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#462

Day 22 washout day 1

So I’ll try to summarize my experience with TB: the first week or 2 I got lots of good results. Almost every time I walked up and talked to a girl, they gave me their attention and responded well (which actually continues to now). I got 1 girl’s number on Christmas Eve, which was a mistake as I should’ve taken her on an instant date. We texted back and forth a bit but I think it’s gone nowhere. I also got the number of a girl I sometimes work with who previously had a bf but told me she doesn’t anymore so I got her number as well but haven’t texted her yet. About midway through the cycle I started feeling the recon, and could relate to a lot of what @James was saying lol. And there were times of neediness and wimping out a bit with approaching girls, but overall there have been a lot of plusses. Anyway, might just take a 3 day washout instead of 5 because I’m curious to see what ST2 is like. There were more results with TB but I just don’t remember them at the top of my head.

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#463

Day 23 washout day 2

Should I run 30 seconds of OG Wanted during this washout? A little aura of mystery sounds nice.

#464

No???

#465

Lol I didn’t.

#466

Day 24 washout day 3

Took a hot yoga class and felt okay for a while then felt like sh*t again lol… Felt like a needy/angry/frustrated wreck at gym. Recon is hitting. Not the worst I’ve had, but still sucks. Just feel lonely and frustrated. Basically have no job. Fuck. Anyway, will definitely do a full 5 day washout instead of 3.

Also note: I see lots of pretty girls and want to talk to them, but I feel like I’m too angry and my energy will just be repulsive. Maybe I should try to talk anyway, and try to snap myself into a good state/social mode, even if I’m feeling angry/psycho needy.

#467

Day 26 washout day 5

Was feeling all weird and needy at the gym last night again, but then something clicked and I felt grounded and calm. It was like I couldn’t feel any needier, and it just stopped kinda. There were spurts of it here and there but it mostly stopped. Anyway, should I run ST2 today or wait till tomorrow like I’m supposed to? :thinking:

#468

Day 1

ST2 1 min.

Woke up with morning wood which hasn’t happened in a while :thinking: (Day 2 rest day)

#469

Day 3

ST2 3 min.

Talked to/interacted with a fair amount of attractive women at yoga yesterday, one of the instructors caught my eye and I believe I caught hers… something about her… aside from that, I picked up some weed at a dispensary afterwards and the girl who served me initially seemed bored/tired/uninterested, but by the end of the convo/interaction she was smiling, laughing, throwing her hair over her shoulder etc. so these things were nice. I’ve had small urges to watch p0rn, but have stopped myself every time. Masturbating just doesn’t sound appealing to me, so I’m guessing Khan has “stop masturbation and porn” scripting in it.

#470

I’ve noticed this as well but the recon is more anxious feeling when I’m hungry. Though as I do more cycles the anxiety level I’m feeling lessens each time. Sugar seems to help put me at ease quickly when I really need it

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#471

Day 4 rest

Having some insights: I realize I have some trauma from a girl at a party who I asked if she wanted to hook up back in university. She freaked out and called me a creep etc. and I think I called her a [mod edit: forbidden word] etc. (we were drunk, it was a party etc. :man_shrugging:). I think that event traumatized me and scared me from trying to hookup/attract girls I was interested in (and there were a ton of hot girls at this school).

But I realize it wasn’t her fault, it was my fault for allowing the event to stop me from trying again. I was a good-looking, smart, charming kid and I would bet $10,000 that I would’ve/could’ve gotten at LEAST a make-out if I had approached 10 other girls that same week and did the same thing.

Anyway, it had me reflecting on “creepy” and what that means. If this were to happen now, I would be thinking “fine, I’ll just find a girl who says yes then”. And by the way, if I were to find a girl who said yes, and we hooked up and enjoyed each other, would it still be creepy?

Calling someone a creep for approaching a girl and being mature/honest/asking a question like that is shaming them. I could’ve asked her if she had a boyfriend and if so, I could’ve said “wow, you’re having sex out of wedlock, what would your parents think you [mod edit: forbidden word]?” But yeah I’m not going around shaming people like that, so part of me resented her for that, but also I realize it was still MY fault for allowing it to affect me like that.

But yeah she was sort of part of this big friend group we had (though honestly I never cared much for most of them :man_shrugging:), and that just set a sh*tty tone for me early on in college. Like I was still friends with all of them, and it might’ve been slightly awkward, but yeah it mostly just affected me internally I believe, or more accurately, I allowed it to.

Anyway, I’m not saying I didn’t hook up with girls in college, but I think I could’ve done much better if I hadn’t been traumatized by that event, and I’m wondering if that event has affected me till today subconsciously.

#472

Day 5

3:30 min ST2.

#473

Day 6 rest

So early today I smoked more :maple_leaf: than I meant to, and pretty much had an anxiety attack for like 1.5 hours. It was like anxiety but also I felt Khan was slamming me, I was questioning myself, my beliefs, the things I do, why I do them etc. and I couldn’t tell if that was the cause of the anxiety or if it was just recon occurring alongside weed induced anxiety. And there was existential panic like “everyone is gonna die and none of us can save anyone from it”. But another thought was “if I died right now, people would really listen to me, but we’re all dying anyway so in a way, we’re all already having our last moment with each other.” Maybe just high thoughts, but yeah it was intense. But afterward, when I calmed down, I just felt calm, unshakeable, and thankful. Thankful for not having anxiety anymore but also just thankful to be alive.

Edit: might run either SSX or Wanted with ST2 tomorrow…

#474

Day 7

3 min Khan ST2, 30 sec SSX (ran later in day).

So I’ve never ran a wealth title. It’s been pure seductive/social/status my entire 1 and a half year journey here. I haven’t even kissed a girl yet. Lol. Have I gotten more female attention/looks? Definitely. Have I gotten good at flirting whereas before I never really flirted? Definitely. Have my social skills improved? Yes. So the subs have delivered A LOT, but I think there is something inside me stopping me. Is it pure laziness? Maybe. There’ve been many times where my brother invites me out but I just stay home because I’m relaxed and don’t feel like it. I’m starting to feel like @sei except instead of money being the problem, it’s attraction/romance. Sei says he just can’t make money, well, I just can’t get a girlfriend or hookup lol. Like I’m never in the right place at the right time, it’s like I’m cursed. Anyway, part of me wants to shift focus to wealth because that is something I have no inner demons about (unlike attraction/seduction which I very much do), but I also want to conquer this annoying “beast” before switching. I want to fucking finish this and actually get a real physical/tangible result.

Edit: so I decided to break the algorithm and go out tonight, I went with my brother and a couple friends to a dance club. The thought of going home and doing nothing was super frustrating, so I said “f*ck it” and just went. On the way though I kept almost turning around because I was tired and nervous (I haven’t been out in months), but thought “no, it’s one of those situations where I have to just go and follow through even if I REEEALLY don’t feel like it”, and figured even just going and doing this was a victory because of how nervous I was. Well, it was very good. Talked to friends a lot, it was a nice atmosphere, and lots of young pretty girls. Didn’t walk up and talk to any girls outside our group because, baby steps.

Anyway all this to say it was good. It felt like a release valve I needed (maybe partly or entirely due to the subs because “action taking” scripting).

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#475

Remember Khan will take the longest but it’s the highest reward. Not just socially. In 2026 when you are a subliminal super-responder, it’ll be because of your Khan run.

And if you really have a block like you say you do, it’s your best option by far.

But it’s a foundation. All you’ve done with Khan so far is run ST1 for a bit, which is the foundation, not the building, and start ST2 as of recently, which is building the scaffolding.

Before this, you were mainly focused on the completed skyscraper (with WB), and now you’re building the foundation after the fact.

Give it time, it’ll go well, and if you’re considering balancing it out with wealth, I’d say go for it, but not switch off Khan. khan + EOG is an incredible combo - and part of seduction is status (khan) but another part of it is joy and love of your own life (EOG)… so perhaps EOG will help unblock khan results.

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#476

So no girl action till 2026? Lol idk if I can accept that man. I’ll be fucking 33. If I was in my 20s maybe I wouldn’t be as worried. I mean you apparently got results during ST2 and didn’t need a year

#477

I’ve been using subclub for 4 years. 2 cycles of Khan ST1. Emperor HOM for 2 years. Ascended Mogul for another year. Not to mention some healing. I’d built a foundation. I struggled with my business for two years before I got 10 years worth of results. I can promise you the results are not linear. But just because you don’t see steady progress doesn’t mean you’re not right around the corner from an exponential leap in results.

I built my foundation. Now It’s your turn.

And I didn’t say no girl action until 2026. I said in 2026 you’ll be able to be a hyper-responder to subs.

Keep running Khan ST2, and focus on the rest of your life as well. A wealth sub would probably be more effective than SSX.

You ultimately need to come to accept long term thinking. Short term thinking is disgusting, girls can see how you’re using them because you’re impatient, and you’re killing your results by demanding them to happen NOW because you want them to. 32, 33, there’s no difference. You’re just impatient and rushing.

Live a good life, be happy, and women will flock to you. Women are attracted to me even when I’m not there because of what I stand for. Khan and WB just helped me capitalize on what I’ve spent half a decade building, internally and externally.

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#478
#479

Yes, that’s true, I have been impatient. Guess I’m just frustrated, maybe it’s mostly at myself for not taking enough action. Also, maybe I don’t want a girl or haram deep down, at least not right now. Like there’s a block and I’m not sure what it is. Maybe it’s because “having girl problems” is so central to my being at the moment, that part of me is afraid of it dying or whatever lol. Like I’ve been in a dry spell for so long it’s become part of my identity. In the past I have used that anger and frustration to propel me, make friends, work harder, etc. I’ve actually posted this here before, but yeah. And yeah maybe I’m afraid without that anger/frustration I’ll have little drive to live properly (go to the gym, work hard, etc.) or lose some charm.

#480

You might want to try Emperor to hit everything at once. It’s a little more internally focused than Khan’s external focus, IMHO. Khan is very much about doing conquest. Emperor is about becoming an Emperor. And it balances sex/wealth/deive/satisfaction very well. Attraction on it is very high. It’ll even be more effective now that you’ve ran Khan.

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#481

You mean end ST2, washout, then Emperor? What about Ascension? Too basic for me at this point?