I’m SO EXCITED for this title
I have been requesting two stage multi’s for a while. It’s HERE
Since there’s no issue with this, I’ll run them as a stack for a little while.
Summertime seems like the best compliment but I don’t want to do overdo it either
I’m running it with Summertime as well. Paragon Sleep once a week.
So you’re doing 3 or 4?
I was thinking of throwing in Stage 2 once a week with my Stabilizer, Dream Boy and QL stack
Started with just 30 seconds each of stage 1 and 2 (Monday)
I’m excited because this is actually the stack that makes the most sense to use to push myself to higher listening times slowly but surely.
I normally just stay at 30-90s on titles, but since this is a bit of everything, using this as a way to build my tolerance past 3 mins seems awesome
Second listening day was Wednesday, added in 30s of summertime, so that’s 30s of all three subs. Absolutely ZERO recon on Tuesday, so obvs I tolerated 30s of ST1/2 well.
Tuesday was my flight, and Monday after my loops I packed and prepared for it, and I could really feel everything in stabilizer to a T. I did intensive journaling on every part of stabilizer during my flight to have a full life assessment to start this journey. I was able to think in terms of priorities better than ever before. My mind reorganized itself into something much more peaceful and simple and productive (while at ease) than I ever thought possible.
And I was comfortably social on the plane, more than usual. The “performance” that comes with having a “great” conversation definitely dropped, and I wasn’t forcing any socializing or “trying” to connect with anyone, but the conversations were momentary pleasant moments of connection way deeper than small talk, yet didn’t feel required to turn into a permanent connection or intense conversation. Just a moment of great quick conversation that brightened both of our day, 4 or 5 times just on Tuesday.
Note that I edited Week 1 and will continue to make (and then edit with updates) 1 post per week, rather than make a new post every single time I post.
Recon post from another thread. Adding in 30s of summmertme hit hard and hurts
Summertime recon passed and turned into true joy, social leadership, and the ability to “not need to read social dynamics because of such a sense of joy and ease” like it says in the copy, comparing it to true social.
Pickleball with millionaires out of nowhere, laughing, making best friends with guys I just met, that was a truly joyful weekend…
Monday: 30s of my GLM/Essence-of-Executive-Bulletproof (anti-avoidance) and 30s of ASC1
I loved summertime, and proved to myself that the recon is manageable. But I choose GLM over Summertime right now given Saint’s post that the origin scripting for the stabilizer was GLM. GLM stabilizes life internally, ASC1 stabilizes practically/externally.
And I think my nervous system needs more gentle regulation before attempting summertime/lbfh
The fact that I had a name embed with the essence module meant to help with avoidance, perfectionism, and hesitation, that was the icing on the cake.
And just from assessing my ultimate needs in my career… I need the inner stillness to be able to think at the level I want to think at and perform at the level I want to perform at. I need the disciplined drive and action. I need the masculinity boost. I need the internalized drive that comes entirely from within.
GLM also makes me feel like I have stillness and spirituality inside of me every moment, and removes the duality of having to choose between grinding and deepened self-awareness.
I also saw hints in GLM that made me think summertime had elements from GLM as well. “Rising light” and “Stoic Joy” and something about the feeling of summer was directly mentioned in the copy.
Friday - 60s ST1 + 8s Summertime
Ultimately summertime just feels like the better sub to run when I’m doing 6 weeks backpacking in Latin America, and can hopefully help me bring joy to the little things in stabilizer (Spectacular Mundane Moments) or whatever it’s called
Sunday night: 7s Summertime, 5s WDB.
Monday Morning: 60s ST1
went on a random adventure with the most gorgeous girl I’ve ever spent time with, we met, and an hour later decided to take an hour moped ride to a volcano crater. immediately snuck in these microloops after I realized we were vibing. Good idea? Crutch? Anxiety response? Hard to say.
There’s actually a lot of results around self-assessment coming from ST1. The ability to identify emotions in the moment, the ability to make weighted decisions not impulsive decisions. The ability to delay decisions and the commitment to only make decisions from certainty/strength.
It’s getting easier to identify negative emotions AS negative emotions, not as impulses needing to be solved logically. I’m getting more in tune with my overall baseline self, and as a result, if a negative emotion spike happens, I wait for it to resolve, rather than redefining my identity/goals/beliefs from that state.
the idea of separation from and awareness of recon as separate, rather than reduction of recon, seems profound.
For example last night after the date I was ruminating. I didn’t catch it then because I was drunk, but it continued when I woke up, and my sober mind immediately recognized the patterns I was in.
I thought to myself “man did I f that up? Was that a good date? Do u think she regretted inviting a stranger to the volcano halfway?”
(Fast forward to the truth: She didn’t)
And then i made it personal, maybe I was this-that-or-the-other-thing.
So once it’s personal (shame/inferiority) my mind immediately jumps to subliminals. (Fast racing and useless thoughts like:)
“Man i need to run khan, or ROTNW, oh but WDB is so good too, but I’m already authentic I just can’t pulll the trigger, so maybe I’ll make a name embed WDB/ROTNW, but Khan would be good for career, shit why do I stack switch so much, etc.”
But then for the first time, I caught myself. Realized I was spiraling. Realized that investigating some of my attachment wounds is a good thing but diving into the proverbial deep end every time I meet someone is not. Realized that improvement is good but improving every flaw that I have all at once is not a good thing. One at a time, tolerate the ones you’re not all-in on fixing this exact moment.
What’s that prayer? The courage to change what you can and the strength to accept what you can’t? Yeah… that’s good advice (for me to tell myself) for handling recon and not switching subs so often.
Monday night - 90s of ROTNW - I can quickly feel that WDB is NOT the vibe i’m going for here… I needed to listen to ROTNW to hopefully overpower WDB. But also, I want fun frivolous experiences while travelling, not feeling like every woman I talk to is someone I have weeks and weeks to open up to about my life. It’s a 24-48 hour window before one of us leaves the city, every time lol
The listening schedule I’ve taken on has been extremely helpful.
TLDR: MWF + Weekly Assessment
I’m taking the regular listening instructions and applying them weekly instead of daily.
So, instead of assessing for recon on each rest day, and increasing/decreasing from there, I’m assessing the results of the overall week + my processing load on the weekend, since I have a MWF schedule.
If the week had a high flow factor, the rest days were low recon, and I feel like there’s no heavy processing done on the 2-day rest, I’ll increase the listening schedule.
But a high flow factor is hard to achieve, so I’m not jumping to increase rapidly.
The biggest benefits are that I stack switch less because I committed to a specific title/time for a whole week. And the other benefit is that I never really have to decrease my listening exposure because this is such a gradual increase. Only summertime was reduced from 30 to 7 seconds, and I plan on running summertime at 7s until I feel a high flow factor with it, not just until I stop being in recon hell