10/08
In the last 10 days I was on vacation and I had a lot of fun, I also went to the Imagine Dragons concert in Rome with my best friend and it was an unforgettable experience.
I didn’t touch alcohol for the first time on a holiday, I laughed a lot and I feel that these 10 days have changed me a lot, especially my beliefs and have removed some limits
@LovingEmperor That’s a deep realization and I’m sure this clarity is due to Genesis bloom effect (even after 2 weeks without listening to it).
I thought so too, I even had the courage to step out of my comfort zone and talk to that girl I liked, show her who I am and discover that we’re actually very similar. Even though I was running DR:LD and WB I still felt like I was on Genesis (especially the Love Bomb aura).
11/08
For the past 2 days I have been struggling with this, for the first time in my life I have had a person who is pretty much perfect for me and I have gotten on really well with her but even though it was reciprocated she has told me she doesn’t want a relationship because of her fear of relationships.
I’ve given myself time to experience the resulting emotions and I’m trying to figure out how to use this experience as a source of growth
12/08 DR:LD (Day 34) Heartsong (Day 3)
I’ve finally decided on my stack and I feel it’s what I need at the moment, the experience with Wanted Black even if short has been good and fun.
From my experience with that girl I realized that this is what I really miss, I have never experienced the trust and security of having someone who wants and wants me, or who makes me feel the desire to become a better person.
My job is to become a better person regardless if I do it for myself or for another reason, it just changes the motivation and fuel but the goal will always be that.
13/08 DR:LD (Day 35) Heartsong (Day 4)
it was a very long night, a few hours after listening to HS i get a message from a mutual friend of ours asking me if i want to go dancing with her and her friend (the girl i like) and my friends. None of my friends could go there (it’s a 3-4 hour journey and we knew it an hour before) and I felt like I had to go anyway, what do I have to lose?
When I got there she told me I was crazy to arrive alone at night and travel all those hours (I was supposed to leave after 6 hours again), but she was delighted to see me, in the end she and I decide to don’t go to dance to stay together and had a great time. I’ve never been so good and this time she seems willing to try, she repeated to me that she is really very scared but this time she wants me with her.
Heartsong showed me that I needed to see love from the point of view of abundance and happiness, not the ugliest parts and loss, that changed everything.
15/08 DR:LD (Day 37) Heartsong (Day 6)
I feel light and happy
17/08 DR:LD (Day 39) Heartsong (Day 8) LBFH (Day 1)
I’m noticing how one element in my life causes chain reactions, since the beginning of this year I’ve noticed how love for myself has changed a lot inside me (my addictions, my mentality, my habits) and now i’m noticing how “external” love is affecting a lot what i feel, it destroyed my need for fap and porn, I am more protective, self-confident, brave…
If love is what helps me change (and become what I want) then I will focus on this.
I’m sorry that for most of my life this element has been overlooked so much, but only thanks to this year and the diary I realized how much it has saved and changed my life
20/08 DR:LD (Day 42) Heartsong (Day 11) LBFH (Day 4)
I love how everything around me is changing, from my lifestyle and habits to the people I surround myself with. From the first listen to LBFH I feel like I’ve planted a seed that grows exponentially, and this alone has caused the most changes since the beginning of this journey (I first heard this in February/March)
My point of view on how I see others, myself, the future and the past has changed, I feel a lightness in my thoughts and an optimism that gives me the strength and motivation to go on.
I’m also considering making a costum with Heartsong-LBFH-Love Bomb core, has anyone ever tried this?
How long have you been listening to LBFH?
The first time I only listened to it for one cycle (it helped me to quit smoking very easily and above all to start my journey here in the best possible way) and I started it again 4 days ago
21/08 DR:LD (Day 43) Heartsong (Day 12) LBFH (Day 5)
Today I started training again in the gym, despite losing weight and not training for 3 weeks I kept the same strength.
The most notable change is definitely this, I’m involuntarily valuing everything I have and who I am, I feel grateful for so many things and it’s been a beautiful result that I hadn’t budgeted to achieve but which I definitely needed.
Even though at that moment I didn’t have what I wanted, I gave myself time to express my emotions and then I saw the best side, happiness for the experience I had, happy memories and the motivation to become better. This mindset shift helped me manifest a relationship with this girl
The second thing I’ve learned from being on vacation is that the person I’ve become has attracted completely different things.
Same holiday, same place but 2 completely different versions of me (2 years ago and today) have unknowingly attracted different people and experiences.
This made me realize how much I had changed and how important it is to act
25/08 DR:LD (Day 47) Heartsong (Day 16) LBFH (Day 9)
On Sunday I will see that girl again and we will spend only one day together (I haven’t seen her for 2 weeks due to the distance). I just want to enjoy the day and not think about anything else.
I’m listening to each sub once a week (Monday Heartsong and Friday DR:LD + LBFH) and I’m finding myself very well with this listening pattern
27/08 DR:LD (Day 49) Heartsong (Day 18) LBFH (Day 11)
Today I finally saw that girl again and I’m listening to Heartsong.
Otherwise I feel good, I’m losing a lot of weight (I don’t eat junk food and only drink water lol), I’m in the best physical shape ever.
28/08 DR:LD (Day 50) Heartsong (Day 19) LBFH (Day 12)
We really spent a nice day together even if it was very tiring (especially for her who came here and traveled for a total of 5 hours).
Despite her fears and insecurities since using Heartsong she has opened up more with me, her desire to see and hear from me more often is increasing.
Overall this stack makes me feel really good, everything feels easier and nicer
29/08 DR:LD (Day 51) Heartsong (Day 20) LBFH (Day 13)
Visualization is very vivid, I can see love related memories very well, I more often visualize positive scenarios involuntarily.
I feel much more attractive and proud of myself, I love feeling these emotions
I’m also considering replacing DR:LD with Love Bomb in 10 days
30/08 DR:LD (Day 52) Heartsong (Day 21) LBFH (Day 14)
Today I re-read my journals and am very proud of what I have achieved and thought I’d give a report which I hope will be helpful to anyone who reads it.
As Michelangelo Buonarroti said “I removed everything that is not David” I did the same with myself. I eliminated the habit of smoking, I acted to overcome some fears, barriers, memories, thoughts and obstacles that prevented me from moving forward.
David is also the symbol of the Renaissance man who stands at the center of the world. Within himself, he possesses an enormous moral strength which gives him strength, courage, security and above all awareness of his own superiority.
What triggered the change was just this, for the first time I put myself at the center, I tried to understand myself and I’m still shaping myself like David, I understood my potential and saw myself in a block of marble.
I realized how some things were so easy to quit by solving the root problem, for example it was super easy to quit smoking and start loving myself, I quit fap and porn easily when I started loving and being loved by others, and when I think about it now it’s funny how, after Genesis, I’m following a stack that is all about love.
Abandoning everything that limited me I realized that I am the one who writes the rules in my mind, I am not a slave but a master, it is my game and I made the rules (for a long time all this was done by my fears and my thoughts negative).
I am no longer forcing my personal growth, in fact it has become so natural that I don’t have to think about it, the think-do-get cycle has become very natural.
And now? Well I wish I knew too lol
I certainly still have a long way to go, I have gained many lessons along the way and have built a strong foundation. Sometimes taking a break and realizing what we have achieved is the most important thing we can do, it gives us the motivation and energy to continue our work.
I will definitely continue to improve myself and be that point of reference I want to be, I want to be stronger for the people I love (including myself).
01/09 DR:LD (Day 54) Heartsong (Day 23) LBFH (Day 16)
I feel more disciplined and motivated to do everything, I don’t have much to do at the moment so I’m reading, writing and working out at the gym.
I feel like I’m gaining more muscle mass since using LBFH, I eat a lot better (and less), I feel more attractive, my thoughts and visualizations are definitely more positive.
06/09 DR:LD (Day 59) Heartsong (Day 28) LBFH (Day 21)
I don’t know why but I feel more shy, it’s been a while since I’ve seen this part of me again, probably since I started Genesis.