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It seems like at some point on the day of listening to KB lately, I’ve had moments of this sense of emptiness. Not in a bad way. I think it’s the energy clearing effects of KB. Where it’s like moments of clearness in the energy channels I guess.

I’m guessing I could tolerate the full 15 mins of KB 1 now. But I’m going to alternate. Tomorrow will be 5 mins KB 1 and 15 mins CWON- my first full loop of CWON.

I think this will be a good combo for me. CWON to get back in touch with my true natural self and will also give me the positive attention and also solidify against any potential negativity. I have been getting back to I guess more graceful, economic movement and just having fun being in physical movement while I’m at work doing my job. Also seem to have a pretty good focus and more groundedness.

PS: had a great day. After work feeling a lil cranky. Luckily I get to do a quick workout and have some food. It’s not a big deal cranky, I can be by myself and do my own thing. I guess I tend to be one of those types who needs that alone time to recharge. Found out about an issue that may put a wrench in my routine for a week and it’s just when I’m feeling happy and content in my routine again. So that first 15 min loop of CWON will get to shine tomorrow.

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This AM, 5 mins KB 1 & 15 mins CWON.

First impression is that it feels really light. Like I could always do 15 mins of CWON. But I will still rotate this cycle between 5 mins and 15 mins. I probably could do 15 mins KB but I’d like to keep the recon potential low.

I’m planning to do 15 mins of each title next cycle. So that’ll be 3 cycles with KB 1, before moving on to KB 2.

Update: A few hours later. I just did my morning mobility workout. It seems like what’s processing now is this part of the script: “Develop your mental fortitude, become impervious to negative attacks from others.” From the CWON copy.

I’m definitely having some thoughts come up around a past situation where somebody was actively trying to bring me down and accusing me of things they were programmed into for division and conflict among people.

Evening update: Smooth sailing. Maybe had a little mental fatigue earlier. But had a hearty meal and feeling good.

I think CWON is the right title for me at this stage for sure. It’s not an alpha necessarily. I don’t think it’s high status like regular Chosen but it’s more natural. I like natural. Sometimes I think Alpha isn’t the way to go for me yet. Some people already are intimidated by me just by my nature of being a quiet person, and happy within. So what people used to do was come up with the worst, in their own minds, nothing to do with me, but their own projections.

The mental fortitude and become impervious to attacks seems to be hitting the spot for me. I just had a passionate discussion without being angry. And I was able to voice my perspective just from a fellow human being rather than a forceful or dominate someone to my way of thinking. For my style and personality CWON, initially seems to be a really great fit for me.

I’d spend more time with Chosen From Within before I’d do regular Chosen again. But since I like the 2 title combination, I think I won’t worry about what’s next just yet.

It’s my 3rd listen of CWON and I’ve already listened to CFW and regular Chosen, but I think this version just fits better for what I’ve been after. I think the next step would be to find out what would make the best custom CWON and something with wealth is what I’m thinking. But of course, I plan to run Phoenix with KB 2.

Also, I’m feeling some motivation to get started on something. Like I want to learn, and implement, ideally something that’s going to add at least another source of income while still having time for my workouts and some leisure time. For me leisure time includes reading, meditating, just being in nature kind of things, taking a scenic drive.

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I definitely slept 10 hours last night. I had a very active dream night at least from what I can remember. A nightmare and just lots of dreams that I remember bits and pieces of, more than usual.

I’m planning to do only 5 mins of each title tomorrow. So as to keep the recon potential low.

I’ve also started doing my mobility workout early in the day and I do any strength/conditioning in the evenings. Luckily, I have the time to do that and I think it definitely helps me in that I don’t skip workouts anymore. Instead of one long workout, 2 shorter workouts just works better for me. I also stopped working out on my toughest days of work, and that’s been great as well. I don’t feel worn out like I used to.

I’m definitely feeling like a desire to get into action more building in me. So the easy workout in the first half of the day just helps me tap into that and I can still take care of anything else I have to during the day before I go to work.

I also decided to do 30 days of no release, and no caffeine. So far it’s been easy.

Afternoon update:
I slept 10 hours easy last night. Feel like a nap now. I increased reps and weights on all my exercises this last week. So that was a plus. But now I’m reminded of the other side of the equation. The body needs to recover and adjust. I’m not really sore but just craving extra sleep. So I guess I haven’t found the balance yet there. I can get those quick improvements but then I may end up needing more rest until I adjust.

So I kinda see the value in periods where you’re just maintaining instead of going for increases. Sometimes yea, you do want to increase but other times it might be best to just maintain. So that might be some of CWON providing insight, probably a contributor for sure.

I just did my core work. My legs were shaking and so I decided to do 10 mins of Trauma Release Exercises. Just the finishing one where you lay on your back and you put the bottoms of your feet together. You raise your knees a little and your body will start shaking. The intro video shows examples of animals in the wild who shake off their trauma, they say it’s just a natural thing they do. I used to do it regularly but haven’t for a couple years. It just dropped back into my life. A CWON gain I’m sure.

I also followed up with some Code of The Natural movements. It was a program where you do like these active stretching type exercises and it’s supposed to free up your movement, your walking into more of a primal, natural type of walk that is supposed to even make you more attractive. Just by freeing up those limitations in our bodies from modern life. So I guess that’s back in my daily routine now too. It can take 5-10 mins and so it’ll be easy to incorporate in my day.

I used to do one long workout and lay around and lounge the rest of the day. Until work. Then I found two shorter work outs works better. One in AM and one in PM.

I definitely feel way better in my body after that. So CWON is already giving me nice surprised with my physical. I wasn’t necessarily expecting that I was more expecting positivity and getting more of that positive reaction from others.

So if anything LOS isn’t so attractive for me anymore. Although it is for those physical changes. I’m more interested in a potential combo of CWON and Primal. I think that would be amazing. I think it would fit me better than my SI/Spartan custom that I spent 8 months on. But I’m sure if I use that again I’d get way more benefit after CWON.

So far I’m liking CWON better than LBFH but LBFH probably helped as well, just not as much on the physical part.

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Listening day: 15 mins KB 1, 5 mins CWON.

So far I’ve been experiencing a healing day. Where it’s like I’m having these feelings come up, insecurities. No memories of where or why, just the feelings. Like the blanket has been pulled off of them.

I did read a book for about 20 mins and that seems to have lightened the road.

Today the Crucible seems to be in effect.

From the Khan Black stage 1 copy: The first stage of The Crucible is an intense and transformative healing process. This stage delves deep into your psyche, targeting and repairing any traumas, insecurities, or limiting beliefs surrounding your sexual energy and sexuality. As you immerse yourself in this healing stage, you will feel the shackles that once bound you to mediocrity shatter, and a newfound sense of freedom will surge through your being.

I’m going to take the stim free pre-workout and get started on my first workout of the day! That should get things moving.

Update: Haven’t gotten moving to work out yet today. Feeling like a nap but it’s way too late for that.

I did do 3 rounds of Thought Field Therapy, it’s basically EFT, tapping on certain parts of the body. It’s a bit more complicated than EFT and I like it better. Something I rarely use unless it’s something that is sticky and isn’t going away. To make it simple it’s basically a pattern interrupt. I guess you could say it short circuits the pattern of the emotional issue. I did three rounds took like I dunno 2-3 minutes maybe. I got back in touch with those good feelings. I got it from a book called I can mend your broken heart. I wasn’t even expecting it to work but I decided to give it a go.

Evening final update for the day:

I was just tired feeling like I’d rather sleep. Then it got close to dinner time. So I finally just got up and did my mobility workout. Then I had a hearty dinner once again.

Got to work and caught a second wind, really first wind of the day. I kept a high pace the whole job and finished the earliest I have this year.

I’m also possibly close to being back in ketosis again on the keto diet. So that always gives me a boost especially when I’ve been on a long layoff. Coming back to it and I can feel the difference.

Whatever movement scripting in CWON is probably also taking pretty well. I just felt good and smooth in my movements and it’s just something I enjoy.

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CWON to get back in touch with my true natural self and will also give me the positive attention and also solidify against any potential negativity.

The one time I had a woman really checking me out was when I played CWON. (I don’t play any Seduction related titles.)

I’ve also shared this a number of times, but I had a bird literally start flying with me as I walked down the street. It just lasted for half a block.

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Chosen was the one that surprised me with the women checking me out. Like business women. I’m looking forward to the surprises with CWON for sure. Haven’t had any animal or nature experiences yet. Since I started my cat seems more affectionate at times than he has been in the past. But still mostly ignores me unless he’s hungry.

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But still mostly ignores me unless he’s hungry.

Good roommate.

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I had some good dreams last night. Felt a little bit of that clarity and openess in my being as I woke up. I feel like the dreams were a good sign of good things.

Today I’m thinking I’d like to custom Primal and CWON at some point. Keep it to two titles until I finish KB maybe. Of course I’d have to add in NWE into the custom and maybe a couple wealth modules but also Primal is a big title so I would probably have to run the store title first for awhile. At some point I will probably go back to a 3 title stack and try out Genesis Mogul for sure. Still some tough decisions but for now it’s 2 titles for the rest of the year while I work through KB.

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Tonight was the opposite of last night. I had like no energy once I got to work.

But I was able to get it done and in my normal time. I was even clumsy and could been one of those days where everything went wrong. I stayed calm and immediately caught myself from getting on that thought train. I just kept moving slow, but I kept moving. Near the last stretch of work I came to life a bit.

I think part of the reason was I had a big steak for dinner. All my energy went to digesting. So maybe that was too hearty of a meal right before work.

Also feel like today was another healing day. I definitely am ready for a good night’s sleep.

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I just remembered it’s a listening day. 15 mins KB 1 and 5 mins CWON.

Yesterday at the store this hot blonde walked by me. I didn’t make eye contact, so that was a blunder. Then I was at the self check out right beside her. I was in 100% comfort mode- just non-platonic vibes. In the moment I thought it was nice because she could feel safe. But since I didn’t have any sexual vibes at all I feel like after the fact that wasn’t the best either. In the moment I was just impressed with having zero anxiety, so for the long run it was a good thing. But after the fact I could see that that took me completely off her radar for anything more than probably being just a friend or a nice guy.

So I was kinda having some thought about how I wanted to bring back a seduction sub to give me a little edge. But I chalk it up to the healing of KB 1 taking precedence and I’m sure things will pick up in the later stages for me in terms of being my natural attractive self with women.

I’ve been noticing some what I was calling rubber band effect. Now it’s kinda like a tide effect. The tide pulls back and then the tide rises, in terms of how i’m progressing. It’s like at first I got some nice highs and boosts in my experience then it’s like things pull back and I kind of fall back into the old version, then there’ll be that progress. So I guess that’s called recon also. I always called recon when I get those emotional kind of moments. But those are smoothed out, so the recon is just way smoother and natural I’d say.

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I decided to custom CWON until I remembered that it hasn’t been updated yet. I was going to add in an alpha, Lion IV. Pick out a couple basic seduction modules, add in NWE. But I scrapped that idea until the chosen’s are updated.

So what I might do is add in one title to come back to a 3 title stack and go for 4 cycles with KB 1. But that makes it tricky. At that point, Primal looks like the best candidate just at a micro loop level so I can run 15 mins of KB 1 and CWON the rest of the time.

I was also thinking just pop S&S back into rotation until I wait for the updates. Primal definitely is a longer term thing and S&S is more laser focused and I don’t know that it’s alpha but the NSE surprises would be nice.

Also I might still look at Limitless Executive just for the getting into action and forgetting about being attractive when I can work on building my lifestyle first.

Overall for me, CWON seems to be that foundational title that I was after, but I’d like to make a few tweaks in a custom to make it a perfect fit.

I have Ascended Mogul but Primal is more attractive for the fun part, but it doesn’t have the wealth stuff, even though I think it would help develop traits to make one successful.

Then I do have Stark Black but I will save that until I complete KB. Although…it’s probably the best candidate to fill in for what I was hoping to do with a custom CWON. At 1 minute I think that would add just enough of whatever I wanted to add to custom CWON. So maybe I will go that route after all.

I think that Alpha/Status/Leadership combo is what is responsible for the increase in attraction, on regular Chosen. So I wanted to add just a basic alpha to CWON. But I’m not even done with my first cycle of CWON, and I’m sure I’m in for more surprises down the road.

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I was definitely in my head tonight.

I decided that Chosen was the title to go with. But I was going to run SSX.

After all is said and done I won’t go to a 3 stage stack. I don’t want to prolong my first run of KB. I plan to move to Stage 2 after 3 cycles of stage 1. Then if I get technical I don’t know when that would be. Officially 1 more cycle but my 1st cycle i started at 30 seconds and added 30 seconds eventually finishing my cycle with my first listen of 15 minutes.

So I think 4 cycles on stage 1 I would happy with. To me adding 3 titles just dilutes that down when I’m following the official guidelines.

So for now I stay put. 2 titles 3 cycles per stage of KB. When Chosen titles get updated I will probably be customizing Chosen and Chosen: The Way of Nature into one title.

I also still come back to my bottom line- I think I definitely need the Heartsong healing, and Chosen regular was my favorite title. So if anything I would run Heartsong before going back to Chosen.

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Today is the halfway point in this second cycle with KB 1. First with CWON.

I’m feeling a little angry. Still working through the same thing that Heartsong would most likely target. So I might spend only two cycles with CWON then get to Heartsong already. Hopefully by the time I feel good with Heartsong the Chosen line will be updated.

What I liked about regular Chosen was that it did seem to help me pick up on the vibes of other people better. I just wasn’t expecting so much attention as I went about my daily life. So a few rounds of Heartsong and Chosen will be better the second time around I’m sure.

update: Just went to the store. Nobody noticed me. Then I got to the checkout and the cashier was I guess she was flirting with me. She was probably half my age I’ll say bbw, nothing wrong with that. 99% of the time I go to a cashier and it’s someone who isn’t happy and probably doesn’t even like their job but they feel like they have to do it. But she was young and full of life and I’d say happy and fun yet. So that was a nice change of pace.

Then I got to my car and was taking my shopping cart back and saw an old couple. The man didn’t look at me but the woman looked at me with a twinkle in her eye. I would have guessed she was seeing the CWON vibe.

So I’m in a better mood not because of the interactions but maybe just seeing that effect of CWON where even if I don’t feel like I’m in a good mood, the external is still showing me positive and that’s something.

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Tonight I had a night where the first half of my work day I was so tired. I was even feeling sore in my muscles. I made great progress last week but needed more recovery. So I might shift gears from strength building and focus on building some power and keep up the conditioning.

So I had an hour between jobs. I decided to let myself nap. Just set the alarm and no pressure just shut off until the alarm goes off. I didn’t get to sleep but when I got up and started getting ready I just caught a wind.

Had another day feeling great at work, but I would describe my movement as 100% smooth. No flash just straight forward, it’s my hardest work day.

I’m also feeling like I don’t need an alpha again. I don’t know if that’s CWON or KB influence. Could be the anger I started my day with was transmuted into some sense of personal power or something.

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Listen day: 5 mins KB 1, 15 mins CWON.

Starting to feel this thing I’ve felt before. Like I want to get out and start living, but don’t have the specifics.

Also just feeling more okay, like if there’s chemistry with a woman or not. I guess maybe I used to want chemistry with every woman I liked, but also with some I wanted to like but there was just no chemistry.

Also kind of confused about how to structure my workouts now. I want to save the weights for every 3 days. But I’ll just keep up the mobility conditioning on the rest of the days. That will maximize my recovery. While keeping me mobile and moving smooth and agile like I like.

Feeling a little of the money pinch at times but in these times that’s pretty common. For me though, it’s not a matter of just getting another job. I was thinking this morning that maybe the problem I have with the general work populations is that I don’t mask, and I’m not a big complainer.

I actually am okay with being myself and don’t like to engage in complaining and gossiping. It’s also being okay with being myself and being self fulfilled, I see through people’s masks and it’s not that I do it on purpose. So that seems to make them want to make me into the problem and I really don’t want to be in those battles. Like my presence can be triggering for the miserable judgy types even if I never say anything or judge them. I’ve also had those rare few who only saw good in me and they weren’t even aware of the BS getting directed at me by others. So that kept me back from making friends with them when I didn’t want them to be caught up in the nonsense.

Even some of my family are unconscious in that they want to complain and focus on the negative. But they can’t hear anything that would potentially lift them out of it. Kind of a happy in their misery. Due to my self development and getting over myself, working hard on getting rid of my BS. It just seems to be hard to relate to people sometimes.

I still could use a boost in that motivation to start on something that would provide me extra income, just without having to go to a normal job. So there’s absolutely room for progress and growth. So I need to be patient. Heartsong would come next for sure. Then I’d really be thinking about Genesis: Mogul. It just seems to be that I want my freedom, I really like my alone time. Yet how am I going to balance that with making more money and I’m not sure that I will find a normal job that I’d fit in with or could at least tolerate.

So regular Genesis would probably benefit me as well.

On the seduction front: I think this is a continuation from SSX. SSX had me losing attraction for women and that surprised me. But now on KB and CWON it’s like it’s returning me to baseline. Alright let’s start from scratch. First of all you can have no anxiety at all.

Then you can be aware and make adjustments. So I think I’m in the aware phase and no anxiety phase. Probably is a continuation of SSX. Like if I have no chemistry with a woman I want, well I have no hangups about having or not having chemistry with her.

So that leaves me free to choose. I can then begin to learn how to create the kinds of relationships I want. So SSX wasn’t what I was kind of expecting but it does seem to have started me on a good track of having the right base. Still working out some inner game issues but again, just a matter of patience and getting out of my comfort zone as well as taking advantage of those “highs.”

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Haha! Seems like a different day that I wrote my previous post. Yet, it was today.

I was driving home from work and I remembered ahh, this must be the gratitude scripting. I wouldn’t say I was putting it into words, but more just feeling or experiencing it. It was like I noticing this feeling or sense of just appreciating being in this moment. Went beyond words with it.

I have also been reconning a little bit in the mind this eve. I think we’re working on some of that removing mental limitations and transforming self talk into quiet, I would say beingness, again, going beyond words into the experience of it.

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My biggest I call it recon is about a past relationship. It’s always come up. Well yesterday I realized that for as much as I work on myself, I found out that that triggers some people. I never had anyone triggered but apparently they’ve had people who say they work on themselves probably try to shove it down their throat. I think someone who truly works on themselves is more apt to allow others to be as they are. Not needing to change them so “I” can feel better. Like a lot of people just tell people just to get over it. Well if they were over themselves they’d probably have some compassion or insight, knowing that many people don’t know how or what to do. They’d probably like to get over it.

Well, people take identity in their problems and thus even if they complain and consciously want to change, they don’t. On another level it would be akin to giving up their sense of identity, that’s what problems give them.

So my “favorite” problem I realized, this old relationship that didn’t work out, I was holding on to it. It was my prized possession so to speak. I’d be able to let go and move through everything else but this one thing kept coming up. So I recently came up with a little process for myself and I’d used it another woman who was so into me, I wanted to be into her but didn’t feel like the situation was right. She was a lot younger than me and I didn’t want to face the stigma or judgement from that. Well, years have passed and I’d shoot my shot if we ever bumped into each other again. So I used my process on myself and kind became free, or neutral on it. I’m fine if it happens and pefectly fine if it doesn’t. It just has zero emotional charge, no want, or need there.

So I’ve been doing this process on my old relationship. Well it’s actually working quite well. At some point I really will be over it. I’d still like to run Heartsong but I don’t know how far off into the future that may be. It also allows me to make the most of KB 1 and CWON, which are both great titles. I’m sure they’ll be some of my favorites as I spend more time with them.

Update: Yep, I’m feeling like I’m over the old relationship now. If it comes up again it’ll be easy to take care of. Now that that’s out of the way, I’m getting to the next thing. It does seem to be about the money. So I’ll start working on that since that’s what’s coming up. I’m going to stick with CWON for one more cycle no matter what so I guess I’ll just do my best to enjoy the ride and work on my goals whatever they are as best I can.

I did switch over to plyos/power focus instead of strength. So far I think it will be more manageable. Less muscle soreness and it’ll just bring in a new dynamic for me. I also plan to take any strength focus back to the beginning and build up from the ground floor again. So to prevent injury and I’ll be ready when I want to focus on pure strength again.

Update: Seems after my biggest stumbling block issue is out of the way. It gets to the core. More back to what started it in the first place. Self worth and image and all that. So it’s kind of like coming full circle again. Back to doing the inner work again. Which is fine. I’m sure I’ll have more insights into that so I can resolve it as well. Money came up again but then it was quickly back to feeling worthy which I thought I had handled. Then it is more stuff that isn’t really verbal, just feelings again. So CWON will be good to help me channel it into the direction I want to go if nothing else.

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today was a non-listening day.

I don’t know if it’s KB working it’s magic or what, but I’m kind of leaning towards bringing back SSX. I’ve been having some bloom or maybe just noticing some effects and I haven’t ran SSX in 2 cycles now. I even took like a 10 day washout after.

I read the objective probably a few days a week just to keep myself in that mode of what KB and CWON are doing. Well in the CWON objectives or right below whatever section that is, it says use those moments of pure calm and bliss. So the moments of zero anxiety is what I’ve been calling them. At least twice I’ve had them, and that’s CWON.

Ideally I’d want to do Primal but SSX is the lighter title and it would add that element in there to keep things interesting for me. I’d just like to explore it more and see where things lead.

The only thing is that it will make me reconsider how many cycle to do for KB. I can’t say until I try a 3 title stack but with where I’m at on KB 1, I think I could move on to stage 2 next cycle. But for good measure I’ll stay to test out 3 titles.

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Last night I couldn’t get to sleep. I was reconning. I think it was from CWON moving from fear to power stuff. Was having like lots of subconscious stuff come up while I was trying to sleep so it kept me up longer than I wanted. Like I think I was almost falling asleep then like my mind was gonna have a nightmare so I woke up again.

A 3 title stack might give me a little buffer, if it’s SSX I won’t have any major recon to worry about either. So looks like I’ll do it for a test for the next cycle. So that’ll give me 3 cycles with KB 1.

Today listening day: 15 mins KB 1, 5 mins CWON.

So basically what I do is I lay down to meditate while I listen to the subs. Then basically do whatever you want to call it focusing, awareness meditation, observation. Like whatever “problem” will come to mind so I don’t DO anything with it. I just let it be and observe it and the sensations. It transmutes itself, usually into joy. So I wouldn’t call it letting go because for some people, letting go gets a bad wrap. But the experiencing is not actually letting go, because to me that implies doing something. I’m not doing. It’s not doing, but maybe that’s worse to some. It works for me and it would help someone else so that’s why I mention it.

It was nice to not have it be about that old relationship. Today it did start off with money. Then the relationship came up for very very lightly. Now it’s to the point where I go about my day and if it comes up I just remind myself, that I don’t want that because I already have it or something better, then I’m back into joy, joy of being.

Some of the issues for me used to be that there was such a contrast for where I am and where others are. Just as a metaphor like shining a bright light on somebody who is sleeping. That’s not very comfortable. So today I was driving and realizing that I really can’t take it personally if people are triggered when I’m not doing anything to them! It’s their own stuff, but they don’t know that. It’s not comfortable to face it and they probably don’t even know how. The program is that we’re all programmed for survival, so whatever problems we’re creating and all that, it’s the mind’s way of protecting us. Any changes to what is normal, like say just a general sense of dread or misery, well that’s a threat to the unconscious because it’s not the norm! It’s not personal.

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I think KB has been clearing stuff up. I’m ready to get back on SSX. I’m choosing that title because I’ve already been on it and had no probs. Plus it’s kind of been blooming it seems. And my virility is on the rise and I’m feeling like yea, meeting the ladies seems like fun. More so just learning and fine tuning my “game.” Like I want to be able to meet some great women and have a good sex life. I’m not necessarily looking for the one at this point anymore.

I’ll still hold off on adding a money title until stage 3 or 4 with KB. I feel like I want to get through KB first and then tackle the next thing, which seems to be money. SSX will just help me gain some confidence in interacting with woman and being able to gauge interest and create interest and heck even friendzone myself if I need. So those skills would help me in any other social/business situation. I could learn and practice and why I’d go with SSX, it’s just who doesn’t love women? I’m definitely feeling some drive to move in that direction and I think that is KB freeing me up.