That is weird. I just logged out, seeing if itād show, but no.
Iāve wondered if you may have blocked me one time. Iāve been here a number of years, and Iāve wondered if some have blocked me due to my old victim thinking. It gets annoying reading someone going in circles when solutions are right in front of them. Just guessing.
I get the alert on my icon, in the top right corner of the screen. Thatās how I knew youād mentioned me.
I just donāt see my username in your post.
The only people Iāve blocked on here ended up getting themselves banned. 
so you have nothing to worry about.
Not in Michelās post above.
Keep discovering nuggets of gold far far far too late in this subliminal journey. And yes that bolded bit is my case. 
In other news, I had to join a workplace call, which I had much difficulty joining (so much for advances in technologyā¦) with the female call leader catching an attitude throughout. I tried multiple times to join (and rejoin) to watch and chat along, but she kicked me off.
Enter Ascension
I sent a strongly worded email to her and a boss detailing the misadventure and telling her firmly that I will not be joining any more calls under any circumstances. Wasnāt interested in the reply either.
I also didnāt react to my boss who screamed āfuck offā down the phone line when she eventually crawled back to ask a favour. (Is me not telling her off for that self preservation?)
@ksub or @Skadoosh suggested bullies pick their targets based on how strong (or weak) a personās internal framework is. LBFH/Ascension 4 weeks in has done more for my self worth than years of upbringing.
I think Iād better keep the sassiness on a lid for now 
Entry level self esteem and confidence kinda feels great. It seems other people have this frame thing down pat, but these subs are helping to develop solid internals.
5/52
A few more Ascension custom results:
LBFH is doing the most to reveal who is good for me vs whoās toxic. Unfortunately my boss lies firmly in the latter category
desire to teach art has grown, especially as my self confidence keeps growing. My sessions with the students are mostly positive.
still a little incongruent to the outside world, mild dissing has returned. I donāt react to it anymore, I take it as a compliment now
switched back to Ascension, AM is more of a āfinancial alphaā title. I just want confidence
at a bit of a dilemma - currently working two jobs - the first sucks, getting the second would require moving back to the big city, leaving people behind. What do I do? 
There is nothing outside of yourself that can give you the answer.
But i can advice to make a pros and cons list to each situation.
Nice results you got, keep going 
Starting to see the LBFH effects in the open; my self to mage is getting better, at points Iāve heard myself saying really bad things towards myself and others, at least I can recognise them now, which is the first step to nipping it in the bud.
More positive towards myself, but that loud coughing crap has returned - this time I donāt flinch and I donāt take it personally, it says nothing negative about who I am - on the contrary. Is there someone youāve come across that is even 1% of Ascension in ordinary life? Nope.
More happiness and joy for myself, even allowing for tough situations at work.
Starting to learn about the machinations of my boss - remembering that they have a vested interest in keeping you down and on the hamster wheel of approval. Donāt know how to be less naĆÆve when a boss is abusing her power, but PCC in the custom may have the answer. Remembering that soft power (congruence) is more effective than the military approach my female boss is employing.
Had a mild recon episode where I questioned my own position in my relationship. Who was I to her? Was I a placeholder for someone else? Am I actually loved for who I am, or for what I do? Why am I being dismissed as a person with skills? I knew it had nothing to do with my partner, but it brought me to tears in the middle of the night.
Afterwards in the morning I had a sunbeam cross my face and it returned me to that teenager again, with a sense of wonder and anticipation for the future, even though the past was full of pain.
I do feel that others are starting to treat me warmly and myself waiting and delaying my immediate sceptical reaction to others, which opens myself up to more positive responses. I do feel much better about myself, conversely those toxic people donāt seem to find me anymore.
This New Wealth Experience scripting for LBFH really should have manifesting loving people as an experience towards healing.
LBFH has wealth scripting? Iād never have known.
If so, that sounds awesome.
I donāt think LBFH has it explicitly, but loving yourself more could lead to better work opportunities, which could mean more wealth.
Thanks for clarifying.
Something I have read Saint share is that Ascension has wealth scripting in it, and it will get a NWE upgrade. Thatās awesome since I really look forward to some healthy, purposeful financial goals.
Iāve only been back on Ascension for a few weeks with healing titles, and my curiosity has peaked, wondering what I could use to capitalize on it.
Most likely Iāll add Genesis again since I kept bumping into internal success barriers on it, where I even jumped off it since it wasnāt clearing. I went back to DR for 2 cycles without them being touched. I contacted support about this, and to my surprise, they advised Regeneration.
And thatās why I am using Regeneration now. To clear these longstanding internal roadblocks.
7/52
The main thing Iāve taken away from the last two weeks is stability. Nothing major has happened, other than I seem to be working more, getting really good at it, yet feeling tired and getting fed up of its repetitiveness and pointlessness. Who really cares about placing stupid bets? However, Iām really enjoying my side gig of teaching university students, advising them and painting. That lights me up no end.
So I guess the answer to my life purpose is obvious. Thereās a growing sense of being allowed to recognise and pursue my passions - whatever makes me happy is allowed: travelling, creating, tutoring. Is this down to Ascension or LBFH?
Had a short mix in with Regeneration+ Sanguine Elixir for a week and think most of the remaining trauma crud of the past has been lifted up and cleared out. I donāt think Iāll need Regeneration/Sanguine for an extended period.
ā¦but my god you really have to persist with it - my recommendation is to clear out all the emotional garbage then use Ascension for at least 3 months, minimum. It doesnāt work when you half commit to listen to it. Maybe itās my own foundation level but I feel like a lengthy run - 6 months to a year solid of Ascension will turn me into an actual alpha.
I can see small shoots of Ascension growing, basically telling work that Iāll be off to uni to teach, because someone ignored my request to book me off. I tried to let everyone know beforehand, but that was me doing the extra (runt work) to try and people please management who fucked up in the first place. If it came down to it, Iāll declare that itās not my problem!
I got over the automatic need to be over-responsible and people please, because it had a fear of punishment and violence behind it. Thatās largely gone. LBFH for the win.
I feel for the first time that I have some sort of āstatusā, especially at uni. In regular life I walk around like I own the street, with pride and grace. None of the nervousness that used to accompany my previous runs. Of course that makes a few others cough loudly. Doesnāt bother me anymore.
8/52
Ascension keeps on building. It just feels natural to be a leader when needed and follow when asked. But it all flows naturally with no recon.
My partner is now more clingy than ever, donāt know why this is? Maybe my masculinity from listening to Ascension is making her very girly and attentive. Bear in mind she is quite the strong independent type. In more comfortable being in a relationship too.
Goal firmly in place for acquiring full time work and an increased wage, almost didnāt attend my 2nd part time work this week but itās there where the potential for a future career in teaching lies.
Honestly, I feel about 10-15% more alpha, (which @Skadoosh would probably agree is more than the general population) but after 8 weeks it feels too small to be significant. In terms of congruenceā¦ itās there in doses: I know when Iām genuinely alpha, nice and calm and when Iām nervous, still pretending and reaching for confidence.
What Iāve also noticed is that self neglect is still an issue, I might not clean myself as often as I should. The good thing is Iām aware of it and take steps to mitigate things - LBFH is working on it. I will change my look soon so I donāt look so scruffy!
Looking back is also an issue - why reach out to friends that have left me behind in order o show them the new me? Didnāt they appreciate the me before?
Overall Iām starting to have real beginnerās growth of solidity and self esteem, self respect and boundaries, which inevitably then show outwards - either admiration (mostly female), neutral or shit testing (a few men and women).
On boundaries - I tell anybody at work that if theyāre rude, they get absolutely no service. If they are abusive, I be abusive back. The customer is never right.
Swapped out the custom Ascension (with healing modules included) with the OG Ascension in preparation for the release of the Genesis revamp. I might just stick with it because the jump in force is phenomenal.
However was racially abused at work and it came as a shock, but not entirely surprised. I tried my best to stand my ground and appear āalphaā but it didnāt work. I felt like a failure and wanted to give up completely. Giving the details to the police I felt nervous yet resolute in wanting the person involved to face justice. No more waving it away, hoping it will disappear.
Sorry this happened, man.