ？I dunno…we will see…
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I am loving DR…last time I felt that positive and good was PS…and QLQ but the down side was …on PS…I became too nonchalant and not as motivated as now…QLQ did give me the cognitive enhancements but only the intellectual improvements and things related to that areas…DR works on more…I could feel my self esteem is higher…negative self criticized thoughts dismissing quickly…even the headache sometimes I had would dissipate soon…and it helps with other titles too…
since I pull out the Ultima titles…I feel alright and OK…but I really miss the quick witty response from BLU…that was on another level…I guess I will add it back
once I am acclimated to the stack…
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something beautiful hits me and I been pondering on it a bit …it is too shameful to let it go that easily…so，I decided to make a scene out of it…I am gonna use it as a plot line in the novel I am writing right now…thanks to @Malkuth
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so today I went to the singing class…before that I ran one loop love bomb and one loop DR St 1 right after that…it seems my teacher and the girl who works there a bit warmer and nicer…usually when I sing，my teacher will put his hands on my body briefly to remind me either relax that part of body or strengthen that part…not in a sexually way ，of course…but today…when he did that…I felt like…the way he touched me was a bit gay…well，I hope it is not what I think…I might test Love Bomb or PSITU on Thursday again…we will see…
it seems that the Love Bomb‘s effect lasts longer than I expected…I also registered an online singing class…today we had a midterm test…classmates seemed to be nicer to me than before and had been cracking jokes with me…hm……I will test love bomb few times more to see what is going on…
another thing，I noticed a recurring pattern with subliminal blooming…I am now on a five day on two day off schedule…usually the first day I rest will have some mild reconciliation…like headache and procrastination…nothing major I could break through it with a bit will power…and the following day will be blooming day…I could see significant improvements in the areas I am working on…both novel and singing…occasionally，the blooming day I will become tired or unmotivated…still nothing major easily break through …the difference is the first day even I break through…I dont see that much improvements…every once in a while I will have a washout week…and this pattern would repeat itself in the first part…meaning 1st day recon 2nd bloom 3rd recon 4th bloom…but the 5th and 6th day tend to normalize everything …I dont feel too strongly about the sub effect but the manifestation process seems to speed up…things started to happen outside usually it will be meeting new people or others try to introduce girls to me…and the 7th day I usually get a strong urge to resume the playlist…like craving for something really delicious…I never do washout more than a week so I dont know what might happen after that…perhaps，I will experiment it later…let‘s see…
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today…I had a singing class…and I ran PSITU and DR back to back before I got there…the effect didn’t kick in until I am on my way back…my mom was driving me back home…and I became really chatty…My mom got annoyed…yeah…my mom seems to have difficulty to grasp on my humor whereas my sister seems to dig it very much…anyway…PSITU is giving me a fun ride…at first…I was a bit tired…I had to get myself excited first to provoke the subconscious mind to bring out those qualities in the script…now…I am feeling pretty at ease…and light buzz…next time…I will try Love Bomb again…
edit：I forgot to mention that…my singing teacher told me that I have a negative self induced belief about my singing ability …this is why my performance vary from time to time…now that I think about this…that is true…interesting insight…
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