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#362

Day 13

WB 30 sec, IC 30 sec. Microloops and now a washout.

Edit: wow, so took a short “vacation” out with my parents today where we drove to my old college town/city, and earlier in the day, didn’t notice much at some of the markets for food we went to, but in the last couple hours I’m getting female looks and attention from college hotties and other pretty women in general :eyes: (as if the subs executed later in the day). Also for the record, I have pretty much no problem walking up to a girl and saying hi/starting a conversation at this point. Anyway, it seems microloops are where it’s at if you want results the same day/night.

#363

Day 15 washout day 2

Want to run the custom so bad but forcing myself to do the washout first :angry: :triumph:

#364

Washout day 5

I was thinking either today or yesterday that one possible reason I haven’t really gone for/attained the goal of a “harem” or active sex life is that I’m afraid I may become soft and lose my “edge”… just a thought.

#365

Day 1

30 sec The Inevitable Harem (TIV)

Edit: so did some Uber eats, and at first I felt good and chill, then started to feel weird/needy/irritable, then in the last hour or so suddenly people started being nice, one guy complimented my shirt and a lady I dropped off to was very gracious/thankful when I complimented her Halloween themed nails.

Edit: I haven’t been doing the “walk up and say hi to attractive women thing” as much, but I kinda do it to everyone now automatically, like if I cross eyes with anyone I pass I’ll nod/smile/say hi. Maybe I should try to continue though, just walking up and doing it with women I’m attracted to, not even because I want to that badly, but just to follow through on it. I haven’t smoked weed in a while, maybe two weeks. Ever since drinking these teas (1/4-1/2 a teaspoon of He Shou Wu, Cordyceps, Nettle Root, and Polyrhachis Ant everyday) I just don’t really have the urge. I seem to get a lot of girls staring/looking/glancing at me, not every girl, but at least a few everyday. As I’ve said in an earlier post, I think it happens so much I’ve become used to it and no longer even journal about it. That and flirtatious energy from girls I interact with, whether I’m buying coffee or picking up/dropping off for Uber Eats. I guess I get frustrated when these things don’t happen, as in I’m not around any girls or any situation to have it happen.

Anyway, the key was to get over “approach anxiety” which I wanted to do for 2 months (I started around Sept. 17). I can smile and say hi when I walk by a girl no problem, but actually walking up and saying hi, that’s something I haven’t been doing (or maybe I have a few times but forgot/didn’t journal it).

Aside from that, today was strange, it was a mix of recon/neediness/irascibility/feeling invisible/lowly and positive good vibe encounters. I think what distinguishes recon from general negative feelings is recon feels like nothing would make it better, like you just have to endure it until it stops or you have an epiphany or something positive/relating to your goals occurs/snaps you out of it etc.

I have a slight urge to sub-hop, which is an indication of recon, therefore I will stick to this custom for at least 2 cycles.

#366

Day 2 rest

So I think one of the goals of WB is to have threesomes/4somes etc.? Honestly idk if I’m confident enough for that. I’m at the gym though and I had this thought: first of all, I’m trying to see girls the way I used to when I was a kid: purely girly/feminine/kind etc. Second, there were three attractive girls working out in front of me and was thinking “hmm which one would I take? I’d take any of them”. Then had a thought experiment: what if I had a threesome with them and all 3 were 100% into me and I could literally do nothing wrong in their eyes? So even if I felt awkward or f’d up they wouldn’t even notice. Now that is a good thought experiment.

#367

Day 3

1 min TIH

Edit: so yeah was needy first part of day, have to remember: Do I want a girl(s) with me literally right now? Am I horny right now? Would I want to be around me right now? Answers should be yes, if not, there’s your problem.

Edit: So I’ve thought about it, and I think the reason I’m feeling relatively high recon is that this is simply a more dense custom than I’m used to. Even running the stack of WB/IC/RotNW gave me some recon (which was surprising to me), it was the first time I’ve ran WB in a 3 title stack, so now I have all three in this custom plus all the modules. Well, I will simply continue to take it slow.

#368

I can relate to this a lot. I’ve become comfortable with eye contact and smiles, but I haven’t actually been approaching random attractive women to talk. I feel like if we take this step to actually approach with the intent of getting to know them, by taking their number or insta, it will get the ball rolling and start becoming easier and easier.

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#369

I was doing that before, but stopped for some reason :thinking: honestly it might be from my stack with WB as the main “driver”, but with WB I can approach I just haven’t been, maybe just have to force myself a bit. I can say when I had PS or SSX in the stack I for sure felt more of push to approach, but I think I still prefer WB, I think it fits my persona better. I have an idea: you and me should approach at least 3 girls today, even if the conversations literally last 2 seconds :smirk:

#370

It’s funny because I set a goal for myself for next month to start approaching at least three times a week. I think it’s a great idea to set this challenge for ourselves and then share the results. It’s motivating.

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#371

Honestly 3 per week isn’t much, like I would do at least 3 per day, you’ll get better much faster. 5 would be even better. Though of course, up to you, and depends on what you want (a gf, harem, hookup, whatever else, etc.). Btw I consider just walking up and saying hi to be an “approach”.

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#372

The thing is you might be right about that not being enough. I live in a country where I don’t know the national language well, but I might be using that as an excuse not to talk to a lot of girls. Because a lot do speak English. I could definitely start by just going up, saying hi, and giving a compliment. But I feel like if I’m going to stop someone randomly, I need to continue the conversation beyond just saying hi and a compliment. You know what I mean?

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#373

Yeah, you absolutely don’t have to continue though, it’s perfectly fine and sometimes more fun imo to just walk up and compliment a girl and make her smiley/thank you then just leave. But if even that is too overwhelming for you rn, you could start by just walking up and asking for the time, thats what I did.

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#374

Yup, in this case, I’ll just start off by saying they’re cute or complimenting something I like about them. With some, I might ask the time, but the point is to approach three girls a day and get over this fear of starting a conversation. Great, let’s do it! Tomorrow I’ll be working from home, but starting Saturday, I’ll start doing that.

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#375

Although, when I go out to the supermarket tomorrow, I might as well try asking a girl nearby for an opinion on a product (for example)

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#376

Yeah, I just walked around a mall waiting (driving for Uber Eats) and pff I was feeling needy and got like minimal female looks/attention /: that’s frustrating (edit: lol reading this the next day I guess I have become spoiled. Thanks SubClub :relaxed:) . Wasn’t feeling up to doing any approaches but there weren’t that many women around to begin with, maybe people are prepping for Halloween. Anyway this might be recon.

By the way, if you do compliment a girl, try to let it be genuine. Also if you walk up to a girl and say anything, consider that an approach and a victory. Also, one thing we should stop doing is using the word “approach” because it has a somewhat negative connotation. That’s why I try to use “i walked up” instead.

#377

Man so this 1 minute loop gave me hella recon, not the worst I’ve had but it was up there to be honest. Probably in the top 5 recon I’ve ever felt. I feel okay and chill now though, thank God. Maybe just had to do some processing. So, I’ll try to do 1 minute again next loop day and if I get recon like this again I’ll go back to 30 seconds.

#378

Day 4 rest

Feel good today. Wish I knew why I felt recon so intensely yesterday. Overexposure? Script clashing? Maybe just general recon, maybe I didn’t eat enough. Anyway, will see how the day goes.

Note: I think a huge source of recon for me is when I’m running a dense or aura-heavy stack and I’m hungry.

#379

Day 5

1 min TIH

Edit: I think the Panther Module might’ve been a mistake. Might’ve.

Edit: yeah, it’s like I get recon if I don’t approach/talk to people, and ugh lol. Then again maybe I’m just adjusting to this custom or w/e. Or overloaded?

Edit: yeah I was kinda walking around after the gym being a weird judgmental as*hole in my head (btw I might’ve gotten some female attention at the gym but not sure), and really it’s just a cope cuz I’m a sad frustrated lonely boy :pensive: (and in recon, but not as bad as 2 days ago). So yeah just feeling needy, like I was feeling the “soul crying”/inner current of anger/sadness type recon. Well, I suppose at least I know work is being done 🥲

Edit: okay, so actually had some good interactions from some girls I picked up from despite feeling kinda sad (same with last night actually, but just one girl). Also ran into a girl who used to work at a place I picked up food from, got her number, she asked how old I was and found out she’s 18.

#380

Day 6 rest

Wet dream last night /: That aside, today has been good. Feel back on track, female attention/looks/smiles/proximity etc. and I just feel horny/sexual (thx Inner Gasoline maybe). And yeah have just felt good all day.

Oh, last night and maybe the night before, I felt the urge to drink which I haven’t for years, it might’ve been because of bad sleep + recon, but I got good sleep last night and I feel good. Maybe something got reconciled? :thinking: It for sure felt like there was inner/subconscious resistance going on, and I just bore through it.

#381

Day 7

1:30 min TIH

Edit: didn’t do that much today except go to the dentist briefly, went shopping briefly, and took a yoga class. Shopping I noticed some proximity, like one lady seemed to be following me. At the yoga class I feel I received positive attention, and the proximity was noticeable before and after class. Maybe felt some neediness early in day, but later felt fine.

Realized maybe I should just run this custom and stop reading about other people’s experiences with modules/custom builds etc. Just need to run this custom for a while and focus on my own results and forget about possible future builds/titles I want to run for now.