Day 29 washout day 7 (I think)
So yeah, I’ve been busting my fucking ASS approaching and sacrificing a lot of time and energy to it. I sometimes don’t even eat well on some days because of it. I’ve gotten around 10 numbers, have generated a lot of attraction, but still almost all of them don’t reply. I’m talking with 2 right now, have a date planned for Sunday morning, but she could easily flake. And yeah I’ve been doing this all by myself, no wingmen or anything. I’ve taken a lot of rejections, lots of “I have a boyfriend” or “i’m not looking for anything right now” etc. Like I’ve really been gearing my life toward getting good at this, so if I’m sensitive about the subject, maybe now you understand. I’ve gotten really good at reading women and at staying in conversations, and conversating in general. And the first approach of the day is still always scary. Today I walked back and forth for like 15 minutes before finally approaching a girl who was working on her laptop, and thankfully the convo went very well but she did have a bf. I could’ve gotten her number but I decided not to because I actually felt bad about it, like her bf sounds cool and yeah, I have a conscience. But doing this can still be very frustrating, sad, and demoralizing. I still haven’t even kissed a girl since 2019. But whatever, just saying this for the record and as a little update. Things are overall good and I’ve built a lot of momentum. Maybe Primal Seduction would be better for approaching like this, but ChatGPT has said Wanted + SSX are more congruent with my personality and goals, and I have a new Wanted/SSX custom coming in, and it should really boost things. And btw I don’t even approach as much as I think I should, really only like 3-5 women a day (longer convos I mean), but I do have shorter interactions with many women.
I felt that one for you. That’s painful, man, I’m sorry.