Noticing huge breakthroughs since hitting 1 min, lot’s of positive results and no noticeable recon, only the tiredness and numbness from time to time but it seems to be improving. I genuinely think it is just past overexposure still playing itself out not as direct processing but more like as permanent changes trying to integrate themselves without support!
1 min loop today, with one day in between loops according to schedule.
Same thing as usual, entire brain irritated feeling like scratching it everywhere and have already developed redness at the back of my head for months now.
Overwhelmed nervous system, can feel pressure all over and especially in specific spots, the energy gets stuck or is not flowing. Feeling like I care about nothing or none and nothing matters to me.
What is this nonsense? Totally ridiculous. Tired of this shit honestly. 1 min loops and I get the same symptoms as I do the full loops. This is not normal.
Maybe I’m thinking the only reason this can be it is triggering the 15 minute structures from the past at 1 min and causing this?
Yeah not continuing this, my brain gets ruwined even from 1 min and just no life at all in a very weird state and just not feel like doing anything or inspired. Mind feels blocked, emotions feels blocked, feels like I’m not even in reality.
Nope not healthy at all.
That’s interesting. I don’t know if this is confirmed by SC, but there was a (experimental) theory flying around here a while back that if you run a full loop, then run microloops the brain remembers the other longer runs if that makes sense?
This was from the beginning of ZP. So perhaps take a longer washout, perhaps a full month, and then try again.
Whenever I go to microloops things get even worse I’m just tired honestly. Whatever could go wrong today went wrong. My entire plan I worked towards for months just collapsed.
And I don’t even feel anything. I’m just like okay meh. Something is just wrong and I’m tired of it all so fed up!
All I know is that there is actually no subconscious or unconscious mind and that you are not your mind. You have body, you have you, and you have your mind which is just a collection of memory and information that can greatly limit you or program you in certain ways etc. You growing mentally, and collecting more knowledge and information actually means nothing, you memorising any kind of advanced knowledge or information means even less. You enhancing your intelligence so that your perception can perceive, understand and come to that same knowledge yourself through contemplating and right use of the mind is everything. This is true intelligence. Many great scientists discovered something and now you learn it in school and believe yourself to be equally intelligent but in most cases the discoveries would have not even crossed your realm of thought.
Now since we are not psychic developed enough and are mostly mere thinkers we do not access a big part of the mind, the awareness and life is lacking for us to use the full comprehension of the mind, hence science has compartmentalised our mind into conscious, that which we are mostly aware of and the basis of our daily interactions with our mind the world around us, then the subconscious which is more like a door, tunnel or pathway between the conscious and the unconscious. Think of you going into your attic and finding a box of pictures from the past and suddenly accessing long buried memories, without a trigger like a picture or something else you do not access certain layers of information. From within the mind, you exist, your emotions, deep feelings and your alivenessness, the more alive you are, the more aware and conscious you are most likely the more you can access of your mind as everything because more fluid as your consciousness and intelligence expands.
Hey, I just read through your journal because I was thinking about your posts earlier.
Firstly, I noticed you went through some absolutely rapid transformations and insights which seemed to be followed by very deep recon
I’m also noticing in your latest posts the recon I get when I am frustrated and thinking I’m not getting the results I should be
Only thing I can suggest is like others have as well and take a washout of another month or two
Reason being is that Alchemist might need time to bloom for you
Sorry I can’t be more helpful than this but I do believe Alchemist is about to bloom into something beautiful for you
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Thank you. I cannot say enough how much it means to me to get support and encouragement from people who are also on the arduous path of self-development.
Actually I do feel the microloops are doing things beneath the surface and that shifts WILL occur at some point.
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No worries, and correct me if I’m wrong but I think because you had such breakthroughs at the start that this may start to feel slow
I’ve settled with the conclusion of taking things slow as well unless I can afford to take massive bouts of reconciliation for the following transformation to happen
Otherwise I end up with massive bouts of anxiety, anger, sadness etc. affecting my day to day life
I feel like I have been pushing against a wall for far too long.
Whenever my breakthrough happens it will breakthrough everything at once. That is what it feels like.
And when this happens a gigantic energetic explosion will occur that might cause some volcanos to erupt somewhere. I am that kind of intensity within myself. It is just not outpouring right now. Here and there I will have a sneak peak.
I can relate to that, it’s a frustrating experience
Having a similar thing with Wanted Black
I keep going though, even though it feels like crawling I am making progress 
Maybe Wanted Black is not at all important to you, you know. Deep inside resides an intelligence inside of you that knows exactly what you need and where you need to head in your life to find true satisfaction and happiness.
Which why I chose spiritual subs. I want something to enhance my life not turn me into some character or a personality that hunts certain experiences. Although it can be fun being the wanted black men, until… it isn’t.
But everyone seeks different things in life of course.
Nothing wrong with anything, just need to be honest with what you seek. I know I have run in circles and coming back in the same place realising that I have not progressed because I was running towards the wrong destination which I knew all along!
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I may also just be in a certain stage in my life where I am finding myself, my way, and unfolding into a more evolved human being which naturally comes with all kinds of struggles and trying to figure out what various natural life aspects mean to me such as relationships, finances, career or perhaps a mission and vision for something bigger and greater?
I always felt within myself I will not become another coorporate zombie but contribute to something bigger. I love to help towards human evolution and whatever I do will certainly be in alignment with that.
I think we all have a responsibility towards building a more peaceful society and assuring that we as a species evolve and not degenerate over time; and at this point, survive because people are getting killed everywhere unfortunately. But that is not a topic for my journal. I just feel for the world and wish for people to grow in intelligence and form groups where people can support each other and become free from limiting and constraining structures of thought and reality.
Thank you for this, its given me something to ponder about…
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Mutual exchange! I am happy to hear that. Wish you a wonderful day.
Me also happy just made a thousand dollar in the market after losing a significant amount due to confusion. Anyway, today I feel a certain shift I have not felt before where I am super confident about my future trading and my trading success feels very tangible.
Fever struck me today. Never get sick to be honest, only headaches.
Looking to find another route or pathway to work out some of the deeper blockages I am having as these programs here are not doing it for me. Unfortunately while I have had some very miraculous and fascinating results in the past, something inside of me seems to walk headfirst into a wall every single time.
Might do a very extensive break once again and see if I can consciously work it out.
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Taking a break still but considering starting New Godlike Masculinity when it comes out also because it will have the anti-reconciliation scripting.
That being said having the time off from subliminal programs has given me the insight that whatever issues I seem to have are far deeper than just the surface of my life and are essentially the main issues at the core of my very life’s journey. They are the issues that will inevitably decide my destiny. This is more of a souls urge to overcome them in order to find my true life’s calling.
I am just in a difficult growing period having to face my deepest issues. It will soon all resolve and I will be resurrected from the dead and be transformed in a completely new person. All that growth beneath the surface will suddenly see the light of day and I will become a truly exquisite individual who reflects extraordinary wisdom and inner growth.
All that strive and difficulty will become a shadow of the past.
I generally don’t even care about anything difficulty once it is overcome and resolved, it is often difficult to even understand what the nature of that situation was as you now live within a new reality and experience. The now is all the really matters at the end of the day, the future does not exist and neither does the past. You can only have a vision of the future or a memory of the past. But the now is all that can be said to be truly existent as a reality.
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Still on a washout.
Have not noticed processing of any scripting whatsoever.
Feeling much better than before. My mind is super at ease not too much going on as compared to when I was using subs my mind was constantly overwhelmed. I notice when I meditate it feels like my mind is in-tune with certain programs even though I am not running them.
It is more like I feel deeply connected to Subliminal Club after using all the programs, to me Subliminal Club is alive. The programs are sort of alive or I can tap into them through consciousness. I am doing a little experiment to see if I can benefit from the programs by inducing what some people may call “presults”… I want to see if I can get the effects from programs and benefit from the programs without actually listening to them.
If you believe in such a thing as the Akasha or the akashic records or a library of information that lives within the space around the Earth it means you can literally connect with anything.
My Spiritual practices have gone even deeper since a few days ago and I feel they are more powerful.
Whenever I continue listening I will resume with New Alchemist and hopefully add a new program that will come out since I want to benefit from the newest anti-reconciliation tech and scripting.
Continued my yoga practices every day feeling so so calm and relaxed. My whole body feels absolutely relaxed.
However during my practice I still notice I have a blockage specifically somewhere in my body that has been there for a long time and the only reason I think it is not going away despite my practices is because I am consciously holding onto something,
It may also be the reason why I constantly talk about a breakthrough. There is something I am holding onto which is holding me back in life and it is a whole karmic structure that I have to surpass, dissolve or breakthrough.
I am positive this will be resolved sooner than later and hopefully by the end of the year it will be gone completely.
Feeling a strong pull to start New Alchemist St2 soon alongside Godlike Masculinity the new version. Now I will finally have the newest anti-recon scripting by using Godlike Masculinity.
Finally if New Alchemist does not resolve this energetic block then eventually Aeon sure will as after finishing the program twice I will run Aeon.
Vibing like crazy lately. Feeling a lot of nostalgic vibes to a time where I was always high on life, no drugs nothing, just the breathe of life and elevated thoughts that lifted me and the people around me up.
I have always wanted to be an inspiring individual. I think the world is going in the wrong direction and that we can do so much better if only just a few individuals truly realise and embody that other will naturally jump on board.
An exciting energy, an hopeful energy, an energy that just electrifies you to your core and makes you see and experience a possibility that you did not even imagine before.
Pure excitation because suddenly you feel a possibility that is so beyond the common misery of working a shit job that you don’t even like and because you have not even been told you can do more and be more!
I live for that. I love to see people rebel against a “broken” system where disguised slavery is the norm. With blank stares and faces. With people hiding their pain until they forget it is even there…
This washout is doing me well.