Anon's 2026 journal

Journals - Major Programs
#25

yep, decided to skip Monday listening session. Still dealing with conscious recon*

*I’m going to use a differentiations for my own recon, doesn’t mean it’s universal, it just works for me specifically:

Conscious recon: consciously dealing with issues/fears/traumas/whatever. That means consciously contemplating my values, goals, ways to achieve them, etc., working through issues with logic
Visceral recon: for me it’s mostly related to exhaustion of nervous system, I think. Just feeling negative and exhausted, and can’t focus, and can’t pinpoint the issue that is being reconciled

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#26

Integration. Take a look at this – it’s very important (the section on integration):

https://instructions.subliminalclub.com/#23-understanding-integration-the-critical-phase-of-transformation

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#27

thanks, just re-read it yesterday actually

Currently trying to develop some personal ways to aid integration because so far, the only things that have some effect are:

  • sleep
  • action taking
  • long walks (strangely, workouts don’t help with it. I guess workouts are too strenuous for an already exhausted nervous system in my case. I’ll be returning to Regeneration once I achieve my goals with current stack)
  • adding more rest days.

Currently experimenting with:

  • digital minimalism and boredom
  • image streaming
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#28

Best way is to take action toward the goals of your stack. That way, the results flow naturally in life and they integrate themselves. The things you listed are good methods as well.

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#29

I agree that it’s most important but for me there’s some sort of a delay between taking action and integrating the change

I’d say for me it doesn’t necessarily speed up processing itself or resolves recon in the moment. Action does re-affirm changes and improves results but the overall “feeling” of processing is there (though, there are exceptions. I’m not sure exactly why and how it works, but sometimes action does resolve recon for me, mostly doesn’t though)

When I take action (even if I know exactly what issue is being worked on and take the exact kind of action to solve it), I’m not feeling that recon is resolved immediately and that this heavy feeling is lifted. There’s still a chunk of processing going, and the most helpful thing for that is night sleep. In this case, action just provides more feedback/opens more pathways to manifest results, but doesn’t seem to affect the feeling of recon

walks are interesting though, during walk I feel amazing, recon reduces drastically, but when I go back home, recon is back lol

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#30

one more reason I’m taking it super slow with exposure is that one of the subs in my stack is the most future-oriented sub in the store lol

Tons of issues to work through, tons of systems to implement, tons of things to learn.

Due to the complexity of the goal and the timeframe of the subliminal, I think it’s going to be wise to stay at each exposure tier for much longer, because I think each exposure tier requires way more issues to be worked through compared to easier subs.

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#31

Interestingly enough, still no desire to listen. I wonder if I just encountered some big block and require more time for integration?

If the desire to listen doesn’t apper today, then so be it, taking an additional rest day. Maybe will even take this whole week off

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#32

saving this here, as that’s literally me :grinning:

(well, my stack*)

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#33

had my first listening session after this unplanned washout. 15s of ECC and RICH

Feeling processing and like my mental power is again mostly directed at that, rather than action and integration. Reduce duration?

At the same time, there’s a lot of conscious recon going on. Some hard questions are arising, and I need to face it and answer them, can’t just run away - it feels uncomfortable but necessary.

I remember this quote, and I think it’s even more applicable to ECC. At least, for me it is definitely the case

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#34

to expand on this recon a bit, ECC currently asks me “Why?”, rather than just helping achieving its objective

It also brings up a lot of trauma/negative feelings for me to process.

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#35

yesterday and today were extremely profound, I can see this huge blockage clearing

I feel like yesterday I actually had the most profound journaling session and was actually able to identify the issues

turns out the key was to not intellectualize the journal much, rather just literally turn off the mind and write lol

also I used my graphic tablet to do handwritten digital journal, I think it also contributed to this positive journaling experience. Typing just doesn’t seem to do the same trick somehow

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#36

This could also explain how going for walks resolves your recon. You may be one who processes emotions somatically, like myself. Can’t intellectualize the emotions, gotta release it through physical process. Grounding, eating a good meal, going for walks, clearing the mind.

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#37

hmm, I think you might be onto something… thank you, will have to experiment with it

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#38

stumbled upon this yesterday. I feel like it works well with ECC

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#39

I think I will do reduce duration to 10 sec for ECC because I notice a drop in energy for action taking at the moment. Gotta remember that this sub is very big lol

I did work through some blockages and gained a lot of clarity on what to do next, but still lacking the energy to actually start taking action.

Not like I’m not doing anything, I am quite productive, but I know I can do much more

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#40

ngl, it’s a hit or miss for me

Sometimes taking action doesn’t resolve recon, sometimes it does. But damn, do I love it when it does haha

That was the case today. Been having recon, with my usual symptoms - apathy. In the end, managed to force myself to do a bit of work and finish one of my small projects - basically just vibe coded an app that will simplify my life a little bit.

When I started work session, I realized that I pretty much finished it in previous work session and just needed to make a few tweaks and just start using it

Once I did, recon vanished.

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#41

When Action Feels Difficult:

Sometimes, especially during reconciliation or when old patterns are being reconciled, taking action feels impossible. In these moments:

  1. Make the action smaller: Can’t go to the gym? Do 5 pushups. Can’t write a business plan? Write one sentence about your idea. Can’t approach someone attractive? Just make eye contact and smile.
  2. Recognize resistance as a sign: When you feel strong resistance to an action that aligns with your goals, it often means that action would create significant breakthrough. The old identity fears being dissolved. This is when action matters most.
  3. Take action anyway, even tiny: The size matters less than the existence. One small action, taken despite resistance, can create more change than hours of perfect conditions with no resistance.
  4. Trust the process: Your subconscious, guided by the subliminal, can help identify actions that will serve you. When you get an intuitive hit to do something (reach out to someone, apply for something, try something new), trust it and act on it quickly before rational mind creates objections.

I think I just found my answer

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#42

Going to reduce ECC + RICH to 10s and keep KB at 15s. Also will move my listening session to evening

The reason is that I want to focus more on integration and I think additional processing is just spending some of my precious mental energy that could be directed to making actual progress. I’ll test 10s, if I still notice exposure affecting my productivity, I’ll decrease ECC to 5-7s (I think it’s the culprit, but who knows, maybe RICH will get decreased as well).

KB doesn’t seem to be negatively affecting me at 15s though

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#43

Also saving this as my future stack, tackles the most important areas for me. Really looking forward to run it once I achieve current goals:

image

and I also might rotate KB out for Emperor Black a couple of times:
image

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#44

That said, I think it’s the result of Emperor’s base in ECC. Been thinking a lot and trimming the “fat” from my life to achieve greater focus and motivation for actually important things

Thinking changes to more long term one, and I’m noticing being unusually calm. I was a victim to this hustle culture and was quite nervous about not having a great life right now, but it hit me today - I’ll be just 21 in a couple of weeks. My life barely started, what am I stressing about? It’s a very harmful thing - I can’t do anything immediately about this stress because success takes time and consistency. But also this stress is just draining. So why am I shooting myself in the foot?

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