How about Phoenix + Love Bomb?
I ran 5 cycles of Phoenix and a lot is different for me and I just started Love Bomb solo on Sunday.
Sales page at bottom recommends Love Bomb with Phoenix. Check em out bro, see what you think.
Phoenix is one hell of a sub for us guys with past issues.
Interesting combo, maybe youāre getting to the root of things, will try it out 
Love Bomb - good for others, not for me.
I have no time to myself:
Work and partner take up all of my time, absolutely no thinking space to reconnect to myself. Really do think I want to abandon it all for a piece of air.
Feel quite smothered
Not liking this love thing - itās suffocating me. Always believed that living without love was not so bad, now it is choking the life out of me.
I despite my current job
I hate faking it at work, listening to customers say the same thing over and over again, doing the same repetitive tasks day in, day out. There is no point to the job other than exchanging money and receiving abuse for the privilege. Itās boring af and I end up being the beta boy at the bottom, does the most, get the least shine.
I have no freedom
Relationship means compromising on a lot of stuff - likes, solo activities, canāt even talk to anybody else (male or female) lest I get accused of cheating!
I AM grateful for everything I get by the way! Itās just that the past meant I had to compromise on a lot of things including being a good little Nice Guy and repress my real self. If I had self love, would I even be in my current life situation? Shit no!
Is it possible your partner does not respect you because you have yet to respect yourself?
Keep going with Love Bomb, Iām going solo with it. Small steps bro, pick one area to work on. Maybe work on doing whatās necessary to secure some time for yourself? If your partner starts acting up, itās not about youā¦itās their issue. Stay calm, hold the line and do not budge. āBoundariesā ā¦itās a struggle for us, I get it. Just start small and donāt budge on your need for personal time.
Stay strong, embrace the Love and Authenticity scripting.
NEW Love Bomb is giving me such recon:
I wake up at 3 in the morning, with the hot sweats and a sick feeling to my stomach.
I snap at people, including my partner. I feel bored and at the same time a burgeoning excitement of self determination coming.
Forgetting to turn up at workā¦
Iām eating different without much prompting - a diet thatās lighter and more energetic.
Maybe thatās what the recon is about - the conflict between Mr Nice and Mr Me. Letting go of the falseness and embracing my self. It is ok to be interested in my own stuff and not always catering to the other in such a way as to forget yourself.
I am taking small steps to un-enmesh myself from the other: watching painting videos, learning languages and listening to music my partner dislikes in my spare time. Maybe āloveā and āself loveā has a different vibe about it than the controlling, infantile, fusing quality Iām used to. Love is scary - for the person that never experienced it
Definitely not alone. First 2 weeks of LB I could barely tolerate 30s. It can be a rough one to run.
Wow, thatās bold. From the outside it might seem silly or ānormalā to do this or that it needs conscious effort. But from self-experience I know that this is a huge step for that kind of relationship. I congratulate you, brother.
I know how you feel. I started LB a few days ago and feel really bad about myself today.
Here for you Brother
Iām running one minute loops. Thirty seconds of masked and thirty seconds of ultrasonic. Iām basically deaf in my left ear which is my reasoning for running the ultrasonic track. I sometimes wonder if being deaf in one ear is slowing my results
Struggled on LB too, all the best!
I just need to be patient.
Ultrasonic sounds like it work better for you.
Sanguine - the ultimate alpha sub
Someone on this forum suggested pairing Love Bomb with Sanguine. I never considered Sanguine for anything other than a relaxation sub (hence a little pointless).
Howeverā¦
The sales copy of the New Sanguine made it very clear that one could use it to build and maintain confidence.
So I tried it - and itās a beast of a sub!
I didnāt realise that fear kept running through my body as a jolt of energy over any perceived slights to my esteem. My confidence is quite sporadic - it comes out in bursts of fake Dutch Courage. But Sanguine is (against all odds) keeping that fear jolt at bay. So much so that I can actually start to focus on building and maintaining confidence in a way that I donāt have to tear myself down over othersā thoughts about me.
I had the wrong idea about confidence - itās just about remaining calm and unflustered. Sanguine is doing that very well without conscious effort. Paired with the self-esteem focused Love Bomb and the foundation is starting to take root. 
Sanguine is amazing. I recently came to the same realization as well.
It is liberating.
Edit: i think you can apply for the Arch Alchemist discount. I donāt know who to ask but I think you should qualify
Just send a support ticket. (You qualify as you have created more than 1250 posts.)
Yes, contact support. Tell them how many posts you have so they can verify.
Sanguine and Love Bomb may well be the ultimate cheat code in life. All that everybody who was wounded ever needed was self-love.
It has unleased a very caring, soft personality that is very stress resistant - rage, terror nervousness etc isnāt for me anymore and Iām only now getting used to it. Begging others (even subconsciously) to like me is disappearing with every minute.
However, Iām not the hard, brash, cutting edge, badass alpha, dripping with sneering brutality and a air of violence.
Do I want to be that? Yes.
Is it possible that one can be a calm alpha without that front? No.
Can I get respect without all that? Letās see.