Anon's 2026 journal

Journals - Major Programs
#41

When Action Feels Difficult:

Sometimes, especially during reconciliation or when old patterns are being reconciled, taking action feels impossible. In these moments:

  1. Make the action smaller: Can’t go to the gym? Do 5 pushups. Can’t write a business plan? Write one sentence about your idea. Can’t approach someone attractive? Just make eye contact and smile.
  2. Recognize resistance as a sign: When you feel strong resistance to an action that aligns with your goals, it often means that action would create significant breakthrough. The old identity fears being dissolved. This is when action matters most.
  3. Take action anyway, even tiny: The size matters less than the existence. One small action, taken despite resistance, can create more change than hours of perfect conditions with no resistance.
  4. Trust the process: Your subconscious, guided by the subliminal, can help identify actions that will serve you. When you get an intuitive hit to do something (reach out to someone, apply for something, try something new), trust it and act on it quickly before rational mind creates objections.

I think I just found my answer

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#42

Going to reduce ECC + RICH to 10s and keep KB at 15s. Also will move my listening session to evening

The reason is that I want to focus more on integration and I think additional processing is just spending some of my precious mental energy that could be directed to making actual progress. I’ll test 10s, if I still notice exposure affecting my productivity, I’ll decrease ECC to 5-7s (I think it’s the culprit, but who knows, maybe RICH will get decreased as well).

KB doesn’t seem to be negatively affecting me at 15s though

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#43

Also saving this as my future stack, tackles the most important areas for me. Really looking forward to run it once I achieve current goals:

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and I also might rotate KB out for Emperor Black a couple of times:
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#44

That said, I think it’s the result of Emperor’s base in ECC. Been thinking a lot and trimming the “fat” from my life to achieve greater focus and motivation for actually important things

Thinking changes to more long term one, and I’m noticing being unusually calm. I was a victim to this hustle culture and was quite nervous about not having a great life right now, but it hit me today - I’ll be just 21 in a couple of weeks. My life barely started, what am I stressing about? It’s a very harmful thing - I can’t do anything immediately about this stress because success takes time and consistency. But also this stress is just draining. So why am I shooting myself in the foot?

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#45

slight recon in the form of restlessness and desire to switch stack. Can’t focus on anything and do anything properly. Feels like I’m being pulled in two directions simultaneously, between old personality and new one.

Actually it’s the first time I’m able to recognize the root cause of recon so clearly.

Just doing my best anyway. Integrating what I can at the moment

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#46

man, the insights and synchronicities are insane!!!

Figured out the answers to lots of questions I had for some time, about how to move forward, be healthier, more productive, capable, etc. - was stuck for some time on it

And figured out new activity for myself to focus on, with great potential. And viola, got a call from a friend unexpectedly, we had a normal conversation and it turned out one of her acquaitances actually does the same activity that I was about to start focusing on (I didn’t tell her about my plans or anything, she just mentioned it in the middle of normal conversation). She told me she can connect me with the guy, that he’s currently looking to hire someone. Pure synchronicity

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#47

lots of work being done on fundamental topics such as fear of responsibility, failures. Ability to focus and resist distractions is being worked on, routine is being optimized, etc.

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#48

got like the hope and optimism injection or something lol

also listened ECC and RICH at 10s today, we’ll see about the recon

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#49

should’ve done it sooner

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#50

maybe I should try reducing KB to 10s as well, huh

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#51

oh yeah man, what have I been doing all this time lol. 10 sec it is. I still do feel some very subtle recon effects but it doesn’t mess with my work. I still was feeling this a few hours in a day:

slight recon in the form of restlessness and desire to switch stack. Can’t focus on anything and do anything properly. Feels like I’m being pulled in two directions simultaneously, between old personality and new one.

But I’m consistently moving closer and closer to the desired personality. It seems like it’s just my nervous system overall needs some time to integrate it, it lacks flexibility currently, so slower integration is needed (duh, it sure does lack flexibility from all the stress I’ve put myself through because I didn’t know any better lol. I’m working on it but it’s still overtaxed).

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#52

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the compounding effect and I think ECC helps to make me feel it on a visceral level, which made me more productive. I’ve been more consistent with exercising, work, other productive habits because I don’t expect any immediate rewards now but also not negating any progress if I didn’t get a reward

I never consciously did it, but it did feel this way

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#53

also I don’t know if it’s ECC, I just credit most of the stuff to it for some reason lol. I barely remember RICH description, so I guess I naturally gravitate towards crediting everything for ECC. I’m assuming my whole stack though, not like I’m not getting any results from RICH

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#54

Woke up feeling fatigued, also slight desire to drop KB. Guess this fatigue is just recon for KB

Also saw some shitty news, day didn’t start that good. Well, just gotta keep doing my best

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#55

Took a nap and unexpectedly slept for 3h. I only had such long naps when I started running Renegeneration. Guess it’s some nervous system relaxation scripting kicks in?

I also saw some very weird dreams. There were multiple but I only remember the last one. It’s a bit private so I’m not putting it here but I swear it feels like some part of me just died lol

Like, I got more serious, focused, desire for any cheap stimulation and entertainment just dropped and I got like laser focus on goals. But there’s also some emptiness and sadness, and I experience them in a way I never felt before

Well, so far it’s good, curious to see further development. I’m following MWF schedule so today and tomorrow are integration days for me

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#56

Day is progressively getting better. Discovering some new stuff, getting new insights and actually moving forward towards some of my goals

lifting goes great too, hitting PRs almost everyday. Focus is sharpening, things are starting to compound and affect each other (like, lifting gives me more confidence and energy to tackle wealth goals, tackling wealth goals gives me more motivation for them, which decreases my desire for cheap entertainment, etc.), everything is actually getting better. That depressive feeling and sadness that I had this morning almost fully dissipated but the good stuff that I described, stayed.

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#57

Financial manifestations!!!

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#58

so, a day that started out shitty, in heavy recon and processing, along with bad news upon waking up, turned out to be one of the greater days haha, as well as some deep identity change

The lesson here is that hard work compounds. And when it does, it turns bad days into good days, especially if results of this compounding happen unexpectedly. Work hard, play subs, focus on the present and just allow yourself to get surprised by not thinking too much about each little reward you’re supposed to get

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#59

today is worse because I’m feeling exhausted, because I worked way past over my schedule yesterday, so I’m just chilling mostly. Doing what I can, respecting my nervous system, etc.

My overall output grows so I guess these days will be happening less and less

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#60

Seems like the big shifts in my routine are over and it’s just micro-adjustments and increasing output. 10s of ECC+RICH produced some recon but it lasted a few hours and was manageable overall, seems like it’s my sweet spot after all

There is still a part of me that just wants to relax and do nothing productive all day but it slowly “loses color”, so to speak. With each day it just becomes less and less appealing, more boring.

On the other hand, work (which also includes working out, language learning, etc, not just financial work) is making me happier, focusing on it gives me meaning and seeing progress motivates me further

I’m not fighting the first part, I just allow it to dissolve naturally by showing my nervous system day after day that it’s better to live a more meaningful life and it provides much deeper satisfaction, rather than relying on cheap entertainment as a form of safety and relaxation

In my case, thinking that doing nothing and having purely passive income is the pinnacle of life, is a result of long term negative societal programming, created by school. By pushing myself to do loads of meaningless tasks, my nervous system was deeply fatigued and unlearnt to be motivated by the idea of improving my life. Instead, I could only react to negative stimuli (such as deadlines). I’m healing from it :pray:

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