Thank you to those that have replied.
I am grateful, im just lacking the motivation to come on and journal and trying to when i can as well as eventually reply but the stresses of the day also take their toll on me.
I promise I will reply to you and to all those before you eventually.
In the meantime im continuing to listen to the sub in the hope that it works for me over time to the point where I can see it for myself and not simply confuse it with my normal daily behaviour that I refrain from giving to the sub as ive done that for years to subs from other companies that failed me.
But thats for another day ill get on now and do my journal lol
Day 69 of 90 - 1 loop ( Sunday - 24 July 2022) - 3rd Cycle started - Day 15 of 21
Day 70 of 90 - no loop ( Monday - 25 July 2022) - 3rd Cycle started - Day 16 of 21
Day 71 of 90 - 1 loop ( Tuesday - 26 July 2022) - 3rd Cycle started - Day 17 of 21
Day 72 of 90 - no loop ( Wednesday - 27 July 2022) - 3rd Cycle started - Day 18 of 21
1 - I was in the garage clearing mess and went to the bins to throw the trash from there. There was a wasp hovering that shocked me. I havent been this scared in a while. The hairs on the back of my head, the feeling of terror from there and the back of my ears and just all that area was as if I had zero confidence suddenly. Wasps, spiders yup they scare me but to this extent was shocking.
2 - I also saw a spider, a black unusual spider near the shower suddenly and though my terror was less than 1, it was still embarrassing to know none of these fears have been touched by the sub.
3 - Still easily irritated and short fused with family. I’m lacking patience with them. Im normally a super chilled guy with family but now im just fed up.
Im sure lacking sleep doesnt help.
4 - Im also speaking to the girl that ive mentioned briefly here and there but not much and we are close on the phone and the closer I get the more jealous im feeling of her with any guys she says she likes. Jealousy, neediness, so called ‘Beta Traits’ are what I have and this Alpha sub hasnt touched those either.
I’ll be reaching the end of this 3rd cycle soon and then will take my 5 days washout break and start on cycle 4.
I am happy to persist with this sub indefinitely for now as I have no reason to stop. After all its only 15mins every other day but eventually I hope it works for me.
Someone once wrote here some advice that why not listen to a sub and compare your effects to how you were BEFORE the sub. Thats exactly what I do here and what I did for years with the previous company’s subs I used.
I sought out where I felt I had change and where I was noticing change.
Do I feel I am changing nope not in the slightest as yet.
I will continue anyway.
Thank you again.
tbh no idea it could be. I feel its possible but cant say for sure. Like everyone I have good days and bad.