Hi Guys,
I have been interacting with a woman at the gym through body language and eye contact for about 3 months.
She has been observing me a lot, she has been watching me training, she tried to impress me, she sent a friend to follow me and waited for me in her car, etc. Another day she was following me at a groceries shop, but I think it was not on purpose (it was a manifestation).
I would say she is obsessed with me.
She already tried to approach me twice, but I was afraid. So in other day, I approached her, and when I just said “Hi” she stepped back about 1 meter in an instinct of fear. A few moments later she abandoned the gym and I felt rejected.
I overcame that rejection, and that made her even more obsessed.
Last week I tried to approach her again, but as soon as I got close she stepped back again, but this time with the difference that I didn’t care and I remained positive because now I’m using PS and that sub fills me with positivity.
Today, I just went smoothly near her and stayed there for a while always with an humble and vulnerable attitude and it went better, but she still feels very intimidated by me. At some stage I just said in a nice way “Can I put this box here?” and she was frozen in fear. Anyway this was a good exposure to anxiety for both of us, but I think it was much harder for her.
Initially I didn’t like her (even though she is good looking), because initially I approached her because I needed to use the Squat Stand, and she was disrespectful to me. So initially I have been a very bad guy to her (all with body language), but when one day she was waiting for me at the gym exit and she was crying, I arrived home and my heart was hit. I felt she loves me and I love her too now. And all of this happened without us having ever talked!
I have an idea to bring post-its to the gym, so that I can write some jokes there about her fearing me, deliver the post-its to her, and start communicating through post-its. Or next time I see her I can just point to a wall and say “Look, a plane!”
But this is being really hard and complicated for me, because I can’t even be close to her for too long. She is psychologically strong, it’s just that I hit her core deeply.
I’m also obsessed with her now.
I’m running PS + Asc (Ascension).
I’m running PS for about 1.5 weeks and Asc for about 6 months.
I run LB in the past just for 1.5 cycles. I had to abandon it due to huge recon and laziness, but since then I healed a lot, and I’m stronger when dealing with recon, so maybe I can handle it now.
I’ve tried running only PS for a few days and I felt much more positive and was able to lift much more weight at the gym. Yesterday I re-added Asc to my stack and today I felt more negative again, I let negative people affect me, and I lifted much less weight at the gym.
So I think it’s wise to stop using Asc. Asc might conflict with my personality because I’m not a quiet and mysterious guy, I’m more of a social guy, or it might just be that I need more and proper healing.
I also noticed that a week after I started listening to PS, some people started getting really aggressive or negative towards me without a good reason. It looks like I got an ascension after the initial ascension, and at this stage I have to be showing people that I’m not there to harm them, but the truth is that people are trying to put me back into the boxes that I had freed myself from some months ago (and to some new boxes). PS also fills me with positivity and is allowing me to become the social guy I was in the past before getting sick.
Another aspect that leaves me sad, is that I wasn’t able to build muscle mass since I started on Sub Club, even though I practice CrossFit 3x times per week. I’m still a fit but skinny guy.
So I ask for advice to the experts about what can I do to score this shot from the penalty box concerning the woman, and good changes to my stack.
I have my own ideas, opinions are welcome, and I’m open to new suggestions:
- Run PS + LB. I didn’t go for this option before because I would like to try some long term relationships and have fun before getting married. Is it possible to experience that even if I run LB? I’ve used LB for 1.5 cycles in the past and the current woman might be a late manifestation of LB. She is very similar to me physically like I asked my subconscious to manifest (even though mentally I’m not sure about how she is).
- Run PS + HS. I have no idea about this one, because I didn’t read all of the HS description.
- Run PS + Rebirth or PS + SE to heal properly. To stop feeling negative when listening to Ascension. I also feel a little insecure when near this woman, and this might mean because I need better and proper healing.
I know that for building muscle mass I should use EF, but the priority now is to start this new relationship. Even though I ask if Emp (Emperor) would also be good for building muscle and to stimulate HGH.
Thanks,
Super Saiyan