A Journey of Self Love (DR st2-EOG st1)

Journals - Major Programs
#281

I just did a 3 minute loop of Mind’s Eye and I saw a vision of an orange when I read this. LBfH is maybe just peeling off the outer skin of the orange containing all the sexual juices inside, because you wouldn’t want to bite into an orange that has not been peeled yet. But when the orange is peeled, all the other sexual subliminals will make the biting into the orange even juicier. So the skin of the orange represents the trauma covering your natural and inborn sexual expression which is the yummy inside of the orange…

Don’t ask me what the f**k that little thing I wrote was, I blame Mind’s Eye :grin: :smiling_face_with_three_hearts:

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#282

I think Minds Eye is giving you super powers :wink:

My mind replaced the orange for a lemon and I found myself singing this song… The metaphor still holds.

Squeeze me baby, 'til the juice runs down my leg
Squeeze me baby, 'til the juice runs down my leg
The way you squeeze my lemon, ah
I’m gonna fall right out of bed
Bed, bed, bed, yeah

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#283

The last week, specially the last 3 or 4 days Ive been kind of contemplating in awe the shift in attitude EOG has been giving me towards money making, work and self value. Of course EOG being lubricated by LBFH and True Sell.
Definitely Im gonna do a 3rd cycle of st1 after this 2nd one finishes.

Also tomorrow Im gonna replace LBFH for my Heartsong/LBFH custom.

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#284

I think I found my christmas present :christmas_tree: :gift: and I admit I got a little aroused :rofl: :rofl:

  1. LBFH
  2. True Sell
  3. All Seeing
  4. Chiron
  5. Dragons Tongue
  6. Eagle Eye
  7. Intuition Enhancer
  8. Story Teller
  9. Lion IV
  10. Manipulus
  11. Fearsome
  12. Rogue
  13. Temptation
  14. Entranced
  15. Ethereal Presence
  16. Transcendental Connection
  17. Wisdom Personified
  18. Mystery

Im gonna give it some breathing time, to see if I change something or end up putting it with many other customs Ive designed, but never builded :stuck_out_tongue_closed_eyes:

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#285

Im sick again since tuesday, some fever since yesterday… Im on antibiotics.
Im stopping this cycle right here, I listenend in the morning and definitely being sick is not when you want to load your brain with subs… unless its Paragon.

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#286

Currently in washout while I recover from this awful flu. Last night I barely could sleep at all.

Anyway… I have my new stack for the next cycle.

EOG st1: This would be the 3rd cycle of this beauty, but the previous 2 have been less than 21 days… EOG is the core of my stack.
Alchemist st3: I got this idea after my trial loop of ROM yesterday morning.
Revelation of Mind: This title has many things that speak to me and somehow mixing it with Alchemist st3 is very tempting.

Thanks @Tobyone for the idea :wink:

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#287

200w

I must have bad memory… or maybe you mean your sensitive antenas picked something up from one of my dopey journal entries :grinning_face_with_smiling_eyes:

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#288

Yeah… I kind of steal from your journal :rofl::rofl::rofl:

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#289

:face_with_raised_eyebrow: :face_with_raised_eyebrow:

swat

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#290

Chapter IV

After a couple of days of washout and an interesting talk with my unconscious mind I decided for a stack for this 3rd cycle of EOG st1.

Starting today:

EOG st1 × 5 minutes
Revelations of Mind × 5 minutes
Tantric Lover x 6 minutes.

I couldnt find a rational to justify adding TL, I wanted Alchemist st3, but the inner push for TL was very powerful in such a loving way.

I listened to my stack about an hour ago and for the last 10 minutes Ive been feeling a deep sense of inner peace, a sense of softness and gentleness.

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#291

I think I get the reason for TL in my stack now… the combination of Heartsong and LBFH makes me feel sexy and playful, it makes me more grounded and sexual… more aware of my girlfriend… which is a much necessary balance for this stack.
I believe having Alchemist with ROM and EOG would have led me to be a little bit too much on my head, somewhat emotionally unreachable.

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#292

Hummm :thinking: I feel ready for EOG st2, Im gonna start it tomorrow. Just as a reminder of my thought process… I do not feel afraid anymore and Im not engaging in negative thinking.
Im ready to move into taking action, learning, improving and discovering whats next.

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#293

Im already on day 10 of this cycle… Ive been quietly listening to EOG st2, ROM and my Tantric Lover custom.
Something is happening in the background with ROM that I cant quite put in to words, Tantric Lover effects are pretty obvious.
EOG on the other hand… Im questioning my decision to start st2 and thinking I might go back to st1… but its to soon to decide, Im just on day 5 of st2.

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#294

1 week after my last post and today I decided to go “back” to EOG st1… I was not getting any perceivable results from st2.

Tantric Lover is working real good.

RoM… I get the impression that is working on something, but its kind of hard for me to make a concrete statement of what its doing for me.
At this point I believe Im gonna end this cycle and replace it.

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#295

I feel sadness and I want to cry… I feel like Im not made for this world. I dont have what it takes to play “the game” nor do I want to have it.
Ita a very lonesome feeling and a lack of connection to any kind of purpose

Human life seems so fake and meaningless.

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#296

I was in a very introspective mood this morning, all the way down into some dark stuff.

A couple of hours ago I realized that there is a dissonance between things that I like to have/experience in my life and the things that really makes me vibrate in happiness.
That dissonance was bringing me a lot of conflict and dissatisfaction.

I was holding onto dreams of the past… worst thing is some of those dreams werent even my own.

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#297

I will need to rethink the kind of subs that I listen to and the kind of things I give energy to too.

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#298

This cycle ends today on day 20… Im gonna take my washout starting tomorrow.

Today I finished my cycle with:

EOG st
Tantric Lover
RoM

5 minutes each.

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#299

I’m wondering if DR is still working inside you. Perhaps RoM is as well. Thing is, I’ve wondered if RoM starts to re-vivify other programs that have been listened to.

@SaintSovereign @Fire

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#300

I have not consider that possibility before now, but it might be a factor aswell.

Surely RoM is a major factor in all of this… this weekend I have been -in a very clear way- reframing my whole concept of who I am. Basically learning to love and to understand personality traits that I have and didnt quite like, that I wanted to change or get rid of, but that are actually responsible of most of the good things that Ive accomplished through life.

As I said to a friend yesterday, I never really fully liked or accepted being such an introverted, introspective and reflective guy. Now I understand that being that way is the main reason Ive develop the skills, the understandings, the talents that I have.
Those traits are not something I have next to what I enjoy, but are the reasons why I enjoy things the way I do.

Edit: reading what I just wrote, seems like LBFH and RoM results.

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